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SI Support and Love

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About Me


My name is MiMi (obviously a nickname). I am 20 years old. I live in the UK. Simplistics out the way there.
I self harm. Lets get straight to it. I have done for roughly 4 maybe 5 years. I kept it well hidden until this January. My Mother saw my scars on my leg.
I choose to "cut" my leg because it is the most easiest place to hide them. Please do not copy that though. I am not here to support people to self harm. I know how destructive and heart breaking it can be. I am simply trying to reach out to others, to show them that they are not alone. Their are many of us.
Nothing is like self harming. Sex, drugs, booze, tried them all. To block out the pain. But nothing compares to the utter rush that SI gives. Then after, you have to deal with the physical and mental pain, the physical and mental scarring, you begin to lie regardless of how honest you normally are. Life changes and there is nothing you can do to stop it. You learn to cope with it. You will learn SOON that it controls you.
And this is what I have been living with for all these years.
Anyway, things have been getting so hard for me lately. In January, I confessed all to my partner and my Mother. I pleaded for help from my Mother. Only to get none. To be told "its just a faze". Long faze eh? So, I wrote her a desperate message. Explaining everything. How I am scared of the next cut because I dont know how bad its gonna be. How I feel theres more than the SI, in other words, I think or believe I SI because I am depressed. As I was later told I am.
The next day I went to see the Community Psych Nurse (CPN). She told me she had "concerns". And felt I was extremely depressed. This scared the crap out of me.
She also asked me to keep a journal of everyday life for me. So I have been. But my Mother went looking through my draws and found it. So now I have decided to post on the internet. For everyone.
Please do not leave me any negative comments, because, well, to be frank, I already know. I know its wrong. I know its not socially acceptable. I know that most of the population will be ignorant of this, and will think I am some stupid Emo kid. Well, I'm not. I am not a child anymore.
I hope someone is reading this who is to scared to go get help, to tell anyone. And I hope that person reads this and sees that they have to get help.
This is my own SI support place. I created it for people to get help and feel "normal", like a little family. As the family grew, I realised that my offspring needed somewhere to vent. So I created my SI support group: http://groups.myspace.com/SIsupportgroup. Check it out. Please. It will help.
Feel free to add me anytime. I am always here for YOU.


Please read my new blogs on: http://journalofaselfharmer.blogspot.com
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~The Butterfly Mission~ (From Stephanie with love)


Draw a butterfly on yourself with a permanant marker and name it. If you cut before it completley fades away, that means you killed it. If you don't cut until it fades away, it survived. But be sure not to make the butterfly fading away an excuse to cut after its gone. Just draw another before the other one goes away completley. If the butterfly doesn't live, its ok, don't beat yourself up for it. [I have killed plenty myself] Just start over!
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Groups Artwork...
This section is dedicated to my friends and fellow SI'ers. It contains a selection of poems, pictures, drawings and other bits of inspiration. Please be respectful if you are going to leave comments about any of the work on display. This is the link for the site: The Groups Work

My Blog

Our Mantra

"I know where i've beenSo i know where i'm going[Chorus: (x2)]You don't know where I've beenYou don't know what i've been throughSo how can you judge meYou don't know bout the life that I gotYou don't...
Posted by on Tue, 27 Nov 2007 07:41:00 GMT

Distractions and info advice

There are several different flat-out-crisis-in-the-moment strategies typically suggested. My favorite is doing anything that isn't SI and produces intense sensation: squeezing ice, taking a cold bath ...
Posted by on Wed, 05 Sep 2007 08:44:00 GMT

My poems - MAY BE A TRIGGER

Hey all, hope you are all well.I havent blogged for a while so I thought I would.I've been writing loads lately as my urges for SI become even stronger. I've recently been shown a new distraction tech...
Posted by on Mon, 03 Sep 2007 08:08:00 GMT

Support website (For SI)

Hi everyone. Everyone has been asking me for sites that they can visit to chat and seek more help and information. Here are some sites thats I use regularly. At the moment these are more specific to S...
Posted by on Tue, 07 Aug 2007 06:36:00 GMT

Bill of Rights for Self Harmers

Please read and remember. Mimi x x x Bill of Rights. The right to caring, humane medical treatment. Self-injurers should receive the same level and quality of care that a person presenting with an id...
Posted by on Mon, 16 Jul 2007 07:51:00 GMT

mmmm just a ramble

so, its been ages since i last blogged. thought i should, not that anyone would care. so, 6 weeks since i last SI. not bad i reckon for a self confessed addict like myself. umm, i dunno, but summ...
Posted by on Sat, 09 Jun 2007 18:04:00 GMT

Research article from Nursing Times

I thought this may be of interest for some of you. Sourced from Nursing Times, Vol 103, No 19, May 8 2007, by Kevin Donoghue, Ken Lomax, and Jan Hall. This is the summary of the study: - The involvem...
Posted by on Thu, 10 May 2007 05:45:00 GMT

Poems from Lew (thank you dude)

These poems were written by Lew (Kung Fu Lew). They represent his feelings so if you are gonna comment please make it constructive rather than destructive. When I was Five. My grandpa Laying in bed ...
Posted by on Wed, 09 May 2007 12:39:00 GMT

i dunno really :S

A king is sitting in his castle, totally depressed. He orders his subjects to find him something that will make him happy but also cry when he is happy. Obviously, his subjects bring him loads of stuf...
Posted by on Mon, 07 May 2007 06:33:00 GMT

Getting free, the beginning.

Hey to you, thanks for reading this. Ok, I am tired, fed up and sick of being caught up in the coils of SI and I wanna break free. In my life I have given up so much, I can do this too. I have no idea...
Posted by on Sun, 06 May 2007 06:02:00 GMT