Don't mind me. I'm slightly distracted with how this happy little vacation on the good ship Holy Shit is gonna pan out for me.
Ours is a generation that circles the globe in search of something we haven't tried before. Never refuse an invitation. Never resist the unfamiliar. Never fail to be polite. And never outstay your welcome. Just keep your mind open and suck in the experience, and if it hurts, you know what? It's probably worth it. You hope and you dream, but you never believe that something is going to happen for you - not like it does in the movies. And when it actually does, you expect it to feel different, more visceral, more real. Believe in paradise. But know it's not someplace you look for, because it's not where you go, it's how you feel for a moment in your life. And if you find that moment, it will last forever...
So you want to know about me?
Not much to tell really. I talk a big game, but really I’m a happy-at-home quiet sort. pwahaha yea, right. I’ve lived a hard life, experienced just about everything, and now I’m content to just enjoy what’s most important – my kids, my family, and my friends. My 4 year old’s the funniest little guy I’ve ever met, and well, my daughter’s a 40 year old trapped in the body of a little 5th grader, but I love them both with all my heart (but sorry – I won’t post pics of them on the internet.) I love being surrounded by people so long as I have a sideline to retreat to, but when it comes to work and school I’m not content unless I’m giving it everything I’ve got. I find beauty and fascination in everything and everyone. I hardly ever "stop to smell the roses," because there are always too many things I feel I need to create, or more often than not, destroy and then recreate. I'm going to school full-time for Medicolegal Death Investigation, and then on to Forensic Sciences, and my responsible alter-ego works full time for the Federal Government. Taking it easy is not in my vocabulary, and sleep is for mere mortals. I love to learn, to read, I love music, movies, and art. I used to paint all the time, but now that’s dropped to the wayside while I try my hand at writing, and it’s been tremendously fulfilling to hear the responses from those I’ve touched with my brutally honest words. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. My girlfriends are the most amazing people on this planet, and I have no idea what I ever did to deserve them, but I’m certainly privileged to be a part of their lives. I figure I only get one chance at this, so I’d better enjoy it all while I can. "Merciful Father, I have squandered my days with plans of many things. This was not among them. But at this moment, I beg only to live the next few minutes well. For all we ought to have thought, and have not thought; all we ought to have said, and have not said; all we ought to have done, and have not done; I pray thee God for forgiveness.".. .. ..Portrait of a Romantic - That's Me!
"I am unique"
Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.
HOW TO GET ALONG WITH ME -
Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!
WHAT I LIKE ABOUT BEING ME -
My ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level.
My ability to establish warm connections with people.
Admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life.
My creativity, intuition, and sense of humor.
Being unique and being seen as unique by others.
Having aesthetic sensibilities.
Being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me.
WHAT'S HARD ABOUT BEING ME -
Experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair.
Feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved.
Feeling guilty when I disappoint people.
Feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me.
Expecting too much from myself and life.
Fearing being abandoned.
Obsessing over resentments.
Longing for what I don't have.
Portrait of an INFP - That's Me! - THE IDEALIST
I am focused on making the world a better place for people. My primary goal is to find out my meaning in life. What is my purpose? How can I serve humanity in my life? I am an idealist and a perfectionist, and drive myself hard in achieving the goals I have set for myself. I am highly intuitive about people. I realy heavily on intuition to guide me, and use my discoveries to constantly search for value in life. I am on a continuous mission to find truth and meaning in underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained is sifted through my value system, and is sifted to see if it has any potential to refine or redefine my value system. The goal is always the same - I am driven to help people and make the world a better place. Thoughtful and considerate, i am a good listener and put people at ease. Although I may be reserved in expressing emotion, I have a very deep well of caring and I am genuinely interested in understanding people. I am a valued friend and confidante. I am quite warm - with people I know well. I don't like conflict and go great lengths to avoid it. If I must I approach with feeling. In conflict situations, I place little importance on who is right or wrong. i don't want to feel badly. Because of this, I sometimes appear irrational and illogical. On the other hand, I make a very good mediator, and am good at resolving other people's conflicts because I intuitively understand people's perspectives, feelings, and I genuinely want to help them. I am felxible and laid-back, unles one of my values is violated, and then I may become aggressive and fight passionately. Any project I undertake becomes a "cause" and I will pursue it with determination and vigor. I am unaware of mundane things in life. I will go long periods without noticing a stain on the carpet, but will carefully and meticulously brush a speck of dust off a book I am reading. I don't like hard facts and logic. I focus on my feelings and it is difficult for me to deal with impersonal judgment, and I am rather ineffective at using it. Under stress I have a tendency to misuse hard logic in the heat of anger throwing inaccurate facts out in an emotional outburst. I set very high standars for myself and the world. I am hard on myself, and never give myself enough credit. I have a difficult time working ina group setting, because others' standards are not as high as my own. In group situations, I have a control problem. I sometimes become confused, even paralyzed, about what to do with my life. Hmmm... what do you think?
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