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About Me

So...my names Candice. I am a very nice person once you get to know me, but most of the time I seem terribly shy & anti-social. So take a chance at speaking to me.Yes, I am a religious person, I'm a 7th day adventist, so i go to church on Saturdays. But don't be confused, It's also what they call Christian.I've been trying to make my life right, and have also been trying to connect with God in more of a relationship type of way, rather than making Church just another check mark on my scheduled daily life. I've learned that in able to know God, you need to become more like him. You sometimes also need to give up alot of bad habits.. I used to do some things, all types of stuff like smoking, some drinking, gossiping. I hated almost everyone in my life..but mostly myself..I cut...yes, I was a "poser emo kid" I once even tried to jump off a bridge...so stupid*I did alot of stupid things. I used to be another lost soul who happened to hurt herself more than anyone around her ever truly did. Pain is Pain, you let in whatever you allow yourself to go through. I guess I just didn't care....i mean i did, but i didn't care about MYSELF enough to save me from the regretfull messed up past I'm left with now. I had choices, and I made a few wrong ones along my path of life.I've been a christian since the day I remember ever seeing daylight. [birth] I regret the years I amazingly lived through, when i had turned my back on God. He allowed me to learn some serious, and heart breaking lessons. & I refuse to ever go back to that hopeless life.I'm trying my hardest to quit smoking now, it will only murder me in time. I've started to grow out my hair, so that i look like an actuall girl for once.lol ^__^ & now I've been blessed with an ability to shine through my black wardrobe. By using my voice, actions, and attitude, I seem to be able to change the image people can sometimes mistake of me. I always wear dark makeup and clothing, so that seems to always hide the kind, honest, and lovable person I really am. Which..it probley still does.... but now that i'm able to ignore how extremely anti-social & shy I truly am.. I just show people my heart through my actions, and my amazing skills in using the right words to describe exactly how I am on the inside. I guess i'm a REAL Oxymoron..in terms of black being a mixture; a shade of all the colors of the rainbow.. " i'm a colorful dark shade of a person." lolI've made some amazing friends through this change of mine..like I said* amazing 0_o Cuz i've also lost a few friends due to this drastic "Godly" change. All because I decided to save myself from literally living in a hell unknown.I think of it this way.... "In my past, when my pain inside was almost too unbarable, when my heart had finally disolved beneath my fake and broken smile...I had come to the point to when Killing my own self seemed comparable to the warm, trusting, [almost child-like] happiness you feel when you hear the simple phrase....{I love You } That is when I had come to realize the choice i needed to make. Either I could let myself down by letting what seemed to be a simplier, N'quicker way to realieve myself of self-pitty and pain; all of a sudden turn me into an automatic slave & follower of Lucifer himself. Then the most humiliating thing of all, to watch Lucifer chuckle at you and mock you for the sin you committed, a sin he easily won you over.Then theres the 2nd choice. To sacrafice your "friends" in exchange for your freedom to make a new and better way of life. Letting my friends go on into there thick headed minds, thinking they've got it good without any guidence, will soon either be their fate, or their freedom to heaven.The job God will given to me, will to just simply pray.This is who I am now, feel free to converse with me anytime, got questions, or answers, thoughts, or just a simple "hi! How are yah?" will be great. : ]Candice, Candi, & Tsuneko are my names.Friends, N' family are my love N' compassion.Nature walks, and awesome music are my "tea" N'serenity.writing poetry and paragraphs is my medecine.Life is the game I play.God is MY [EVERYTHING]..... †
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SOMEWHERE In The NiGhTSomewhere in the night a child cries, A woman weeps and someone dies. Somewhere in the night, humanity hides.Somewhere in the night , a soul screams, As people fade and die, lost in dreams. Somewhere in the night, reality lives.Somewhere in the night loneliness dwells, As people die, no sounding bells. Somewhere in the night, she dies alone.Somewhere in the night ...Where is the light?By: Marilyn
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glitter-graphics.commusic, friends, family, drawing, painting, water coloring, watching movies, bike riding, walking my two dogs: Ben and Charlie, shopping at HotTopic, and traveling. I love taking long car rides. : ]
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Candice Tsuneko W.
Birthday: 5/30/90
Birthplace: Fontana California
Current Location: Yakima
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 5'2
Right Handed or Left Handed: both..kinda...mostly my right.
Your Heritage: German, Irish, Indian, English, Japanese, Korian, African American.
The Shoes You Wore Today: CONVERSE
Your Weakness: kittens, and..well the usual...guys of course.
Your Fears: balloons, and normality
Your Perfect Pizza: i hate pizza
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: ..ummm..to pass my spanish class
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol, & GeeZ WiZzzz!!!!! 0_o
Thoughts First Waking Up: shut the hell up fuckin Ron & Tod!!!! *94.5 KATS* LOL.
Your Best Physical Feature: .UMMM? you tell me.
Your Bedtime: whenever i fall asleep.
Your Most Missed Memory: ...California..and whenever i get to visit Seattle
Pepsi or Coke: ..ewww, it's all about the Agua, RockStars & Mt.Dew!!!!..lol
McDonalds or Burger King: yuk
Single or Group Dates: both
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: ..i like Green Tea..lol.
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: both
Do you Smoke: i used to, but i quit.
Do you Swear: hellz tes
Do you Sing: depends on my mood.
Do you Shower Daily: yesssss
Have you Been in Love: uhmmmm, not exactly
Do you want to go to College: yes
Do you want to get Married: maybe...somedayyyyyy
Do you belive in yourself: sometimes.
Do you get Motion Sickness: nope
Do you think you are Attractive: nope
Are you a Health Freak: i can be.lol.
Do you get along with your Parents: depends on my mood dude.
Do you like Thunderstorms: YES!@!!! ^___^ of course, there AmaZinG!
Do you play an Instrument: violin, and some guitar & i'm working on the piano.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: w/ some friends to see the movie Nanny Diaries.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: i wish, that stuffs good
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no way
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: no
Ever been called a Tease: no
Ever been Beaten up: no, i do the beating...: ]
Ever Shoplifted: no
How do you want to Die: i wanna drowned...it seems like an interesting way to die.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A photographer, i want to travel though...for like the National Geographic kinda stuff.
What country would you most like to Visit: Japan...but then theres England and Australia
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: brown, green, and black
Favourite Hair Color: brown, green.lol, and black
Short or Long Hair: both, it depends on what style it is.
Height: either the same as me, or taller.
Weight: doesn't really matter
Best Clothing Style: ..depends...
Number of Drugs I have taken: 0
Number of CDs I own: to many
Number of Piercings: 0
Number of Tattoos: 0
Number of things in my Past I Regret: alot

