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I am here for Dating and Friends

About Me

I am a handful.
I am complicated.
Drama seems to find me everywhere.
I am ♥beautiful&hearts, even if I fight with you when you tell me.
I have a Wall up, and it probably won't come down for you.
If you can't handle me at my worse, then you don't deserve me at my best.
I don't believe in using profanity to make a point.
I drink, but not to get drunk.
Music plays a big part in my life.
♥Gidget&hearts is my car, and my life.
Do NOT send me a message saying "hey sexy" or anything like that. I will NOT respond.
I am a down to earth person.
Contact me for more. I am sure my profile tells all though.
The Enemy has been Defeated
Death couldn't hold you down
We are going to lift our voices in victory
We are going to make our praises loud

Five a.m. on the bathroom floor
From the night before
Do you find me dreadful
What a shame such a sad disgrace
Such a pretty face
But she's not regretful
- AFI

Foolish heart looks like we're here again
Same old game of plastic smile
Don't let anybody in
Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break
How much will they take before I'm empty
Do I let it show, does anybody know?
-Natalie Grant
My world is closing in
On the inside
But I’m not showing it
When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smile
Still I’m broken
-Building 429

My Interests

I'd like to meet:



I am looking for the guy that is truly different from all other guys. That doesn't mind showing me off to his friends, and likes me for me. I want to find a guy who will fight for me and earn my trust and not just assume he is going to have it from the beginning. I have been hurt a lot in the past, and I am not putting up with it anymore. I want to find a guy who isn't scared of talking to me, or will just grab me in a hug and won't let go. Who will just let me cry if needed. Who loves to cuddle and just hang out. When I find that guy, I know my wall will crumble and I will never have another "first kiss" again. Just waiting till he shows up.

Maybe someday soon when she’s alone
She’ll decide to take a life that’s not her own
Lying on the ground beside her gun
Never knowing she’s not the only one
All she ever needed was a voice
Telling here that she could make a different choice
Now is not the time cause it’s too late
What good is God doing you when He is only faith
-EleventySeven

My Blog

Here I go again.

Father, hear my prayerI need the perfect wordsWords that he will hearAnd know they're straight from YouI don't know what to sayI only know it hurtsTo see my only friend slowly fade awaySo maybe this t...
Posted by on Tue, 19 May 2009 19:40:00 GMT

The Picture

Kid Rock:Livin my life in a slow hellDifferent girl every night at the hotelI ain't seen the sunshine In three damn daysBeen fuelin'up on cocaine and whiskeyWish I had a good girl to miss meLord I won...
Posted by on Thu, 14 May 2009 01:02:00 GMT

I am done.

Take your lies and leave. I am done. I am tired of it all. You have a girlfriend. Leave me alone! Be true to her, or don't be with her!I wish she could see half the things you say to me sometimes. I k...
Posted by on Thu, 14 May 2009 00:50:00 GMT

I'm done.

Never again will people know anything. I will go back to being introverted and not talking to anyone. Is that better for everyone? Heaven forbid I actually try to make my life better. Heaven forbid I ...
Posted by on Sat, 09 May 2009 09:27:00 GMT

Clarification!!

When I was talking about a "new guy" I meant that there isn't one, and that I can be happy just being me. The pills - they are for when I need them. Doctor's orders: take as needed. I use to take them...
Posted by on Thu, 07 May 2009 19:45:00 GMT

Beautiful Day!

And thats what it is. Nothing is going to bring me down today. I have a smile on my face, and a lot of good things are happening today. I am so excited!I haven't figured out why there has to be a "new...
Posted by on Thu, 07 May 2009 07:15:00 GMT

Goodbye

"Goodbye" Miley CyrusI could honestly sayYou've been on my mindSince i woke up today (up today)i look at your photographall the timeThese memories come back to lifeAnd i dont mindI remember when we ki...
Posted by on Tue, 05 May 2009 12:34:00 GMT

Screw you!

Who ever is reading this. I am done. I am done with everyone. I want new friends. I want a new life. I want to go somewhere where no one knows me. That way everyone can just have a normal fucking life...
Posted by on Mon, 04 May 2009 08:58:00 GMT

Moving Forward

So.. I was told of this band... HEAD... pretty good. Its the old guitarist from KORN. It is christian music, and it is amazing. I have done a lot of soul searching the past week. I thought I knew what...
Posted by on Fri, 01 May 2009 01:00:00 GMT

The Climb

This song is so true... *******************************************I can almost see it.That dream I'm dreaming, butThere's a voice inside my head sayingYou'll never reach itEvery step I'm takin'Every ...
Posted by on Thu, 30 Apr 2009 11:33:00 GMT