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pawok

...longjump slide drift. odd something of alignments....

About Me

im random me. always try to feel those shadows on the sun.....i drink life on both sides of the half full glass...**...im always wanting to create something.... which means making whateva... ....friends n randomness...heres one of those profile type survey things....enjoy my indecisive-ness....
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: .....paul michael edward walker...walkin paul....pawaka, wall rocka, elwood...pawok - any of those will do.
Birthday: november 2, 1984. same as my dad's, same as scott's uncle. everyday is someones birthday...
Birthplace: for years i thought it was a shack next to a gas station....then i realized it was the boaz/albertville hospital....that didn't feel much better initially.
Current Location: in a college university...but not one i really attend. so im 'pretending' to be a student. im 'stealing internet'
Eye Color: blue...like a sky apparently...sometimes randomly green fluxd or grey shaded...
Hair Color: a variation of a dark brown.
Height: 5' 10"
Right Handed or Left Handed: left.
Your Heritage: 1/4 indian. 1/4 cuban. not sure bout all of my heritage...ima mash-up mix...
The Shoes You Wore Today: comfy fire black runnin shoes from clarks.
Your Weakness: traps. but thats all of us...isn't it...
Your Fears: ....there are some. but i try to keep in mind the defcon of it all...
Your Perfect Pizza: mmm pizzas.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: i want to link-up an empire of random.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: overused??? Am i being weird?!?
Thoughts First Waking Up: change with everytime i wake up...usually...
Your Best Physical Feature: you tell me. not really the kind of ? i'd would answer myself on actually, cuz im alright with the whole thing anyways.
Your Bedtime: to me this question is stupid. i go to sleep whenev.
Your Most Missed Memory: ...the childhood conception of 'free time' rather then the present day 'making free time'
Pepsi or Coke: whatever. lets call them pistea and bloke.
MacDonalds or Burger King: hmmm......whichever one i decided to eat at...its been mcdonalds more lately cause im still tired of burger king...i worked there for over a year and still dont miss it...
Single or Group Dates: are both good....group ones for fun. single ones for.....a truly more exclusive fun...
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: both taste like goddamn tea to me!
Chocolate or Vanilla: are flavors that i enjoy.
Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee.
Do you Smoke: too much actually....
Do you Swear: i swear that i dont fucking swear much.
Do you Sing: at random times...for now...
Do you Shower Daily: i shower when i need to get clean.
Have you Been in Love: have passed through that world before...
Do you want to go to College: im in college. so i guess.....yes.
Do you want to get Married: maybe.
Do you belive in yourself: fuck yes...
Do you get Motion Sickness: almost never...
Do you think you are Attractive: i dont give a shit honestly. i get told im attractive though. thats cool. it feels good to be attractive to people im attracted to...compliments...i'll accept 'em.
Are you a Health Freak: not really.
Do you get along with your Parents: very well.
Do you like Thunderstorms: yeah. they're fun...
Do you play an Instrument: my skull plays the keyboard...on...computers...
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yup.
In the past month have you Smoked: yup.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: everything is a drug. heh, and you probably think im joking about that.
In the past month have you experienced something...ethereal: ...yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yup.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: nooo...
In the past month have you eaten something new: yeah...
In the past month have you been on Stage: no...that's still for the 1 day in the sometime...
In the past month have you been Dumped: no.....
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: nope...
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no ...
Ever been Drunk: a few times....
Ever been called a Tease: yeah....haha.
Ever been Beaten up: not...really
Ever Shoplifted: never witnessed a shop that looked light enough to physically raise on only my strength alone.
How do you want to Die: deadstyle.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: the "grown up me" remix of now...
What country would you most like to Visit: i dunno, lets go somewhere cool. hmm. lets go to fucking amsterdam.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: 'real'
Favourite Hair Color: whatev.
Short or Long Hair: either. wear it the way you want to.
Height: whatever.
Weight: whatever.
Best Clothing Style: whatever. (but wear it well!!!)
somethin or another, blablabla drugs?: just dont do stupid fuckin' bullshit.
Number of CDs I own: pff.
Number of Piercings: dont mind piercings.
Number of Tattoos: ...i like tattoos...i just dont have any...yet...
Number of things in my Past I Regret: it is a number. equaled out eventually also.
CREATE YOUR OWN IDEAS! DONT BE A COG IN THA FUCKING MACHINE - and/or - be happy, fuck off AND take these fucking ridiculous myspace surveys! yup...i just like people who aren't ignorant jackasses...

My Interests

***each is meant singularly and as a continuing thought. touch yourself if you have been involved in some of these*** time travel-alternate reality-explosions-Randomness-4:44am & pm-shadows-bombs-cancer checks-Writing-nighttime-catching odd views-smoking whatever-games(bananas!!!)-food-Psychology-triggers-buttons- switches-Walking-driving-flying-falling-neck twitches-imagination-i wear old shoes-places to hide in-sharing points of view-the "if i could try again"-pain thats soothed-"you never know, man"- being Totally Confused--- MUSIC-ART-sex-ex-xxx-rhythm-starts-presents-Endssss-detectiv es-sparklers-corrections-friends-caves-ignitions-god?-death. ..-being awake more than 1 day-abandoned places-spotting shooting stars.....-records-playlists-spending the night in the car....-cameras-vacations-looking at my friends- not needing replacements---everything all of the time in many ways....-disregarding negative waste--okay--thats enough of that..._

I'd like to meet:

the few who 'get it' as 'they say'oh, but as far as people....i like 'real', 'random', 'excentric' 'logical' or 'crazy'. thats my style of people. i figure all of those terms have points where the lines blur......'real' is the most important aspect though. never mind some twilight zoned time on the otherside of fried either.

