About Me
"she was on trial for murder cause she killed 'em wit the swagga"
Allow me to reintroduce myself, my name is
But at the end of the day when the kicks is off & I'm chillin gettin TWASTED you can just call me Kristin. A little information about myself? Well let's see here I'm 16,(yes I know I cant believe it either) I sort of go to Cardozo, & I say sort of because I'm probably only there a good 1/3 or maybe even 1/4 of the time. Oh yes, I am quite the truant.
If you couldn't figure it out by now I'm a ßÄÃGî®L & to be honest I like it that way. On the flipside, I'm an extremely smart & intelligent young lady but some might call it a waste of potential because despite all that intelligence & natural ability I do STUPID ASS SHIT!!! I'm really stubborn, hardheaded & proud, & I dont swallow that pride for anybody. I'm a victim of the seven deadly sins but I think it's just that human flaw, that thing that makes us mortal.
I'd like to picture myself as a reasonable person & leveled person, but as much as I want to say I'm well balanced I know I cant because it's just not true & ask around bitches à Ñ£V£® LΣ. While on the subject of honesty let me explain just one thing. THE TRUTH IS GOING TO HURT SOMETIMES. YOU HAVE TO BE PREPARED TO ACCEPT THAT PAIN, IT WILL HELP YOU TO GROW, MAYBE EVEN ENOUGH TO REALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT THE TRUTH IS. Always tell the truth, & if you have to lie. don't lie when it really matters. Keep it 100% real don't accept any imitations variations etc.
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If you got the strength to feel like that ??? then you good money. But um yea like I was explaining, I'm not well balanced. I can be at times "emotionally unstable". If you been one of the few to witness one of my temper tantrums then you know exactly what I'm saying. I have a great passion for the people I love & care about, at times it gets a little out of control. I don't always think before I act, & wind up in trouble, usually hurting myself or someone else in the process. If I had to take a well aimed guess I would say it comes from me being EXTREMELY INSECURE in the past. I know its not a good thing confidence is a very valuble & important quality especially so in girls. When you dont have confidence you bring yourself down & take it from someone who knows,
"THIS WORLD IS FULL OF PEOPLE WAITING & PRAYING FOR YOUR DOWNFALL DONT MAKE IT EASIER FOR THEM BY LETTING THEM BRING YOU DOWN."
Let's all just be honest about something; If you have a PUSSY you should already know that anything wit a DICK & BALLS can & most likely will try to take advantage of you. We all know that girls who drink, smoke, etc are prime targets, girls who have done stupid shit in the past are also a good bet, & last but not least girls who feel bad about themselves, because more often then not, the girls who dont have that confidence wind up being used. All because they had to hear it from some boy that they are pretty, or that they're worth something.
I'm gonna cut out the philosphy for a minute to give you a little glimpse into my personal experience with this particular issue. Since probably around Febuary of last year I've been going through alot of shit. I came into high school with a broken heart, (word to the wise, dont let ANY boy hold onto your heart when you know hes just going to break it in the end) & because I was on the rebound I wasn't in that healthy state of mind that you should be in when you just get a fresh start at things. Details dont really matter, & the important thing is that one bad decision just leads to another one. Soon people start to forget that your a good & caring person, & when people forget, so do you. You start becoming your bad decisions, becoming what you used to hate. You forget how to love yourself you forget who you are. The people who love you & always have always will get hurt too, because they know that they cant do anything, loving yourself is something you need to learn to do on your own. Its hard to wake up every morning look at yourself & not know the reflection staring back at you. Sometimes, bad things happen to good people, & sometimes it's things that you just cant control, things that just suck & thats just the way it is.
"IT IS WAT IT IS"
Is how this bum that's really my homie described it. (L0L he'll never read this but I know somebody will figure out who it is lol). But you know what B, the past few months, things are better. I still do stupid things, but I'm happier now. There are some things, that only time is going to heal, some pains are too great to fix on your own. I am not the same girl that I used to be, I'm someone almost completely different. But I dont feel worthless anymore, I dont wake up & look at myself & not know the person looking back at me anymore. You see, the person who looks back at me now is this really FUCKING PHEN0MENAL bitch who dont take shit from nobody who doesnt put herself down anymore who knows her worth & understands her value & those who have tried to get to her lately have been tried & found wanting.
THEY CANT GET ON HER LEVEL MAN BECAUSE THE SWAGGA GOT THAT SERIOUS THEY CANT HOLD HER WEIGHT BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS FEATHERLIGHT IT'S TOO HEAVY THEY DONT KNOW WHAT SHES REALLY HOLDING
So now that we all know I can inspire millions with my success stories, lemme tell you some more about me after the epiphany. First things first, I'm fresh, I love sneakers, love to dress nice it makes me feel good. But I dont do it for nobody but me meng because I stopped giving a FUCK who thought I looked good & who didn't. If you find me pretty iight thats wassup but if you think I'm ugly NIGGA WHO YOU???? L0L exactly my point, anyone whos actually gonna call you ugly or try to shit on you doesnt matter I know you seen it on myspace before "YOU CANT BREAK THE BITCH WHO THINKS NOTHING OF YOU" Take it into account because its more then just some stupid myspace quote. But look at this too, even the people who do matter, if they hurt you, fuck them niggaz, what they gonna do for you that you cant do for yourself.
