I love, it's as simple as that. All those of you who are my friends, or who were at one time, or who want to be one... there's room in my heart for everyone. I don't care if you like to play frisbee or paint, walk on a nice day, or swim when it's crappy out. You could have a passion for writing, or a drive for politics. The fact is that I love. It doesn't matter if you're fat or thin, or if you think you're ugly. Or if you have acne or buckteeth. It doesn't matter if you're beautiful, average, or undesirable to other people, because I love. Sure, I'm human, I judge all the time, but my judgements, my first impressions never last. Because you always have a second chance with me. Forgiveness, love, tolerance. It might sound Christian or Buddhist, but I'm governed by no doctrine. I am what I am, but I do always love.
Trent Reznor had a recurring theme on one of his albums. I think the quote goes something like: "I wanna be everywhere, I wanna see everything, I wanna fuck everyone in the world, I wanna do something that matters." I guess if you replaced fuck with love, and made that synonymous with meet, there would be an answer to that question somewhere in all the rhetoric.
Nine Inch Nails mostly, but I'm no Goth. I'll listen to everything, and even if I don't like it, it will probably give me good memories. I equate Rilo Kiley with Ian, and I smile, even if it got annoying. I think the Dead, and I think about my brother, how he left the house to follow the band post Garcia, an event that really shaped my life. I think Phish, and I picture Sym, just spinning and playing his harmonica in the middle of the street. I think Pantera, and how could I not picture Jake, sitting in his chair playing the air guitar and flicking us the horns. Country always brings me back to those few times I stayed with Johannah when Chelsea was there. And rap? That brings me back to those few car rides where I sat in the back, centered between Johannah and Ashmo, listening to them joke and laugh and watching them dance as much as their seats and seatbelts allowed them to. Oh, I can't forget Jen and her infamous Seal voice messages. That I think I'll remember forever.
A sick ass song that I heard live!
Actually, I'm kinda a movie freak. You can blame Mitch for that one, but you'll have to wait til he gets out of the Army. My favorite has to still be Braveheart, simply for its emotional impact on me. What, I'll admit it, I cry. But hey, dying for things worth dying for always gets me. It's like the ultimate sacrifice, the noblest and purest thing. Anyone brave enough to fight and struggle for what they believe is a hero in my book, and if you risk your life in the pursuit of a better world well... I wouldn't mind going like that. Oh, and Man on Fire too. That's such a good movie. So, so good.
Movie clip from The Dreamers.
No real favorite shows or anything. I usually watch funny stuff or sports shows... or GSN because Lingo is pretty fun to play along with.
As far as books that have shaped my life? The Tao te Ching is up there, and some Buddhist literature. The Bible's a good read too, but not the parts about God. Just the parts where Jesus talks about peace and love. Rimbaud's poetry, though tortured, is really good. Hegel was torture to read, but I'm glad I (mostly) got through it. Now I feel like I'm being a douchebag English major and just name dropping the shit out of hard books to show off. I swear I'm not like that. William Gibson's Sprawl Trilogy is my favorite set of books, and Mona Lisa Overdrive has the BEST ending I have ever read. Philip K. Dick is almost all good, too. I've no idea how much of his stuff I've read, but it's all worth it. My suggestion is to just find something you love, and read the shit out of it.
Jesus (the man, not the myth), Buddha (all the Buddha's), Lao Tzu and everyone who practices centering themselves in the nature of things. Johannah and her unwavering ability to laugh and smile. My brother and the knack he has for dealing with all that stuff, whether or not it's self-induced. And pretty much everyone else in my life. I have been affected by everyone I've met, and there is always something I admire that I try to emulate, even if it's not that noticable.