Music:

music that i don't think sucks, i like. catch all catego-riffero..._

Movies:

a short film called "5:45"..."pi" ..."fight club"... crap. there are a lot of movies i enjoy... so screw this section. i like movies that i like. :P

Television:

Fuck some commercials and bullshit that media tries to impose upon us. i DO like some shows and such. blahblahblah. silly shit with wit usually wins (robot chicken, south park, family guy, such n so on) and beyond that...i dunno...chappelle n daily show + colbert report doesnt suck...ninja warrior...unbeatable banzuke...a slice of mindless with the mindful is what i aim for...or else im happy to just turn the bitch off and go do something useful in a heartbeat.

Books:

'finite and infinite games' by uh...i forget who...kahlil gibran...kurt vonnegut...neil gaimans 'sandman' series...H.P. LOVECRAFT...some chuck palahnuik.... 2001 space odyssey... then a four part novel i have based on the original DOOM videogame (not that movie shit)...(nostalgia, indeed) and prolly more books in future whenever i get around to reading some more...or remembering wtf all ive read...

Heroes:

those who aren't afraid to follow their hearts true instinct...yeah...it may suck at times...but...i think its essential to our being...&...i love people and artists who are just plain undefinable...unique... example: kid koala. show me another dj that can make jazz out of turntables and turn a cd case into a chess game, complete with board and all 32 pieces....something for you to play after reading his lil 50 page short story comic book that was in the cd case.shit, "some of my friends are dj's" too.not all, just some...***_____________yup_________________***THIS IS MY REALLY WEIRD NON-SENSIBLE TEST I ATTEMPTED TO MAKE. THE CORRECT ANSWERS ARE VAGUELY HINTED AT AND HARDLY MAKE ANY SENSE. OH WELL. HAVE YOURSELF A TIME FAILING MY WEIRD TEST THINGY!!!
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My Blog

grade school politics...

everything is such a vast splash since the bullshit years of lockdown school system shit. How much of your teena ge life have/ did you mess up? [x] kisse d someo ne befor e datin g[X] gotte n your ph...
Posted by pawok on Wed, 08 Oct 2008 03:27:00 PST

hesitation.

so i deleted my last blog that sat here like an elipses and eventually became a bomb. whoops it blew. what the fuck can be done...(((move out and on)))   so ... we need the Shift sometimes. peopl...
Posted by pawok on Tue, 30 Sep 2008 02:09:00 PST

a long random ranty.

this blog goes.... survey with some questions highly articulated upon and two random weird narratives i wrote out my cave. yup. and song suggestions at bottom from the 'current listening of this blog'...
Posted by pawok on Thu, 26 Apr 2007 02:34:00 PST

i have a bad sleep schedule

blue spaced dawn coming climbing out the nap sack chewing the shadow out blasting the mind hacks. purpose lost placement pedestal footing fell flat surface caught tasteless no medal honor proving that...
Posted by pawok on Tue, 24 Apr 2007 05:13:00 PST

the dsm 444.

hmm..."apathetic dont give a shitness".if i wrote the DSM - IV IV IVthat would be one of the "illnesses" that i would list as a common thing among todays people.and it describes itself. yay! how many ...
Posted by pawok on Thu, 19 Apr 2007 06:07:00 PST

thx friend. (with an underlying messege of take your own advice)

damn. i sure was feeling like shit going through thoughts over and over in my head of the past while. ya know.....that whole "why cant i eat or sleep?" kinda shit....then wow holy goddamn shit a bell ...
Posted by pawok on Thu, 12 Apr 2007 03:51:00 PST

the switch.

the cast was half our dates. made into multiplied past counter-fates. seems too little too late. never can make a lover be down with the hate. so abandon a homely roaming set type state. untied u...
Posted by pawok on Mon, 02 Apr 2007 03:29:00 PST

moments (and that many sought "happily ever after" thing)

so......is everyone really trying to find their "happily ever after"....and just what does that consist of anyway? guess people are just looking for other people that fit into their own regime of livi...
Posted by pawok on Mon, 05 Mar 2007 05:30:00 PST

observed relationship wonders.

is this.relationships. what is love....and why does it all ever ..."end"?this is it in a nutshell. love. it creates the bonds of every type of relationship in existance. family, friends, lovers, ...
Posted by pawok on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 04:58:00 PST

overdosed with serious???

seriously, i feel way too much serious crap in my own blogs! ahh!!!!!!   so check this out- ..> ..> Leslie Sep 12 2006 12:28A ..>..> that is more me than i could hope to say and dont ya fer...
Posted by pawok on Sun, 04 Feb 2007 11:58:00 PST