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Black Waters

"Shining diamonds fall from her eyes And the black waters are silent beneath her. Soft lips utter no words, no cries. Pale, thin arms cannot sheath her. Her dark hair is loose and blown astray. Ivory skin, broken by crimson lines. The painful ache of her heart beats night and day. Her face no longer shines. A fatal step is taken, and there crashes a wave Towards the edge of a cliff on that rocky shore Her beautiful, liquid grave And the black waters are still no more."

-B

I am a HUGE fan of cosmetics and body modification. I wear makeup literally every fucking day. Practicing, improving my techniques, and seeing new inspirations are great hobbies of mine. I have 4 earlobe piercings, 4 ear cartilage piercings, and HAD one in my left nostril until I took it out after 3 1/2 years of annoyance. I plan on getting several more in both ears because I admit - I'm addicted.

My music tastes are mostly heavy metal, thrash metal, death metal, some black metal, symphonic metal, goth metal, metalcore, some nu-metal, power metal, progressive metal, electronica, industrial, trance, dance, rockabilly, alternative rock, and some classic rock, but also a little bit of similar and non similar music. Sometimes I surprise people. I'm very selective about my music, and it depends on my mood what I listen to.

Though I am not necessarily well rounded in the world of politics, I am pretty opinionated when it comes to the sort. I would probably classify myself as mostly liberal - my main concerns are gay marriage and abortion, which I am both extremely for. If this offends you, it is probably one of the reasons you are not in my friends list. If you ARE on my friends list, and you WOULD be offended, you obviously haven't read my profile. I do encourage that, btw.

Unfortunately, being born and raised in the south, I can sometimes be a little bit of a country girl. You'll have to excuse me and my dirty southern blood. Yes - I've done the lot: hay jumping, 4-wheeler riding in the woods, fishing, hunting, watching a deer being skinned and turned into jerky, working on a farm...I still say I'm "going to town" and "ya'll" and all that redneck bullshit. That's not what I want anyone to view me as, and I'm not proud of it, but I'm not going to lie about it... I can also be a really big smartass. I absolutely adore sarcasm and dark, morbid humor. I've annoyed lots of people with it - as I'm sure many of you like me have. If I offend you, I'm not sorry.

I was also raised Jewish since I was about 2. Though I was home schooled until the 2nd grade, living around and going to school with nothing but Christians was pretty uncomfortable at times. In 3rd grade, while everyone else prayed before lunch, I had to walk out and wait outside the classroom with my lunch box like some outcast. On the week of Passover, I was the only one in school breaking out the matzah ball soup. I was the only one who never had anything new after Christmas break. So yeah, it was a blast. Around 15 or 16, I decided that I wanted to remain godless for my own personal decisions. Even though I've parted with Judaism, it still remains a little piece of love in my heart. I'll never forget the memories. I also do not take well to Jew jokes - just letting you know. I'm very protective and automatically go into attack mode when roused with this subject. Proceed at your own fucking risk.

Pretty much all of my life, I've been labeled as the "nice, quiet girl" - but in all honesty, I can sometimes be a heartless bitch. Even though, it comes naturally for me to act as though I have no problem with anyone. It is all amusement and great practice for someone else. I can also just as easily be a bitch to your face if you really deserve it - OR I'm having a horrible day. Nonetheless, I usually treat everyone the same as they treat me. I just might not like you. Blame the shit I've had to put up with my entire life for making me that way.

I am always analyzing things, taking things too seriously, and still surprisingly sarcastic. When something happens that is not intended to be thought through, but humorous, I sometimes automatically find myself asking questions or reasoning it out in my head how it could be possible/why it was done/etc. I usually end up annoying people and killing the buzz when I actually don't mean to. Whooptie fucking doo.

I am a pretty shy person. Usually I will never walk up to someone and talk to them; I wait for them to come to me if they are interested. I also don't talk much at all unless I'm really comfortable around the person, or they are the type of person who can keep a conversation going. I am not a leader. I am not a follower. I am the one in the corner of the room..observing..minding my own business. I am a perfectionist. I am a thinker. I am a procrastinator. I am a daydreamer. And I have the mouth of a sailor - thanks to my ex boyfriend.

My life has not been the best, to say the least. I've been through some pretty rough shit and have had things happen to me that should never happen to anyone. Even though, I don't want your pity shit. I haven't attempted to kill myself yet, so I think that is saying something. (It's a joke. LAUGH.) In conclusion, I would like to add that if I haven't already scared you off with my odd ways and somewhat secretive personality, I would not mind anyone contacting me. That is, if you think I'll accept it.

- B