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Good-byes and Hellos: This past decade, I've experienced many little deaths of lost friendships and relationships. Each incident has taught me so much and has brought me to where I am today. Stephen, Chris, Soveary, Sir Collin (Jon), and Mason. With Stephen, my instincts took over and taught me not to trust someone who was only interested in a romp rather than a relationship. Good thing I kept my dignity! Chris taught me to never accept second best. I would have always been second choice to Mandy and Vanessa and if I were to surrender myself, I'd have to know that he is as enamoured with me as I am with him. Soveary and I were both desperate and depressed. Our friendship became too intense and overwhelming. Letting go of that friendship brought Evelyn into my life, which is the best thing that has happened to me since poetry. Sir Collin, we had a beautiful friendship in high school talking endlessly about chivalry, knighthood, and love. I'm sorry we couldn't have carried that into adulthood. Mason taught me that you can never force someone to love you. From this experience, I learned that I could not be happy by seeking external love. What I've been looking for is love that comes from within. I spent countless nights journaling, writing poetry, caressing my body in my bubble baths, lighting candles, and learning to love myself. Thank you for teaching me self-love and self-respect. I feel that I am finally able to let go of some of my past and take ownership for what part I played in it. I'm sorry for any pain I may have caused others. I'm grateful that you guys were my teachers. You guys couldn't have done a better job at teaching me whatever it was I had to learn and for that I will always be grateful for.