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... Men tax my emotions the way the government tax my paychecks - VC...

About Me

Vimrod rocks!
...]2007[...

updated 06.02.07
"We must not shed tears. That is the defeat of the body by the heart. Because, for us, this thing called 'the heart' can become nothing less than proof that one's existence is superfluous." Rukia - Bleach. Ep. 19
updated 05.28.07
If I haven't learned anything at all about people, it has to be this: keep people who compliment your life, not complicate it. I'm taking your advice: I'm moving on with my life. But for those who truly know me, when you decide to return, I'll be standing right here where you left me. Good luck with your endeavors! You'll make it. We've always known that. :)
updated 05.11.07
Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.
-Carl Sandburg
Life isn't easy, but with a wonderful family and great friends - it sure makes it easier to go on fighting :) Every time I feel as though the world is caving in on me, I think of them, and I know I will make it through. Every time I feel as though I've taken one step back, they always remind me of how many steps forward I've taken. Every time I think about the glass being half empty, they remind me that the glass is half full. Love - it really can be a wonderful thing.
updated 01.09.07
It's going to be a fantastic year - I just know it :)
The song on the profile, I guess, can be said is a window into the makings of me - what I'm feeling, what I'm going through (or been through), you can say it is representative of my current & past life/situation(s). (lyrics always provided) Though, of course not all lyrics will capture "my life" nor will it be 100% accurate, but it's on here for a reason. Thus far, 2007 has been great - I know, I know - too soon to tell, but I'm telling you... it's a great feeling to wake up (wouldn't you love waking up at 6am daily?! c'mon!!) & just know that there are things to look forward to (whether good or bad), it's experiences yet to be experienced. I feel really good about 2007. It was supposed to be the greatest year of my life, no reason why it still shouldn't be. I'm very positive & very hopeful. This year will blow all the previous years away. Unlike previous years, I'm prepared for the roller coaster ride! .I'm often misunderstood, But I would like to think that I'm a different person now than I was a few months ago. The rumors are true, I'm an emotional train wreck, but I'm working ..ing through the debris, I'm picking up the pieces worth picking up and trying to leave behind the pieces of me that I can no longer carry. I've got a lot of baggage that tends to weigh me down, I'm working on it - I'm learning to pack lighter. I've got much to learn about myself. So love me, appreciate me, hate me for everything that I was, that I am or ever will be. But if you expect change from me, you have to tell me what is wrong. Hindsight is 100%.
...]Quotes[...
01.02.07
It's no good trying to keep up old friendships. It's painful for both sides. The fact is, one grows out of people, and the only thing is to face it. - W. Somerset Maugham
...it must be a sign...
12.27.06
Only in quiet waters do things mirror themselves undistorted. Only in a quiet mind is adequate perception of the world. - Hans Margolius
There is no greater sorrow than to recall in misery the time when we were happy - Dante
Language... has created the word "loneliness" to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word "solitude" to express the glory of being alone. ~Paul Johannes Tillich, The Eternal Now
Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up. - James Baldwin
Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings. - Anais Nin
Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. ~Author Unknown
12.05.06
Every ceiling, when reached, becomes a floor, upon which one walks as a matter of course and prescriptive right. Aldous Huxley
09.19.06
"Pain - you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it... heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers... you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time, pain can be managed. But sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it... hits way below the belt and doesnt let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is, you cant out run it, and life always makes more." - Grey's Anatomy Season 2 Ep. 5
"Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass and when the dam bursts all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage not a cocoon, we can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired. We are scared. Denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world head on, guns blazing. "Denial" - it's not just a river in Egypt, it's a freakin ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?" Grey's Anatomy - Season 2 Ep. 4
"There's something to be said about a glass half full, about knowing when to say when. I think it's a floating mind, a barometer of need and desire. It's entirely up to the individual and depends on whats being poured, sometimes all we want is a taste, other times there's no such thing as enough - the glass is bottomless and all we want... is more." Grey's Anatomy - Season 2 Ep. 2
06.07.06
"When you plant lettuce, if it does not grow well, you don't blame the lettuce. You look for reasons it is not doing well. It may need fertilizer, or more water, or less sun. You never blame the lettuce. Yet if we have problems with our friends or family, we blame the other person. But if we know how to take care of them, they will grow well, like the lettuce. Blaming has no positive effect at all, nor does trying to persuade using reason and argument. That is my experience. No blame, no reasoning, no argument, just understanding. If you understand, and you show that you understand, you can love, and the situation will change."
-Thich Nhat Hanh
...]Leo's Fleeting Thoughts[...
07.17.07 7:40
60 mins and 582.1 cals burned... boooooo
05.16.07 11:44:45
60 mins and 641.7 cals burned. yay me. curse me for forgetting to log my workouts :(
05.07.07 11:53:02
60 mins and 639.8 cals burned. not bad :)
05.06.07 3:07:27
... even in my dreams I can't make him love me ...
03.29.07 11:58:16
65 mins and only 590.9 cals burned. Not bad, I guess. :)
03.08.07 12:38:27
I win! I still love you, but I am far better than you will ever deserve!
01.18.07 20:57:54
(from convo with a friend...) ...maybe it wasn't love [name]... maybe it was an infatuation or an obsession...what do 17 year olds know about love anyways? you wake up one day at 24 and wonder what love really feels like
01.11.07 1042
I MySpace too much :( *focus focus focus!!!!*
No one is aware of how important a moment is until it is made important - that, my friends, is a kairotic moment. (and yes, you may quote me)
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updated 01.11.07

My Interests

:: Happy times ::
+ Family +
+ Friends +
+ Monkeys +
+ Peaches +
+ Crocheting +
+ Cooking for my guinea-pig roommate (who, I know, only always tells me how yummy things are just so he doesn't have to cook for himself) +
+ MySpace - I'm not afraid to admit it! +
i Y those who Y me :)
heck, sometimes I even Y those who don't Y me

My interests? My Family and Friends!! The ups and downs, good and bad times, the smiles and tears - through it all, I have found that love is a wonderful thing!

