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About Me

Let's see, I am very driven person with no sense of direction, I would like to think of myself as laid back but I'm a little too high strung to fit the profile. so I will suffice it too say that I am somewhat confused as to who and what I'm supposed to beI believe that the hardest thing to do in life is to live, so many of us can't function with out an addiction or a substance or an escape of somesort and I believe that if we could only crawl out of those traps that we call lifestyles we would see the beauty that life really holds for usMy job, now there's an interesting discussion, no but seriously I am a cashier at HEB not glamorous but hey it pays the bills, (a line I never wanted to say at 19 how the mighty have fallen, right)I am waiting hopefully for that wonderfull day when things finally feel right again, I know everyone always says life isn't about feelings but for me that's how i live my life it's about what I feel and how I react to those feelings I couldn't live it any other wayInteresting facts about me are: I have had heat stroke, I have jumped off a cliff because somebody told me to. I have nearly drowned, I have fallen into cactus, I have held on to an electric fence for more than five minutes, I have a scar on my tongue, I can tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue in about twenty seconds And I used to eat styrofoam.Myspace Graphics
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I would like to meet: Leigh Nash, Kelly Clarkson Keanu Reeves. umm Sandra Bullock (yes I am stealing that from Angela) and Avril Lavigne, and my great grandma, and Charis from Talesin, And Dominic from devils cub, and

My Blog

it doesn't hurt yet

I feel like a broken record, I keepĀ coming back full circle to this place. I feel more alone that I have in a while but that feels ok, I feel useless and trapped butĀ even that's ok, I know that this i...
Posted by on Thu, 23 Jul 2009 09:12:00 GMT

seems silly

seems silly to doubt such a little thing simple but serious just continue to breathe but it feels so natural just to let it go and let myself slowly suffocate hard to face the thing ...
Posted by on Mon, 18 Aug 2008 00:30:00 GMT

Changes which suck as always

So many things are ending right now and too much is starting it's like my life is on as much caffene as I am (see I'm so out of it I can't even spell, this can't be good) last night I d...
Posted by on Sun, 10 Aug 2008 22:29:00 GMT

Weather what will come

they've come for me as they always do but this isn't like the last time sometimes you have hide awaywrap your self around you tighter lean against the heavy windand weather what will come  molte...
Posted by on Mon, 17 Dec 2007 10:59:00 GMT

another new poem

weather the Storms ripples in the cloudy brown salty droplets dripping down let my head sink to the table fingers trace the polished wood my coffee's cold and I just need to rest a bit sand dusts d...
Posted by on Thu, 20 Sep 2007 15:54:00 GMT

new poem

my many attempts to escape the pain have led me back into this place where portriats of former failures hang past curses chant taunting refrains I try them all try everythinggnash my teeth when they f...
Posted by on Tue, 14 Aug 2007 08:04:00 GMT

Song poem thing

sitting here to watch the day slip by imagining a better life purpose taunts through others eyes sigh and look away head splitting from surrounding noise give anything to disappear find myself in ano...
Posted by on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 09:40:00 GMT

Star wars advice

to commemerate (I know I didn't spell it right but oh well we're still doing it) my little brother's new obsession with star wars I am doing a list of valuable info that just might come in handy....
Posted by on Thu, 19 Jul 2007 15:27:00 GMT

new slightly wierd poem

here is my new poem, it's kind of wierd and doesn't make much sense to most people but I like it. I don't know why but yeah here it is becoming stagnent boredom sets in,and somehow I've lost the tra...
Posted by on Wed, 20 Jun 2007 11:54:00 GMT

overwhelmed

Tonight I feel like I've lost and the world is standing over whats left of me laughing at what it's done, as you can tell I am in a bit of a dramatic moment too. but really I mean it's like I fee...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Jun 2007 19:36:00 GMT