Currently, confused. Im done wasting my time on someone who doesn't give a shit. And there's plenty of you that I don't want in my life anymore. I need a best friend. I just want to live my life and not live up to anyone elses standards. I only live once, and I probably wont live that long so I don't really see a point in wasting what little time I have left on earth doing things that anyone else feels is necessary in order for me to be happy with myself. You're just brainwashed. The average lifespan for anyone living in 2009 is about 80 years, think about how long this earth has been here, compare that to 80 years...youre not even a fraction of what else has been here before you and think about what percentage of the people who have been on this earth millions of years before us have actually helped guide this earth for our future...its such a small number . Stop trying so hard to be happy, stop letting people tell you that you have to go out of your way to actually feel a sense of accomplishment, you'll waste your time trying and working and pushing yourself so hard that you wont realize with all the time wasted you could have found that one spec of happiness that could've grown into something amazing.
People come to me with there problems, I dont know why but I help them anyways. I have a heart, and Im tired of giving it to people who take it for granted. I am fragile and I find it hard to let anyone in. I'm one of the most loyal people you will meet in your life and I guess that makes me severely vulnerable and opportune to be hurt repetitively and taken for granted. I have been hurt and let down by so many people in my life, that I find it hard to trust anyone. I am very opinionated, and straightforward with people although I will keep to myself, unless I'm with people I trust. I want to rest in my own skin and feel free to express myself in any sort of way. Don't tell me what you think of me because I want to change on my own, not because of your opinion. Although I am changing everyday because I do have people that interfere with my life and what I do but they change me in a positive way because the only people that I let change me are the people I love. If you think you are original, chances are you're not. You're just another carbon copy of the rest of people on here. Originality has lost all of its meaning. I am so over this "ohmgsh I'm so scene" shit. Get over yourselves people.
Don't think you know me just because you said hi. Try to actually get to know me. I just might be your new bestfriend. I have very few "friends" you know the ones you can actually count on. The rest of you I'm just nice to your face. I don't have a lot of "girl" friends. Maybe about two real ones. Then the rest are guys. It's always been like that. And I know that it will never change. My friends are important to me, in a way they make me who I am. I know a lot of fake people. They know it. I know it. People obviously don't know when to stop messing with me. And then it gets to the point where I have to vandalize there house. I don't care what you say or think, Unless your one of my real friends. Everything you say about me, I hear about it! Keep that in mind next time you want to run your mouth.
To the people who've fucked me over, and ruined my life: Try and talk to me again, Im done with hating people. Im giving second chances, Not three, one more. After that, Im done with you and you can burn in hell.Lets run to the rooftops and feel the city living out below us. Lets sing at the top of our lungs and not stop until our voices give out. Lets leave home and not come back until were ready. Lets listen only to the songs and words that make us happy. Lets run away and live our lives the way they were meant to be. Lets make up our own plotlines and catch phrases. Lets dance together in the pouring ran. Lets dress to impress only the people we love. Lets get lost in the shadows between the streetlights. Lets write the words to unlock hearts on city walls. Lets scream the words that mean everything to no one but us. Lets freeze time until were satisfied. Lets capture the beauty in everything. Lets set our shutter speeds so that everything will shift and blur. Lets breathe in the rest of our lives, and then let go.
