May 30, 2009
i wish you'd just hear me out. if you knew me like you say you do, you know i wouldn't do something so shady. i hope we straighten this out, you're one of the best in my life right now. i'd hate to see this friendship tear apart because of this stupid little argument.
April 4, 2008
i hate being a crank ass bitch. glad to finally have a day off:) felt mighty amazing.
March 14, 2008
pretty much 2 more weeks for the moment i've been waiting for and now i'm nervous more than ever.
February 22, 2008
haven't updated this for well over a month. the past month has kinda been confusing, but now i'm loving every minute of it. i miss my buddies and a special someone. i absolutely cannot wait til april-ish:)
January 15, 2008
i feel like a fool for liking you in the first place. no matter what you say. today was kind of a crappy day. i just want to cry.
January 7, 2008
i almost got killed by a mooseeee today and i got the job at SEARHC=)
January 3, 2009
chocolate covered pretzels are simply the best♥
January 2, 2009
i can't wait til monday the 5th=]
January 1, 2009
you make me smile like no other, i hope you know that.
December 29, 2008
=)))))))))))))))))) i haven't been THIS happen since who knows when.
December 10, 2008
i passed business with a B:]
December 01, 2008
i just started writing a paper that's due at 930 am.
November 06, 2008
i'd like to meet a nice boy, that i can do cute things with and that will stick around.
November 05, 2008
i filled out like a million applications today and i REALLY hope i get a job SOON. i'm starting to feel motivated to do my homework cause things are finally looking up. ahhh. i hope everything turns out the way i want it to, if not, everything happens for a reason and it'll always work out in the end.
November 03, 2008
well it's a new week and a new day. i hope this week is a whole heck of a lot better than last week. i'm glad my cousin will be ok. i miss my best friend. =[
November 01, 2008
wow i cannot believe it's already november. time is flying by and i'm loving every minute of my life. i wouldn't go back and change anything. i'm starting to miss my family and i cannot wait to go back to alaska for christmas break. i'm hoping to get a job soon. wish me luck.xoxo.
October 28, 2008
i went to spokane this past weekend and it was amazing!=] gah, i love my 4 day weekends.
October 15,2008
i wish i could go back a month and freeze that time. i'm having fun now, but last month was funner. no drama. no lies.
October 14, 2008
i'm missing you like crazyyy:( i hate it, i know i shouldn't and i know you don't. i miss those movie nights:)
October 8, 2008
whoa. haven't done this in a grip. back in oregon for school. stressing about a lot of things. i'm missing hanging out with a certain someone:) ahh times change so quickly:(
September 16, 2008
so i'm sorry for bitchin out lately. well i guess i haven't been bitchin out, just went MIA as alee puts it. everything just stressed me out. i will only be taking 2 classes, my car will be paid off, so i'm leaving alaska completely broke. i should be back in salem in a week or so and i couldn't be more excited. i'd be even more excited if i actually got my pfd but that's not looking too good. i miss tami. i REALLY need to go to colorado to spend some time with her. hopefully i'll catch mariann before she moves to wyoming! :( if not i guess i'll go see her and her munchin!
September 15, 2008
life lately has been pretty hectic. this summer has definitely been one of the worst ones yet. i'm going through some rough patches and have nobody there for me. this definitely takes some getting used to. i don't know what to do, to say or who will be there for me in the end. i'm tired of being treated like shit. my grandma still hasn't gotten any better and it's been well over a month. i'm not even sure if i'm going to be able to do school anymore. my best friend is in colorado and i don't even know if i'll get a chance to go visit her, if at all. so sorry for my bitchiness.
September 14, 2008
i don't know why i always tend to set myself up for a fall. no more after this. honey, you're messing with the wrong person. you fuck with me, that's the end of it. i'm tired of being treated like shit. you drive me insaneee but i can't shake the feelings i have for you. i hate how we bitch at each other, then 2 minutes later we're all good.
September 12, 2008
just when everything was starting to look up, everything is falling apart. i have no idea what to do or who to turn to anymore. the one person i thought i'd actually be able to tell something to and that would actually care, is turning out to be someone i can't tell anything to. i hate being questioned and yelled at. i do nothing wrong. well i do but just listen to me for once. i really want to go back to school and i really want you to stick around. nobody does and you're just an awesome person to talk to. don't jump to conclusions. i'm trying so hard to not stress about everything going on right now but it's hard not to. everything will happen the way it's supposed to sooner or later. i'd rather it be sooner than later.
