Neither good nor evil lie in the hands of or are embodied within otherworldly beings. Both lie, quite simply, within the confines of the very core of a human's soul, precariously balanced, at the very initial moment of birth, but then, constantly struggling to achieve domination throughout the course of a person's life. For most, the balance is maintained, for a few, either side wins out at some point, but in the end, however you funnel it, affects the final act, when your physical life comes to a close and your soul no longer housed in your body, moves on to the bigger universe.
I crave the freedom, the power, the absolute pleasure that is derived from letting oneself release all restraints, to push through life, taking from others what I want and giving them what I don't, watching as they fall before me and the mountain rises, with me at the top, perched, laughing gleefully at the world below, set ablaze by the path I walked; as my desire to see all humanity consumed by famine, disease, terror, war, destruction, and the classic beauty of true chaos set to fire by my passion for absolute annilihation.
Now, a little bit about me:
My essence, born out of the primal forces that gave rise to the universe, my existence directly brought into being through the love of two human beings, and my mind, free from strict influence, I am a person of strong spirit, gentleness, and uncommon wisdom possessed of a clarity that is only exhibited suddenly and briefly. An individual who likes to walk alone, but nevertheless I am surrounded by a small cadre of loyal and wonderful friends, to whom I recipricate the loyalty without question. My list of friends, contains only those (on Myspace) who matter most, a little story for each about the meaning they have in my life.
Danielle-my source of happiness, my precious jewel, my perfect fit. Neither of us, what we typically look for in our Forever but brought together by comman interests and deep, unrelenting love.
Evelyn-my dearest and best friend delivered to me through the internet. A former partner in crime and, with the exception of my best friend, the only other person in my life who holds a very special place in my mind and soul.
Coleen--Alright, how to put this. Well, I used to work with Coleen so now I can actually say the things about her I haven't said and they'll be positive. She's still rough around the edges, sarcastic, down-to-earth, brutally honest and, a tad bit apathetic but marshmallow good center. She's smart, funny, a pleasure to talk to and be around. Now, from a personal, more physical point of view--she's just super attractive, beautiful face, lovely figure, both front and back, and if I may be so bold, has a very, very nice pair of long legs that--hmmm, that's for me to know. I'm terrible...I haven't called her in a while. I must do that.
Okay, just in case no one noticed, I added someone recently. Yep, after forever, I decided someone else was worth adding and mentioning. This person is yet, another Colleen. Right now, I barely know her but she's so damn entertaining that I felt she needed to be acknowledged.
Those, of course, are only those that appear on Myspace. I have perhaps three others in my life that I think about regularly and who have personalities I love and enjoy immensely. As I move along in my life, floating along the currents of the universe, I don't define myself by my friends, but without them, I know some of the person I am today, I would not be.