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Sianna

the thin line between physical desire and emotional attachment gets blurred after drunken words are

About Me

Thank You Nick, For Being a Drunkass...Funniest Shit Ever ⊗ I'm 21.
⊗ I was born in Seoul, South Korea and adopted by white people when I was three months old.
⊗ I'm extremely laidback but if you piss me off you'll see a whole nutha side of me.
⊗ I HATE drama and petty bullshit but somehow it always finds me.
⊗ I'm overly sensitive when it comes to well..just about everything...but I only let it show around certain people.
⊗ I get along better with males than females but big-ups to the (few) chillass females out there.
⊗ I've lived in Chicago since September '05, I moved here from New Hampshire (and let me say that I am so happy to be here rather than there, don't go to NH, ain't shit to do).
⊗ I'm a die-hard hip hop head.
⊗ I love to write about life, experiences and how I see the world...and on occasion I write rhymes when I'm feeling inspired.
⊗ I go to Columbia College Chicago and my major is music business...tryna be the female Russel Simmons.
⊗ I am not on Myspace to meet a man so don't even attempt to step to me with that bullshit. I tried that shit once and dude is a pathological liar and habitual cheater all cuz he's a Myspace whore.
⊗ I hate when dudes try to get at Asian girls with that whole "I LOVE Asian girls" line...that shit is straightup obnoxious and demoralizing...we are people just like you, not some hot commodity.
⊗ I'm happy chilling at the crib or going to a party or being a clubhead...whether I'm just chillin and watching movies or out drinking and juking, I'm happy as long as I'm in good company.
⊗ I don't believe in any god, I believe in hard work to get yourself where you want to be in life and I believe in fate and coincidence (but I'd never knock anyone's religion, believe what you want).
⊗ I'm stronger than I look...don't underestimate me just cuz I'm short...I could probably kick your ass.
⊗ I love to spoon. Spooning Leads To Forking. lol
⊗ I love being in a relationship.
⊗ I hate being the center of attention (unless I'm with my boo).
⊗ I love food and can eat as much as any grown man...I am definitely not the type of girl who only eats salads and drinks diet soda.
⊗ I drink, I smoke, I'm not supposed to stop so I won't.
⊗ I love to dance although I'm not sure I'm very good at it, same applies to singing except that I'm even worse at that.
⊗ I'm modest, down to earth, and try not to be judgemental...be who you want to be...as long as you're satisfied with who you are and how you live, that's all that really matters...except when you're hurting me or people that I care about, then I have every right to judge and hate you...and if we get into it enough I will not refrain from fuckin beatin your ass.
⊗ But I'm generally a pretty tolerant person.
⊗ I try my hardest not to be needy.
⊗ I'm straightforward and hate people who play games (you muthafuckas know who you are).
⊗ Ooo and I love Chai Latte's, they're fuckin delicious.
⊗ I can only cook pasta, eggs, and hamburgers...anything else I attempt to make may not be safe to eat or may not be something you'd like to eat.
⊗ I do like to clean. Especially other peoples houses. I don't know why, it's just more fun. Maybe cuz they appreciate it more.
⊗ I have a stress-related ulcer.
⊗ I don't want to live to be insanely old.
⊗ I have my nose, bellybutton, tongue, and ears pierced.
⊗ I'm not a prissy girly-girl.
⊗ I belch.
⊗ I spit.
⊗ I love gory movies.
⊗ I can lift heavy objects.
⊗ I read Maxim.
⊗ When I'm commited to something or someone I give my all.
⊗ Overall I think I'm a pretty easy person to get along with.
I wanna propose a toast to those who suppose that hip-hop is dyin even as it grows/Signin any emcee wit a passable flow, disregarding whether or not they gonna blow at live shows/Seems like so-called "lyricists" try to use mirror tricks to appear supa-slick and get rich quick/Usin gimmick-like tactics jus to be in this rap shit/And tha outcome of their actions produces a bunch of whack shit - rhyme by me
Some of my favorite poems/lyrics/quotes/artwork:
"I tend to drive myself crazy in her car/With a love that doesn't stop for red lights/And I wonder should we even think about slowing down/And I hope she doesn't get bored of me/I wish I knew everything she kinda wanted to know but didn't want to ask/Just so I wouldn't be so scared/See, under my breath I've inhaled more "I Love You's" then she will ever know/But somehow I think she's always known/Leaving my stomach filled with swallowed second guesses and wishful thinking/Thought I'd even start to question the reasons for trying to say them at all/And shoot, with all the words I swallowed/It's no wonder I start to choke up everytime I think about them/I wonder if me choking means they'll never make it out/So I damn the dam I built to hold back the words I wish to say/Like the night at Denny's when the waitress asked us if we were in love/Cause we had this glow around us and I responded 'Yeah, but she's in denial and that glow you talk about isn't even a glow, it's actually a force field that keeps us from letting our true feelings out and protects us from ourselves. We wish to be vulnerable.'/Like what would be so wrong with me stealing your heart if I took you with it and stole you for a lifetime/And let you play my permanent sunshine cause you're the reason I don't fear blank sheets of paper anymore/My inspiration has me floating, my feet don't ever touch the ground/But she is still out of my reach/And it's strange that she could be right there in front of me making me happy/But the thought of her being interrupted by another thought of her only makes me happier..." - Shihan
"I was born under a righteous moon like/Abandoned at birth I found comfort in the moon light like/A child of the night like/Being lonely made me know me like/I bleed memories like lessons unlearned like/I serenade sunsets with promise of promise like/I live like I have no reason not to like/I went from loving you in vain to the point where my love is you in vein like/I bleed you like/You bled me dry like/You know nothing of my thirst like/Crucified for my truths like..." - Shihan
"Flashy words make the world turn but it don't turn right/So I use these real eyes, to realize, the real lies/Being spoken but not heard/Cause we are more fascinated by that which is fabricated/So I tell you a blind man once said, 'I once saw.'/Believe what he said but not believe what he said he saw/Like the mute who told the deaf man the true meaning of life/There are 3 types of people in the world today/Those who play the game/Those who watch the game/And those who don't even know the game is being played/And that's a beautifully painted picture/And a picture's worth a thousand words/But a picture's worth a thousand words doesn't mean anything/If them thousand words don't mean anything/Or if them thousand words mean that picture means nothing/Words...they can mean so many things like 'I love you'/I...Love...You/Three words can mean an infinite amount to one person/Not enough to another/If not enough intent is held behind those words/From a piece of mind/Brings peace of mind/And all I have to do is give a piece of mine/Or in other words/Piece together the pieces in me to create peace within me/But, they are all pieces, pieces to a puzzle which when put together is me..." - Shihan
"Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a plane ride away. " - Carrie from Sex & The City
"Why I got to be that be the bigger woman, when these bitches know they got that shit coming/Fuck what's wrong and what's right, I'm fuckin up this bitch tonight/'You got to think about what people will say, you know he's gonna fuck with that bitch anyway'/'You dont want to be seen as some crazy chick, so I think you should hold back'/Naw baby I'ma roll with this now/Every time that I start thinking rationally, the muthafuckas always beating me to the damn finish line/But I'm gonna finish first this time/And all I want is just to get this shit off my chest so I can stop stressing it/Just move on with my life, and maybe get this relationship shit right/Someone new, you think you gonna do/If you see her that chick is through/Ain't got no time to be running all in the streets just wylin out/'Girl keep your cool', I can't go that route/'Shit you got kids', they at my moms house/'What about your job?', it'll be here when I get back, after I snap this bitches neck/I ain't takin this shit no more, I'm bout ready to go ahead and explode/And then maybe then I can stop crying/Stop feeling like I'm about to die and/Why does this hurt bring so much pain and why do I feel like I'm going insane?/Maybe cause I still want you, but not the you that I'm stuck with, boo/'You've got to let this go since your too strong to let him break you down'/'You've got a life to live', so why does it feel like without him my life ain't shit?" - Jaguar Wright

