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Nikki

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About Me

First of all i have a beautiful daughter named MacKenzie Rae Allwelt and i love her more than anything in this whole world.

I love being a mama! Im still in love with Jeremy David Allwelt. most likely forever. i love my mom, shes so freakin cute. and my little sis...i love my beautiful neice. i love caitlin and lex even though i never see them. i love my grandparents. i love jeremys mom. i love lindsay...i miss you! i love my aunt deana cuz she rocks. i love my dad and he will forever be in my heart.

Some one once told me That you have to choose What you win or loseYou can't have everythingDon't you take chances You might feel the pain Don't you love in vain Cause love won't set you freeI could stand by the side And watch this life pass me by So unhappy, But save as could beSo what if it hurts me! So what if i break down So what if this world just throws me of the edge My feet run out of ground I gotta find my place,I wanna hear my sound Don't care about all the pain in front of me cause i'm just try'na be? Happy (yeah) Just wanna be happy (yeah)Holding on tightley Just can't let it go Just try'na play my roleSlowly disappearWell all these days they feel like there the same,Just different faces, different names Get me out of hear!Well i can't stand by the side (Ooh no) And watch this life pass me by! Pass me by...So what if it hurts me So what if i break down So what if this world just throws me off they edge, My feet run out of ground I gotta find my place I wanna hear my sound Don't care about all the pain in front of me Cause I'm just try'na be (Happy....)So any turns that i can't see Like I'm a stranger on this road But don't say victim!, Don't say anything!So what if it hurts me So what if i break down So what if this world just throws me off the edge my feet run out of ground I gotta find my place! I wanna hear my sound Don't care about all the pain in front of me,I just wanna behappy,Oh yeah,happy,ooh yeah yeah, I just wanna be,oh.. I just wanna be? Happy!. - Leona Lewis

I love to have fun and not deal with all the bullshit drama. I love my friends. i hate figthing and being blamed for others faults... i really really hate being cold. i pisses me off. i am currently going to Baker college for my associates in occupational therapy assistant. im addicted to salt and vinegar chips and Madden 08 (one day i will be better than biskits). i kick ass in guitar hero.

im a complete dork ask anyone. i give my heart and soul into everything i do/try and if it doesnt work out then i suppose its not supposed to be. I love music because it makes me feel centered. I love playing in the rain and i love green eyes. I try to get along with everyone but if u piss me off then i can be a bitch. Some people claim im crazy, but its who i am and i can deal with that.i try to make everyone happy - especially people that i love but sometimes i feel like love gets taken advantage of. &&people make mistakes...learn from them - and do not repeat. i hate liars . i say fuck alot. i try to live life as it comes to me and whatever obstacles get in my way only makes me stronger.

My Interests

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It's completely impossible to find a guy who won't ever hurt you, so go for the guy who will make the pain worthwhileNo matter how many times he hurts me, I will always forgive him. Some may call it stupid. I call it love.The people who suffer the most are those who don’t know what they want.And when I tell you I love you, I don't say it out of habit, or to start a conversation. I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that's ever happened to meSeize the day or die regretting the time you lost.


My Blog

poem from jeremy :)

Today is a day a day to share love, this is a day were I give you sweet hugs, I love you baby with all my heart and i will always love you till death do us part, I give you this ring to hold on your ...
Posted by on Mon, 18 Feb 2008 16:03:00 GMT

i love you jeremy

this year has been alright so far...i just feel like so much is going on and im stuck in the middle of nowhere. the only thing i look forward to every morning is jeremy. im so completely happy where ...
Posted by on Mon, 04 Feb 2008 19:54:00 GMT

fAr AwAy

I was so excited to move to muskegon...get my own place [well with minni lol]...get a job and shit... but its not all that great. not just because of gay classes 3 times a week but because i feel like...
Posted by on Wed, 09 Jan 2008 16:04:00 GMT

christmas

so christmas went pretty well this year. (better than last). i got to spend a lot of time with my my cousins and my uncle who i absolutely love to death. not to mention, my mom and sis were up here :)...
Posted by on Tue, 25 Dec 2007 16:55:00 GMT

doesnt make sense

Im so confused. We can pretend and act like were together...but were not. And we worry about what the other is doing...yet im not yours to worry about. Even though it feels like it. And you tell me th...
Posted by on Wed, 28 Nov 2007 13:52:00 GMT

[worlds divide]

Lost in these timesIts hard to make up our mindsThis is the reasonWe're convicted for our crimesSo we waitScars on our faceThey show the importanceOf finding a way to leave this placeBut then we're le...
Posted by on Mon, 29 Oct 2007 22:24:00 GMT

apologies

I owe an apology to a few people. Rachel: im sorry i didnt believe you and for blowing things way out of proportion. Courtney: sorry for thinking jeremy cheated on me with you. i shouldve known better...
Posted by on Wed, 03 Oct 2007 00:22:00 GMT

THree yeaRS ♥

i dont really have a lot to say. i just thought itd be nice to write a new blog...[even though i hate these things] im happy with where i am right now. im happy with my boyfriend ? im happy that high ...
Posted by on Tue, 18 Sep 2007 15:58:00 GMT

bRiNg On ThE rAiN...

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to goWhoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know whyI triedI tried to read b...
Posted by on Sun, 22 Apr 2007 15:09:00 GMT

this is the moment you say [goodbye]

so i pretty much got shitfaced last night with my homies midgit, jay, jesse, carri, and others. it was nice to finally be able to party outside again in the middle of fuckin nowhere. he finally said ...
Posted by on Sun, 22 Apr 2007 08:12:00 GMT