Van --
[noun]:

A dance involving little to no clothing

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

I'd like to meet:



Not YOU & I say that in the nicest possible way. I do not wish to be a number on your profile. Friends are not one time hitters who come by to leave comments like "thanks for the add" I think that's just a little pathetic. Please don't waste your time, definitely don't waste MINE
Thank you! (" ,)

SMiLES are CONTAGIOUS!

Under construction

last updated: 09.07.07

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So, I see you've noticed my friends list is gone *POOF* hehe what to do, what to do!! .
(updated 01.19.07)

Music:

The Song:

...][ What’s Good by Jordyn Taylor ][...

Oh, Its just another day
pickin' up the pieces baby,
tryin' to find the reasons not to go
and give it all away cause every time your missin'
well I’m feelin' that I'm losin' part of me
and I can't remember where things went wrong
cause it's been so long and I,
I can't believe that it's the end
So baby help me understand !

What's good, What’s good? with you
If I'm not the one you want,
then I don't wanna sit and wonder
What’s good, What’s good? with you
Boy I'm sick of bein' lost
and I just wanna know what's good,
what’s good with you?

Oh, it seems so meant to be
till everything got twisted baby,
look at how we drifted from those days,
but I won't walk away
no. I deserve an explanation,
tell me why you're givin' up on me
cause I can't remember where things went wrong
It's time to let me know
cause this ain't the way to let love end,
so baby help me understand

What’s good, What’s good? with you
If I'm not the one you want,
then I don't wanna sit and wonder
What’s good, What’s good? with you
Boy I'm sick of bein’ lost
and I just wanna know what’s good,
what’s good with you?

Bridge:
Cause it's gone to far...
can't you see these scars
this look of loneliness
cause I'm so confused
what did I do to you to end up in this mess
"Nothings wrong, nothings wrong"
so you tell me, but I can't feel the truth
So what’s good, what’s good with you?

What’s good, What’s good? with you
If I'm not the one you want,
then I don't wanna sit and wonder
What’s good, What’s good? with you
Boy I'm sick of bein’ lost
and I just wanna know what’s good,
what’s good with you?

Television:

:: TV shows/Box Sets ::
+ Grey's Anatomy +
+ LOST +
+ Desperate Housewives +
+ Nip/Tuck +
+Sex & The City +
+ Ugly Betty +
I enjoy the ABC network :)

Books:

Pocket Positives for Inspiration: An Anthology of Quotations (I got it from my secret Santa for Christmas, 2006 & I just LOVE IT!!!)

Heroes:

My Mommy, my Daddy and my younger brothers - John & Danny (you would think I'd know better... but they have taught me so much) MyGen Profile Generator

My Blog

an email I received: getting over the ex

I waited so long for the moment. I imagined it. I wished for it. I dreamed of it. When it finally happened, it threw me into a spiral of mixed emotions. I don't even know what to make of it all... I r...
Posted by ..::Vivianne::.. on Wed, 01 Aug 2007 08:07:00 PST

Something from a co-worker

I received this email from a co-worker. I can't say I agree with everything, but I suppose some of it does make sense. What have I taken from it? Only time will tell :)     ******* Star...
Posted by ..::Vivianne::.. on Fri, 06 Jul 2007 02:51:00 PST

Slideshow: Vegas May 19-21 and Nor Cal May 23-26

:: Just documenting some memories via blog posting ::Vegas May 19-21 and Nor Cal May 23-26 last updated: 05.28.07so many wonderful pictures I couldn't post :(..> ....> ...
Posted by ..::Vivianne::.. on Sun, 17 Jun 2007 03:53:00 PST

AJ Rafael

This is my brother's friend AJ Rafael. I believe he is a very talented young man. I don't think his talent should go unnoticed. Enjoy. There's a part II that is just as moving. (He does have ...
Posted by ..::Vivianne::.. on Thu, 26 Apr 2007 12:52:00 PST

another week gone by

So I've had quite a week-full. My beach-sumo match with my baby brother (who is 19 now.... gosh I'm getting old) bestowed upon me a dislocated rib or a sprain muscle of some sort. But don't worry - I'...
Posted by ..::Vivianne::.. on Mon, 23 Apr 2007 11:42:00 PST

Hell Explained by a Chemistry Student

The following is something I received from a friend via email. I thought I should share it with the MySpace community. Maybe to provide some insight or to stir up a few religious debates or whatever -...
Posted by ..::Vivianne::.. on Mon, 16 Apr 2007 02:58:00 PST

Feeling good!

There is definitely something about coming to work and finding beautiful flowers from a person who has already done so much to help me.Just another little token from her kind heart to ensure that I ke...
Posted by ..::Vivianne::.. on Thu, 29 Mar 2007 01:56:00 PST

random

oh, I'm so excited. MySpace has an album function now - oh goody lolThe simple things in life always provides me with entertainment.... and for those of you who know... yes, I am ok. ...
Posted by ..::Vivianne::.. on Thu, 22 Mar 2007 05:01:00 PST

teehee... I win =P

Ladies and gentlemen, I think I have finally done it. The battle: Van vs. Van is reaching the end of its course. Although it is not quite over, I think can confidently say: I win. I win! I win!! ...
Posted by ..::Vivianne::.. on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 12:52:00 PST

actified v. benedryl

I think I found my new kryptonite   I thought Benedryl was bad, but Actifed... acts-too-fast its always those darn little pills that screws me up the most!...
Posted by ..::Vivianne::.. on Wed, 28 Feb 2007 11:14:00 PST