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** Sarah ** Smiles**

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About Me


Well I have been through a heck of alot. I lost so many things that I love and cared for. I lost alot because I had an addiction I let everything just slip on by. I had so many dreams that never came true because I never went after any of them. After letting those things pass me by I stoped caring I have blamed everyone but myself. Now I know I had to learn but it did take me along time and many losses. I lost my children because of what I had done in my past. I have stuggled with addiction since I was a teen. I hurt others and I also hurt myself and let others hurt me. I had abusive relationships, I was raped many times since I was a teen I stayed silent for years. I also didn't protect myself and the addictions were more than just drugs I also was letting myself be used by Men and did the same to them in return. I't was a life not worth much of anything. Those things had kept me on the road full of pain and loss of who I really was. God stuck by me the whole time He was not willing to let me go.Well now I have another chance at life God loved me so much he would not give up on me no matter how sick I had became as a human being. I now know what real love is what Jesus has done for me is so amazing. I hope others can share there joy in the Lord with me I am so very blessed even though I had to lose so much to understand of who I am. I'm done from running away. I'm done I dont want to be what is hurtful to others I also dont want to use my past pain as a way of holding me back. Jesus already died on the cross for me and all my sin isnt that the most beautiful thing possible.I want to love as much as possible. I want to show others that I do care because I truly do. I also want others to know they don't have to suffer that Jesus died for them and he loves them.That person that I was wasn't me that is why I was hidding from everyone now I see my dreams really are not what I thought I wanted out of life. I want to be around for people I know and people I dont know. I know that if I give my life and my dreams to God he will give me what I really need and he will make my life matter even my past can be turned around. I know I will never be perfect I will have problems as long as I live on this earth but it wont last forever. I will make mistakes well that is okay I am human. As long as I trust in God he will help me through.


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Music,Art,Nature,Fashion,Books,Holy Bible,Hair,Furniture,Dancing,Singing,Pianos.

I'd like to meet:

JESUS CHRIST my LORD and SAVIOR I like to meet people who are kind and are understanding. People who have fun without use of drugs who enjoy life with a clear view.People that share love for the Lord Jesus and people who need help and love.People who are passionate when it comes to life and people that can have an open mind about others and about what life may bring. And above all people who have big hearts and care about the people around them. I also like to meet people who take a stand for what they truly believe in. I like people that don't walk all over others to get what they want.


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Music:

Jars of Clay

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Tori Amos is my all time favorite,Keane, Dave Matthews Band,Eminem,Alica Keys,Mary J Blidge, Snow Patrol,Coldplay,Charlotte Martin,The Fray,Train, Three Doors Down,Regina Spektor,Evenesence,Jewel,Third Day, Paul Van Dyke,Dahlia,Sasha,Digweed,Jeremy Camp, Switchfoot,Amy Grant,Maroon 5,Jewel,Pink Floyd, Leonard Cohen,Stained,Death Cab for a Cutie, Fiona Apple,portishead,Obie Trice,Sia, The Goo Goo Dolls,Siouxsie & The Banshees, linkin Park,Falling Up,Foo Fighters, Brandi Carlile,Garbage,Sarah Blanko,Sarah McLachlan, U2, The Verve.There is so many more I could name but it would take to much time and space.

Movies:

Romeo & Juliet Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind,Premonition,Stranger Then Fiction,Pay it Forward,In Her Shoes,Perstige,Overboard, Passion of Christ,How To Lose A Guy in 10 Days,Unbreakable,As Good as it Gets,Must Love Dogs,What A Woman Want,Dejavu,The Pursuit of Happyness,The Sixth Sense,Final Destination.

Television:

Six Feet Under,Sex and the City,King of Queens,Friends,American Idol,Lost, What Not To Wear ,10 years Younger.

Books:

Holy Bible,Narcotics Anonymous, Alcoholics Anonymous,The University of Hard Knocks,The Hunt Sisters,A Million Little Pieces, Heaven,My Utmost For His Highest, Me & Emma,90 Minutes in Heaven.

Heroes:

Jesus my Lord and Savior, My Father for his strength and Love, My mother for her Love and kindness.

My Blog

Don’t Shut The Door!!!

I want to be honest I want you to see me as I am, Not as of what I've done, No Im not proud of the things of the past, No and I cant change it what's done is done,Please see me now don't shut the door...
Posted by ** Sarah ** Smiles** on Thu, 06 Sep 2007 02:44:00 PST

Worth

I am of worth I was made as somthing special. I am not a peace of garbage to be thrown away. There is nothing that anyone can say or do to change that. I have been walked all over and I may have done ...
Posted by ** Sarah ** Smiles** on Mon, 03 Sep 2007 10:38:00 PST

What I know...

I look around I see pain in the faces of the people. I can feel there pain it makes me hurt inside. I see so many blessings all around me and blessings I see now that had been unseen before. I feel so...
Posted by ** Sarah ** Smiles** on Sun, 02 Sep 2007 10:55:00 PST

Lord with me...

Waited in the darkness to find that God was there and saw me in and through the darkness. He shinned his light on me through the darkest times in my life. He never left me he stayed when everyone had ...
Posted by ** Sarah ** Smiles** on Tue, 31 Jul 2007 04:14:00 PST

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Posted by ** Sarah ** Smiles** on Mon, 09 Jul 2007 03:20:00 PST

Changing Inside

Lately I'm filled with so many things. I have joy at one molment then I get overcome with sadness in my heart. Thing's are changing inside me. This human body cant seem to keep up with the spirit part...
Posted by ** Sarah ** Smiles** on Thu, 14 Jun 2007 01:49:00 PST

My Lord My God.

Walking through this life is hard to do. If I hold on to my faith in you Lord I will someday make it home to you. I have pain in my heart and I know you understand for one you made me. Also you came a...
Posted by ** Sarah ** Smiles** on Tue, 12 Jun 2007 01:29:00 PST

This Love

This love is strong,This love will go on,This love will always be, You are so beautiful to me,So beautiful to me,Your beauty is all I see,This love is everlasting,This love is the strongest I've ever ...
Posted by ** Sarah ** Smiles** on Mon, 11 Jun 2007 04:42:00 PST

You Left

Left stuck here without you. I had waited and I waited for your return but you never came. I thought everything was all my fault. I kept on telling myself there was something wrong with me that n...
Posted by ** Sarah ** Smiles** on Tue, 15 May 2007 08:21:00 PST

Not Lost

I look back and I see there was so much time I had wasted. I was just lost sitting in my despair. I wasn't looking for a way out or was it maybe that I didnt know how. I can see that now there was a w...
Posted by ** Sarah ** Smiles** on Thu, 26 Apr 2007 11:25:00 PST