September 11,2008
i start missing you less and less as each day passes. then i catch myself missing you. can't you realize i'm finally happy with myself. it's better off this way and i'm glad i'm realizing it. my day off is turning out to be pretty amazing and i'm slowly getting things done even though i have a million things to do. i miss my friends back in oregon and colorado. i still can't believe mariann is moving to wyoming. tami's down in durango. and even more people are in denver. guess i'm going to be visiting denver after all. the past summer has been hectic and i can't wait for things to change for the better. rumors are flying and i'm losing people left and right.
September 10, 2008
my body's tired and my mind is dead. i just worked two weeks without a day off. my mind is full of tons of thoughts, i can't seem to get things straight. as far as school comes, i'm still figuring it all out. i'm finally seeing who my true friends are; while i'm giving up on others. life goes on and i'm loving every single minute of it. i'm getting back into running and loving my old friends.
August 30, 2008
times are changing and i'm hating every minute of it.
August 16, 2008
just when things started to seem so perfect, everything is falling apart.
August 12, 2008
september's coming up:] CANNOT wait :] oh and happy birthday cody:] hope it was a great one cuz.
August 11, 2008
out of everyone, i think sean is pretty bomb :] thanks for listening to EVERYTHING that i've had to say lately. the advice and opinions have been the best i've heard in a while.
August 7, 2008
i've come to realize that it's hard to forget things your heart won't let you forget. your brain will tell you one thing yet your heart will convince you that you cannot move on. i find myself still living in the past and i can't do that anymore. it's time to forget everything and just move forward. sean was right about the whole heart and brain thing. it's harder than anything else in the world but i know i can do better and be better.
August 6, 2008
i finally had a great laugh last night:]
August 3, 2008
you think i can't go on without but i'll be fine without you cause i've been surviving since you left.
July 27, 2008
today was a sucky day :[
July 23, 2008
i've had tons going through my mind and i've realized i'm happier without you in my life.
July 19, 2008
so, there's this boy, that i miss talking to tons. but i guess this is how it's going to be. i give up. i've tried.
July 17, 2008
i'm tired of pretending everything is ok; because everything isn't ok. open your eyes, you can't be that blind to really see it all.
July 16, 2008
Time stands still when no one understands
you and you don't quite understand yourself.
Today didn't have to be this way, tomorrow
is another day, another chance to make
things right...
July 13, 2008
tired of your bs.
July 11, 2008
i'm sick of playing all these games. i'm ready to move on sweetie:]
July 9, 2008
i've learned you can't tell your heart what to do. it does it all on it's own.
July 7, 2008
happy b-day brandon g:]
July 3, 2008<
and every night before i go to bed and i take another look at what you took and said thinking more or less the more regress for me...
June 30, 2008
you shock and amaze me, make me go keraziii. :D surprise me?
June 29, 2008
i hate the way things have to change. i know everything happens for a reason but it's like when everything's great, something big happens and changes that great feeling.
June 20, 2008
and as time goes on things get clearer and clearer.
June 19, 2008
some days i feel like shit and wish we could go back to being normal for a bit.
June 17, 2008it was awesome but we lost it. it's not impossible for me NOT to care.
June 9, 2008
at times i get so scared but it's impossible for me not to care.
June 7, 2008
sometimes i question my life and existence.
June 6, 2008
i must be a pretty good liar for you to honestly think that every thing's alright.
June 5, 2008
the time spent was time wasteddd. 8 days arghh.
June 2, 2008
alaska in 11 days babyyy.
May 31, 2008
all i've ever wanted was to see you smiling.
May 30, 2008
i float your boat and you sink my battleship.
May 28, 2008
so there's this boy who happens to be awesome. yeah, he's going to be stuck with the title of mr. amazinggg for quite some time.
May 26, 2008
through the unknown black holes, no one knows where we are. tell me how you feel and if i'm gettin near i'll tell you where to steer.
May 25, 2008
i can't believe you struck out on the first dayyy.
May 24, 2008
if anyone could see the way i see things, you'd get a better taste of what i'm all about.
May 22, 2008
i wish i never fell for you and i wish you'd just leave me alone.
May 19, 2008
i wish i was a kid again. idk what i thought would be so great about being grown up.
May 12, 2008
i kinda miss who you used to be.
May 1, 2008
you make me want to vomit.
April 30, 2008
i've just found out we were NEVER fucking close friends. thanks.
April 24, 2008
everything used to feel so right.
April 21, 2008
i find myself not being able to get enough of this boy.
April 15, 2008
&& i always took you backkk. not anymore. you had me goin', what a show.
April 14, 2008
:/
April 10, 2008
no matter how hard i try, he'll always be a part of me.
April 9, 2008
the blazers/lakers game last night was totally bomb.
