Every now and then I get a little crazy but that's not the way it's supposed to be. Sometimes my vision is a little hazy when drinking and I can't tell who I should trust or who I let trust me. People try to say I act a little funny, but that's just a figure of speech to me. They tell me I changed because I got money. Every now and then I get a little easy. I let a lot of people depend on me. Then I never think they would ever deceive me. I'll never let another girl get that close to me. I've grown a lot smarter now.
I live a very secluded life and sadly, I suppose, I like it. Very simple. I don't drink or smoke anymore, I don't have any friends in the area. I work, then go home and chill. I watch alot of movies and the Lakers. It's fairly odd for me, but now normal as I really was someone in the past who was easily goated into doing stupid shit. I can remember 2 times in life I was going 100 miles per hour and lost focus on what's important and hit that wall. Hitting the wall doesn't feel good for a long ass time because it was so much fun running free, but it's necessary to find out another side of yourself and grow from that.