"Human Nature" by Mear One

"Toy Eater by Mear One

"Defcon Woman" by Mear One

"Devious" by Mear One

"Garden of Eden" by Mear One

"Salty Old Crackers" by Mear One

"Bush" by Mear One



cHiToWn CrEw - 2005/2006
CoLuMbIa CrEw - 2006/2007

My Interests

anything mango (mmm...), shopping (that shit is straightup therapeutic), chillin with my crew (I love y'all), writing rhymes when the inspiration comes to me, writing in general, reading sometimes, MTV Jams - VH1 Soul - Comedy Central - HBO, dro, physical affection, accommodating my friend's needs, Baby Phat, Ecko Red, Victoria's Secret, Amsterdam, Jamaica, imports, good music that makes you think, overpriced designer shoes, guns, making the most of my relationships/friendships

Barbie and Ken 101 by Rafael Casal

Why by Heru Ptah

Patriot Act by Denizen Kane

Thick Chicks by Tamara Blue

Dedicated To My Enemy by Otep

I'd like to meet:

Anyone who's laidback, smart, funny, honest and has decent moral values.

Who I'd not like to meet:
Arrogant, ignorant, assholes who just want to add me to their ethnic-girl menagerie. Been there, done that. So fuckin over that. Don't even step to me with that.