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Music:

I JUST LOVE MUSIC ^__^ HURRAY!...lol.

Movies:

The Nightmare Before Christmas, The Crow, SLC Punk, Elizebeth Town, Sleepless In Seattle, You've got Mail, Extreme Days, and Blood&Chocolate.
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Television:

CSI, KyleXY, South Park, and Of course the Discovery Channel.lol.THE SNOW CHANNEL!!!
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Books:

Bible, Vampire Kisses, Ripley's Believe it or Not, and some comics
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Heroes:

God, and my mom. Again, if you have any questions...just ask.
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My Blog

The key to my heart...

Moor precious then silver,More expensive than gold.Like the rarest diamond,Its one of a kind andThe key to my heart you hold.Be careful with it,There's no spare just one.And it belongs to  youSo guard...
Posted by premeditation will kill the trust on Sat, 01 Sep 2007 11:22:00 PST

Let The Burial Begin

Darkness surrounds meAn absence of lightA place of refuge to contemplate my musings on the worldWhat do you do when your world caves inAnd the shovel has brokenAnd your mind has stopped workingThe sou...
Posted by premeditation will kill the trust on Sun, 29 Apr 2007 04:27:00 PST

My inspiration

Nervous, Insecure, Desperately trying to be like everyone else, Not wanting to stick out, Praying for the approval of my peers, I began the next chapter of my life. Thrown out into the dark, Into a th...
Posted by premeditation will kill the trust on Wed, 16 Jan 2008 06:27:00 PST

These tears were not shed for you...[sad love poem]

These tears were not shed for youbut for the sufferingi've allowed my heart to go through..These tears are not fallingfor your bennefitbut for the liesi've led myself to believewere truths..These tear...
Posted by premeditation will kill the trust on Tue, 04 Mar 2008 10:46:00 PST

BroKeN: Seether, featuring Amy Lee

Seether - Broken featuring Amy Lee of Evanescence Add to My Profile | More Videos...
Posted by premeditation will kill the trust on Sun, 14 Oct 2007 04:31:00 PST

FrEaK

when i walk by you stare, no, no even better you GLARE, i look away...         ashamed ,                   scared ,scared of what u thought of me!!!    these scars , what do they mean to you?         ...
Posted by premeditation will kill the trust on Sun, 14 Oct 2007 04:16:00 PST

The Misery is Company

People hate me, because it's easy to hate what you cannot understand, that's why i'm alone every day. Because i'm different, because i'm strange, but I will never change. Denying what I am, is denyi...
Posted by premeditation will kill the trust on Sun, 14 Oct 2007 04:00:00 PST

Careful who you call a Friend

Careful who u call a friendCareful who u decide to defendDo for them only what u know they'd do for uDont get too attached or they'll brake ur heart in 2Everybody has a different side to figure it out...
Posted by premeditation will kill the trust on Sat, 13 Oct 2007 03:56:00 PST

Daddy who? W/ "Fine Again" From Seether

Daddy who? I don't know you When did you walk into my world?Well you've missed my life i don't think you can replay itAnd the tickets are all sold out When i was 4, who took ahold of my fragile life? ...
Posted by premeditation will kill the trust on Sat, 01 Sep 2007 12:07:00 PST