Niggaz come & go they're replaceable, & the ones who arent will stick by you. "They say love is painful it helps you grow well it's time for the pain to go." Bitches, the ones who are for real who stick by your side those are the ones you take with you the ones who fight with you even though they know yall asses is gonna get fucked up the ones who go out and party with you drink with you smoke with you and hold your hair when you vomit or lend you money for munchiez, all others are not worth the drama so I tell them bitches to suck on my clit because they on it so hard they may as well just make themselves useful.
Back to the point I do fight when I have to I am not hesitant to rock some bitch it's nothing if I win iight bet if I get fucked up oh well theres always someone out there bigger & stronger but fuck it cause no matta what I know there will never be another bitch like me =]
Now I know those of you who know me can't believe I didnt write about this yet but um...IM A FUCKING POTHEAD!
" I get high cause fuck it whats betta to do & Ima neva give a fuck cause I'm betta then you"
I smoke more or less on the daily, & yes I can roll, not perfect but enough that my L's will burn & will pull & yes my niggaz you will get high. I can handle the piff, I only bugged out one time cause it was the first time I smoked haze, I wish I could go back & do it again LMFAO!!
Me and mah homegirls WTBA ya should already know how we do nobody & I mean nobody does it up like us. How you get girls so fresh so fly & stay high like this its unheard of man ITS THAT MOTHAFUCKIN SERIOUS!!! L0L well actually its not a serious issue cause we just be chillin we like to lay back & relax & just puff puff pass...more like puff puff puff puff puff puff & maybe even another puss pass.
I have to give this girl a shoutout, cause she put me on, & if you wanna call her a bad influence fuck you cause thats my wingman she know where the blunt at MY NIGGA CRISSY!!!
L0L you already know what it is Crissy Tiff Manda Mellz & Kristin AKA the girls you ENVY because we dont give a fuck we strictly do us. FUCK NIGGAZ GET ZOOTED is the motto we follow.
I have to give one to Michelle, my Mishy, because its not question you are my sister we played in diapers together & I dont care however far you move you know I'll always be here for you, to fuck up them lil seaford bitches or whatever else.
My brother Jimmy, thats my heart, if he died I would too. I'll never let anyone touch you I dont care if your a whole foot taller then me your still my baby brother & I'll never let anyone hurt you I promise.
Last but not least, to my mom. I could write songs about this woman. I really should, because it would be the least that I could do for her. She truly is my hero, because I know I wouldnt be able to make it without her. I know I treat her bad sometimes & people notice it, & ask me how I could be mean to my mom when shes so amazing to me. I really don't have an answer, I'm just kind of a hard person to deal with sometimes. I hope that soon I'll learn to not only understand how much I should appreciate her but learn to show it to her because honestly, I hope I can grow up & be half the woman she is.
Shoutouts also to everyone else, not eveyone can have a special shoutout because I'm getting tired of typing about people L0L.
But listen though, I'm mad cool. I'm funny & I love it when I make people happy & when I can make people laugh. Some people even call me "the solution to a bad day" because when I care about you & your sad it matters to me & I'll try my best to put a smile on your face. I like the weather when its nice out, I feel beautiful. I love the swings at the park, they make me feel like a little kid. I'm not always thinking right but I got a good head on my shoulders. People say I'm weird sometimes, maybe cause I sit with my legs far apart like a dude, or I smoke blunts by myself, or that I can make really ugly faces. I like things rough, dont ask about it cause theres only one person that statement applies to.
On the subject, I'm single, have been for a hot minute, I have bad luck with guys. It really sucks but that's okay...I'ma just wait for someone who really cares about me the way I would care for them...Someone who really appeciates me & doesnt try to bullshit & use me...L0L I know when hell freezes over I'll find a guy like that.
I think girls who pretend to be lesbian or bi are fucking retarded, acting gay & kissing girls is like the new everyone trying to be black, what the fuck is going on. THINGS THAT MAKE ME LAFF ARE fat girls who think they're skinny & skinny girls who starve themselves Black girls who start problems with everyone else just cause they're mad fucking ghetto for no reason. Spanish girls who swear they're unique when them & all their friends dress exactly the same. White girls who got too much attitude. Asian people who think their spanish. Indian people who act black, etc.
L0L & its crazy cause I know some people might be like yo, this girl talks mad shit, she probably does the same shit & has friends who do the same shit. FOR THE FUCKING REC0RD I D0NT GIVE A FUCK!!! DOES IT REALLY FUCKING MATTER TO YOU WHAT I SAY!! IT SHOULDNT CAUSE I DONT GIVE A FUCK WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY!!I'll say what the fuck I want & if you got a problem bring it up then we'll deal with it. Everyone chirps the same bullshit anyways so lets just fucking get past it.
I CURSE ALOT just want to mention that & when I'm high it gets worse. I like to read & write poetry I'm a rather deep person. If I was an animal I would be a panther. My favorite color is blue & I constantly go over my cell phone minutes.
"If at the end all we're gonna do is get our hopes up to have them crash down & get hurt, whats the point? The point is; darling, that before the end theres the middle, the ride, the cream filling & its the best part."
People, it's about that time, where I'm gonna put the kicks back on & step out again, but it's okay, you know a little something about me that you didn't before, so you can still call me Kristin.
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