Locke© [HIATUS] The Island's Leader

If we will disbelieve everything, because we cannot certainly know all things, we shall do muchwhat as wisely as he who would not use his legs, but sit still and perish, because he had no wings to fly. John Locke
..My Life before the island..
I've never really been a people person. Having hard times trusting them, but also having an hard time to get their trust. So instead I choose my solitude. All through my life I've went through rough ordeals. I was adopted when I was pretty young and wind up in a stepfamily. After my sister Jeannie died my stepmother became derailed. I had a hard time connecting with her. Pretty much anyone did. One day a dog arrived at my home and it placed itself in front of my stepmother and it stared at her. She was convinced that it was my stepsister Jeannie, brought back to life. Reincarnated into a dog. I thought that was just a vision of her mind and a dream. I didn't belive that theory about my sister one bit.
When I got older I decided to look up my real parents. The ones whom gave me up for adoption. My mother was weak and spineless as I noticed when I met her one day working in a toy store. And my father was deceiving. To start with I thought he was a nice man. Someone I could share my interest for hunting. A man I could connect with and have a healthy son and father relationship, but instead he used me. He stole my kidney and broke my heart. In numerous attempts to reconnect with him he simply descarded me. Left me with nothing.
A couple of years later I also found out that he had deception and fraud as a proffession. He had just played with me and so many other peoples lives. I decided to confront him and to ask him why he did this to me. I just needed to have some answers. What I got in return was an attempt to kill me. He pushed me out of his window from eight storeys. He tried to kill me, his one and only son, and he didn't care. I became paralyzed, it all felt like a really terrible nightmare. My life is a tragic one, a tale I prefer not to speak about. And my lovelife is merely the same. Tragic is the best word to describe my life and me.
..My life on the island..
My name is John Locke, but most people refer to me as Locke. I chrashed on this island with 47 people and we don't seem to be found so easily. I don't mind it so much though, I like the wildlife and this island has set me free.
People refer to me as being an mysterious person, but frankly i don't agree. I am more of an soulsearcher and many successfull people has accompliced great things in their solitude.
I were never as alive before I came to this island. My old life working as a box office manager could never compare itself to this. I came to this place with never before seen terrain and I felt like Adam in the garden of eden.
But recently the island has betrayed me. I once had faith for the island being something more and now I'm not sure what to think. I feel a bit betrayed by the island and all of it's promises.
I planned to prove everyone wrong, that it was all a bluff. The hatch, the reasons, well, approx. everything with the island. That was my mistake and I was wrong. And now we all have to deal with the consequenses.
I made the hatch blew up, thinking it was merely a hoax. But I am an strong human being and got up on my legs in no time. Problem is that a group of people calling themselves "The Others", took away my friends during this time of my absence. And I'm not going to let anything happen to them.
Then What happened? I'm back and I landed on my feet. I don't play around anymore. My faith is back and it's stronger than ever before and I have no fear of making a bombastic entry into the world of the others.
In fact I did go undercover in the Others Camp and tried to gain Ben's trust. As I should have expected he did lead me on and lured me into one of his many traps. Ben tried to kill me. However, he did not suceed..for I have the will to survive. I live for this island and will probably die for it too, if I have my own will. No one is gonna take me away from this place, for here is where I belong.
You're the man behind the curtain. The wizard of Oz and you're a liar.
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I am just an roleplayer and I am roleplaying the character of John Locke from the TV-show "Lost". I am not the actor Terry O'Quinn, nor am I in any way related to the actor of Lost, Terry O'Quinn.
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