April 7, 2008
yes i was stupid enough to fall for you but you were cruel enough to LET me.
April 5, 2008
those butterfiles you used to give me...they've gone away.
April 2, 2008
i like the way he says my name.
March 28, 2008
life has bit me in the ass. i suck at life.
March 23, 2008
so i've found that jealousy really sucks.
March 15, 2008
seems like all we had is over now you left to rest. and your tears are dried up now , you just lay without a sound.<3 hollywood undead
March 11, 2008
once you have me, you'll always come back.
March 9, 2008
i wish i never missed you.
March 8, 2008
mike l. makes me smile like no other. ily boo. hahhh.
March 7, 2008
i don't care what they say i'm in love with you.
March 6, 2008
life is full of nothing but secrets and lies.
March 5, 2008
MOST guys are jerks.
March 3, 2008
i luhh erikka?:]
March 2, 2008
i really miss my family.<3
February 28, 2008
i finally passed ONE of my math tests with an A-.
February 28, 2008
so i lied about next month, it's 4/8/08<3 my baddd.
February 27, 2008
i cannot wait until next month. 3/8/08<3
February 26, 2008
i wanna go to china someday.
February 25, 2008
more than half the time i feel like shit but don't show it.
February 24, 2008
i actually applied for a few more jobs yesterday.
February 23, 2008
uncrustables are the BEST.
February 22, 2008
i fell hard this time and like always you weren't there to catch me...i'm through with you.
February 21, 2008
i don't wanna quit school but at the same time i'm not motivated whatsoever to do the homework and actually pass the classes.
February 20, 2008
there's this boy and he's starting to rock my world.
February 19, 2008
i hate when guys say you're the only one in your life when you're not the only one--hello i was NOT born yesterday. i'm not as dumb as you think i am.
February 18, 2008
my days are looking brighter and brighter as the days go by.
February 17, 2008
i've decided this is a new year, there's going to be a new me. no more mess ups.
February 16, 2008
i've come to realize i'm better off without you.
February 15, 2008
i love my dad. :]
February 14, 2008
so i like this boy. but he's kinda messing with my feelings.
February 13, 2008
my baby sister is turning 13 today.
February 11, 2008
Maybe next year my birthday cake won't suck so much...
February 10, 2008
So I went to see 27 Dresses and it was OK. It looked SO much more cuter on the previews.
February 9, 2008
i only did one problem on my math test and now my instructor thinks i need to mature and grow up...
February 8, 2008
the one guy that i thought was actually pretty decent is turning out to be the biggest jerk out there.
February 5, 2008
i pretty much failed my health midterm
February 4, 2008
i actually have someone on my friends list that has the same birthday as ME.
February 3, 2008
i'm still super sick. :[
February 2, 2008
i'm sickkk && jakeee said he'd marry me if i win the lottery.:]
February 1, 2008
mike l. is pretty dope. :]
January 31, 2008
i think ketchup on rice is disgusting.
January 30, 2008
i made tacos today.
January 28, 2008
i can't cook.
January 27, 2008
i'm really glad me and jakee are buds.:]
January 26, 2008
i can be a nerd when it comes to math.
January 25, 2008
alex lost her bet and owes me $20.:]
January 24, 2008
popcorn with tabasco sauce is really yummy.
January 23, 2008
i never really lifted weights until last night.
January 22, 2008
i watch the news EVERY morning and it makes me feel old.
January 21, 2008
i'm trying to give up soda.
January 20, 2008
i'm super addicted to taco bell, it's kinda gross. but hey i'm not some skinny girl puking up everything i eat. i love food.
January 19, 2008
i sometimes ignore people's calls on purpose--i like having some time to myself. sorry.
January 18, 2008
i used to want to be a dentist when i was growing up.
January 17, 2008
i've never been given anything on valentine's day.
January 16, 2008
i take night classes and on saturday.
January 15, 2008
i like toasted peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
January 14, 2008
pepperoni with cream cheese is actually pretty good.
January 13, 2008
most of the clothes i buy i only use ONCE.
January 12, 2008
i really enjoy running.
January 11, 2008
i have a 16 year old aunt.
January 10, 2008
my aunt passed away today. :[
January 9, 2008
i think black licorice is disguisting.
January 8, 2008
some guys that have tongue piercings turn me off.
January 7, 2008
i never make new year's resolution.
January 6, 2008
i really like jesse.
January 5, 2008
i am super scared of spiders.
January 4, 2008
it's really disgusting when a guy's ass crack shows.
January 3, 2008
i'm back in oregon from winter break.:]
January 2, 2008
i really need a job--i'm so broke.
January 1, 2008
i'd never date a short guy.