Music:

anything by 9th Wonder, anything by Nicolay, Supastition, The Strange Fruit Project, Typical Cats, Jean Grae, Bahamadia, Masta Ace, Immortal Technique, CunninLynguists, Jedi Mind Tricks, Atmosphere, Eyedea & Abilities, 7L & Esoteric, A Tribe Called Quest, Wu Tang, Gza, Rza, Ghostface Killah, Lupe Fiasco, Sweatshop Union, Canibus, Big Pun, Big L, Planet Asia, Mac Dre, Turf Talk, Keak Da Sneak, Kardinal Offishall, Nas, The Roots, Dead Prez, Non Phixion, Visionaries, Asheru, Foreign Exchange, Slum Village, Jurassic 5, musiq, Jaguar Wright, Erykah Badu, Lauryn Hill, D'Angelo, Res, Jill Scott, Zap Mama, Talib Kweli, Mos Def, Common, Twista, Juice, Supernatural, Saigon, Jack Johnson, Dashboard Confessional, Matisyahu, Teedra Moses, Vivian Green, Syleena Johnson, Mary J. Blige, Mila J, some Robin Thicke, some Beyonce, tons of others...I'll listen to anything as long as it sounds good and has some sort of substance

Movies:

Scarface, Belly, Requiem for a Dream, Pulp Fiction, Half-Baked, Full Metal Jacket, Spun, Apocolypse Now Redux, Donnie Darko, Crash, Goodfellas, Hostel, A.I.

Television:

Entourage (hands-down my favorite HBO series; an extremely original, witty, first-hand view of a movie star's life, with a killer soundtrack & a talented and very attractive cast, Sunday's just ain't tha same until tha next season airs), Sex & The City, Six Feet Under, The Real World, Laguna Beach (my sick addiction), King of The Hill, Family Guy, Aqua Teen Hungerforce (so random you can't not like it), Niptuck (this show covers all tha bases; sex, violence, family dysfunction, drugs, vanity, drama), Weeds (this has got to be my all time favorite show, every episode is spectacular and it goes where no show has ever gone before), Def Poetry

Books:

The Beach by Alex Garland, The Coldest Winter Ever by Sister Souljah, Please Please Please by Renee Swindle

Heroes:

my mother, Keith Olbermann, Dave Chappelle, Jon Stewart, Steven Colbert, Kimora Lee Simmons, Jean Grae, Malcolm X, Mos Def, Margaret Cho, Laila Ali

My Blog

life is...up in the air

being single after being in a fucked up relationship for so long is an awkward transition. being single at the club is fun. being single alone at home at night is not. not having someone to wake up to...
Posted by Sianna on Sun, 27 May 2007 03:13:00 PST

FUCK BUMFIGHTS, I START BUSFIGHTS

So yeah you guys, crazy fuckin story from the other afternoon. This is the most unjust shit that has happened to me in Chicago so far...I'm not complaining, life has never been sugarcoated or fair but...
Posted by Sianna on Thu, 10 May 2007 11:17:00 PST

Love Song

Love Song by Jean Grae (this is my grown up jam)She grew up believing in passion and loveWhose folks divorced and remarriedVery naiveSeen life and committments that shoulda been dead and buriedHighly ...
Posted by Sianna on Tue, 20 Feb 2007 11:46:00 PST

word ain't bond

so what, i love too passionatelyso what, i act irrationallythat don't give a man the right to cheatno more right than a drunk man has to beat his wifein the middle of the night at the end of a fightit...
Posted by Sianna on Mon, 19 Feb 2007 06:22:00 PST

Talk To Her

India Arie - Talk To HerWhen you talk to her talk to herLike you want somebody toTalk to your mamaDon't get smart with herHave a heart to heartWith her just like youWould with your daughterCause every...
Posted by Sianna on Sun, 21 Jan 2007 04:44:00 PST

chicago freestyle (unfinished)

Cruisin down Lake Shore DriveOn a little ride from the south to north sideMe and my boy steady puffin on greenIn between hits I stare wide eyed at the skylineSeen it plenty of times before but it neve...
Posted by Sianna on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 03:00:00 PST

old freestyle

i'm his main bitch, now he's hittin thisyou lame bitches need to back the fuck downi will cause a scene if you dare come aroundfuck a verbal confrontation, this a dire situationi'm starting to lose my...
Posted by Sianna on Thu, 28 Dec 2006 11:01:00 PST

Is Hip Hop Dead?

"Is Hip Hop Dead?" Hip-hop has been chewed up and spit back out by the mainstream media. There was once a time when the mainstream embraced real rap, the kind of music that made you nod your head and ...
Posted by Sianna on Tue, 19 Dec 2006 03:21:00 PST

9/11 WAS A GOVERNMENT SETUP

The numerous hijackings and plane crashes that occurred on September 11, 2001 were by far the most pivotal events in my generation's history. The attacks caused mass hysteria and changed how the world...
Posted by Sianna on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 01:12:00 PST

Different Types of Asians hahaha

I loved this bulletin post so fuckin much that I had to put it on my blog. It's so fuckin relatable, I think I've met at least one of every type of Asian on here. hahahahaha i can totally relate to th...
Posted by Sianna on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 06:30:00 PST