"Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love."
- Charles M. Schulz (1922 - 2000);
Charlie Brown in "Peanuts"
My name is Jenn. I'm sixteen years young and I live in Florida. I'm a pretty small girl. 5"6 and 117 lbs. I hate the town I'm in and would love to get out of it. I hate the school I go to. And most of the morons that surround me everyday. So far, eleventh grade has royally sucked. When I'm not in school I'm in a totally different world. I wish I could take it with me everywhere. In this world, my boyfriend takes care of me. My real friends call my cell to say random things. My sisters and I headbang or bounce to the same music. My friends are more pleasant and honest. Like I said I wish I could take it with me everywhere. I'm afraid to be spontaneous sometimes. I'm sarcastic and bitchy. But I'm outspoken. Someone once told me it's a good trait to have. Drama doesn't follow me - it rides on my back. When I'm depressed I don't eat chocolate. I eat gummy bears and drink Red Bull. I won't take shit from anyone. Even if you're bigger than me. I used to have low self-esteem. But I love myself now. If you stare at my eyes you'll notice they're hazel. Tiny animals make me squeal. My nickname is Mouse. I hate bad breath. I love reading. I think being ordinary is ugly. I like that no one else is like me. I'm not better than you and won't act like I am. I hate when people tell me what to do. But then again who doesn't. The cookies in the lunch line at school are not good! I've stopped drinking soda so much. Alex hates when I wear makeup. He thinks I'm beautiful without it. I wish I were closer to some of the people in my life. My toes tingle when I kiss my boyfriend. I hate PT Cruisers - they're disgusting. My favorite movies are by Tim Burton. I'm allergic to pineapples. I love sushi. I love and hate surprises. I have too many stuffed animals. But then again, I love too many. I love laughing nonstop. I can't skate but I tried to learn. I stay up late and wake up early. I am not a healthy eater. I think flipping channels through commercials are annoying. I hate having cats. And would rather much have a bunny or puppy. I like piercings but have none. I want tattoos. Yes, plural. I'll deny I'm pretty - not for attention. But because I think I'm really not. Or maybe I'll thank you if I'm in a good mood. I love Starbucks and I eat too much junk. I don't want your cancer sticks or your green. I won't get fucked up around you unless I'm with Alex. I love purses. And shoes. I have so much shit I don't wear. I get sick easily. And I hate it. My migraine medication is equivalent to 3 Advils twice a day. And even that doesn't do the trick. I stress alot. Which is why I always feel like shit. I laugh at porn. I hate bananas. I won't eat any grape or purple colored candy. I should write a book but I'm too lazy. I'm always freezing. I am impatient and hate flavored water. I'm going bungee jumping with Alex when I'm 18. My blood type is B positive. I love dark chocolate. I'm a brat. Don't argue with me - for your own sake. Do not mention my Dad - he's dead to me. My best friend is my boyfriend. And knows everything about me. I love stand-up comedy. I could write more but my fingers hurt.
Who I'd Like To Meet:
A boy who can make me smile without saying anything, who surprises me all the time, who really loves me for who I am, who thinks I'm beautiful even when I look a disaster. A boy who makes my toes tingle when I kiss him, whose hugs are all I need to feel better, who doesn't mind that I'm a total dork, who will hold my hand when I'm riding a bike. A boy who takes me everywhere, who I whisper secrets to, who will pig out and watch movies in bed with me, who buys me gummy bears, who will buy me stuffed animals. And I've found him.
Alex is my everything. He takes care of me and loves me for who I am. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. And I will. I'd advise you not to make your comments on our relationship because you don't know shit about us. You don't know why we're always going to be by each other. You don't know how I feel about him because I just can't describe it except by saying that I love him. You can't tear us apart. You never will. We have our doubts and our problems. But so does every normal relationship. He is my best friend. I can tell him anything. He's the only person who I would give my life for. He's the only person who has ever made me love myself. People could laugh at us if they want. But we're laughing too because they have no idea how this feels. How true love feels. And no one can take that away from us. Ever.
"Let's do this forever baby."
December 7th, 2005.
