About Me
About me? Wow! That's my favorite subject. I'm 5'7" and weigh 135 lbs. I have hazel eyes and brown hair. I'm just about to turn 40, so I'll be happy to say I'm 39 for now. I was born on Long Island, NY, but grew up mainly in the Los Angeles area. I graduated high school in 1984 and graduated college in 1988. I was a Sociology major. I found out, the hard way, there's not much that can be done with a BA in Sociology. I've had big, well-paying jobs in the past, but it just burned me out. Now I work part-time. It's a little more difficult to make ends meet, but it has improved my level of sanity.I have a beautiful black Labrador Retriever named Zach. He's 9 years old and has pretty much helped me get through the bad times. I know I have to be responsible for him. He helps me keep my priorities straight. I got him right after I got out of rehab at the suggestion of one of my counselors. Well, I guess it worked. I'm still sober, and Zach and I are still alive! He has Kidney & Liver diseases plus some arthritis. He gets lots of medication, and the vet said he can see no reason why Zach can't live a full life up to about 15 years old. He's my baby and my first priority.Back in 1989 (I was 22), I realized that alcohol consumption was wrecking my life, so I stayed clean and sober for about 6 1/2 years. However, due to my not dealing with my anger, my unwillingness to work the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, my ego, and my false pride, I left an AA meeting during the break, went to a bar and got completely shit-faced. I tried to quit drinking several times over the following 2 years. At one point, I made it to 6 months again, but my boyfriend (at the time), dumped me, so I got drunk again. I had been in and out of detoxes and rehabs to no avail. Finally, I was driving home, drunk, from the Ramrod. A cop was right on my tail. I absolutely froze! Thank G-d he was out of his jurisdiction and he turned off the street we were on. I realized, the next morning, I can't live that way anymore. I could have gotten into an accident, killed someone, killed myself, landed in jail, having my license suspended, etc. During my first 6 years of sobriety, I entered the adult entertainment business. I appeared in 21 scenes in gay porn from 1992-1995. Now THAT was a trip. And I was sober to!I realized it was now or never. I went into detox... well, I was actually Baker Acted (involuntary admission) into the psych ward. That's how fucked up my brain was. I was seeing things and hearing things that weren't there. I was terribly paranoid. My blood pressure was through the roof. So they cleaned me up. My first day without a drink was April 7, 1998. I just celebrated my 9-year anniversary last month.My life is fantastic today. I am severely in debt, I basically live off my credit cards, but I work part-time so I can pay some bills. But seriously, because I've worked the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, I've found great things about me and my life. I'm loved by a wonderful family plus I have a large host of friends. These are people I'm very close to. And if I feel lonely, I don't have to be alone. I call a friend or go to a new AA meeting.
