So I've been off the radar for quite sometime.
I can't resist the thought that there are many people out there wondering what I'm doing. For some reason I am concerning myself with all those burnt bridges I've left in my dust over the years. I guess I'd like those who inquire to find some updated info on me instead of relying on their imaginations or lame gossip.
So have at it.
I came home to New England in January 2007 and plan on staying till my child leaves the nest. We have great schools, no fucking fire ants, high ground, clean water, winters worth talking about and a great web of amazing rivers, one of my true loves.
Being home, I could finally relax a bit and not stress about making the money to pay for day care and baby sitters so I could work. I've been blessed with a loving family. After a final bout with another tattoo job, I quit. I had an epiphany about it. I never enjoyed it. Hated it. Tattooing was not for me. Without going into a bunch of negativity, I'll just say that I've never been as happy than I am today. I've sold all my equipment and have not tattooed since October 2007.
In 2004 my daughter Lily was born. The little shit came 12 weeks premature and kept us both in the NICU for 9 weeks. That was the hardest thing I've ever done but also the most rewarding. She's the love of my life. As she gets older, life becomes easier and I see how I've been completely blessed with an amazing little friend and a vivid MIRROR! Wow, how humbling. She started kindergarten this year and is excelling in art, dance and yep....skating.
I am no longer busy building websites trying to show the world who I am, what I am or how I am - except facebook friends! I'm busy living my life in the NOW. Handling what's infront of me on a daily basis is enough.
So, in spring 2009 I went back to school full time to further my education with the hopes to discover a new path for myself. I've been an art and media major. I've done a ton of volunteering for GCTV as tech support and producer. I'm on my second term as a youth commissioner for the Greenfield Youth Commission and have spent countless hours volunteering for social and environmental programs.
So, let's see....what else is new? I started skating for a roller derby league. I love it. It's the best ass-kicking workout you'll ever get. I'm in the best physical shape I've ever been in. Ummmm....I've changed my major again. This time it feels really right. I'm now a math/science major with a PhD as my goal. I've always loved science -geology, astronomy, meteorology, climatology- so I'm going for it. Ignorance is annoying, especially mine so off I go to be smarter. :)
So that's me these days.
I can't say I'm sorry for burning bridges. I've had enough therapy to know the bridges that are still ash to this day should stay that way. Many bridges have been repaired...with those who really love me. I now know that it's okay to not-like-people. In fact, I really don't like people much at all. Perhaps that's why I've become so good at burning bridges. People suck. So I pluck out the good ones and fry the rest. However, I am sorry if I've caused anyone negativity. But please, get over it, move on, grow up.
Whoever you are, I hope you find your own soul tap and leave your negativity in the toilet.
Because you inquired, know I'm doing really well. Healthy, happy, beautiful, successful and blessed.
Thanks for checking in.
Blessings.
