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Shelly

it's Shelly - not Michelle.Thanks ( I have always went by Shelly..no one has ever known me as Michel

About Me

When I lived in Port Hueneme I had a little girl named Amber (when I was 16,,so ya they grow fast!! ;) grew up in Port Hueneme,California. HPL forever! Went to Hueneme High School. Moved to Portland ,Oregon.There sure aint nothing like that city I grew up in! Miss all my old friends, would love to find alot of them...I luckily know and stay in touch with Eddie Stearns,Terry Spinks and Also my best friend forever Desiree !! I will up date more later oh ya...( I lived in Hackett Arkansas for a short time..when I was 9 till I was 11or 12) then at 12 it was back to Port Hueneme Cali.. Thank God I love Port Hueneme !! ;) but I am still trying to find all my old friends from the places I grew up.!! anyway..life is so short ...everyone take care!! love ya all!! oh and went to Hackett high in hackett,Arkansas, then Hueneme High in hueneme,california.

My Interests

My family and friends and starting my own company .Also am writing my books as well.Dont care if im rich or famous..just wanna be able to live life comfortably and leave my kiddos something!!Also,want to be able to visit Cali every summer; magic mountain kicks ass!! ha ha ha!

I'd like to meet:

Would love to see all my old friends again one day..and hope they all are doing well!! Would love to hear from you all , please let me know how you all are!! Oh please let me know whats' changed about the citys i've left!! thanks so very much!! Also!!!!! AM DESPERATELY LOOKING FOR MY DAUGHTER ......ONE OF THE BIGGEST AND MOST HEART WRENCHING DECISIONS I EVER MADE WAS GIVING UP MY PRECIOUS DAUGHTER FOR ADOPTION...I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN OVER THIS EVERY SINGLE DAY SINCE I HELD THAT SWEET LITTLE BABY IN MY ARMS. I AM TERRIFIED SHE WILL BE ANGRY WITH ME...MORE PETRIFIED SHE WILL NEVER WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME AND HER 3 SISTERS AND ONE BROTHER!!! AMBER IS ALMOST 22, ANGELA IS 18(MY LOST LITTLE ONE ;( , JASON IS 16, EMILY IS 15 AND JENNY IS 8. ALL OF ANGELAS SISTERS AND BROTHER HAVE BEEN WAITING (AS I HAVE ) FOR THE ONE SPECIAL DAY WE MAY BE LUCKY ENOUGH TO SEE HER, MEET HER...HUG HER. I CANT EXPLAIN TO ANYONE EXACTLY HOW IT FEELS TO HAVE A CHILD YOU GAVE UP FOR ADOPTION OUT IN THE WORLD AND YOU CONSTANTLY WONDER "IS SHE HAPPY? IS SHE WELL? I HOPED TO GOD NO ONE HAS HURT HER!!! AND YOU WONDER..DOES SHE HATE ME? DID I DO THE RIGHT THING?? AND DOES SHE NEED ME?? I NEED HER,,, JUST TO KNOW SHE IS IN MY HEART MY HEART BROKE WHEN I REALIZED WHAT ID DONE. I IMMEDIATELY WANTED TO TAKE MY PRECIOUS BABY BACK AND TELL THAT FAMILY NO,I CANT GIVE YOU MY DAUGHTER!! I HAD NOTHING..NO MONEY, I COULD BARELY SUPPORT MY FIRST CHILD AND I HAD NO FAMILY MEMBER TO TURN TO...I THOUGHT I WAS DOING A WONDERFUL THING FOR MY BABY..EVEN THOUGH I KNEW IT WOULD TEAR MY HEART APART. AND I HOPE TO GOD I DIDNT MAKE A MISTAKE ..I JUST HOPE SHES HAPPY. AND IF SHE EVER WANTS TO TALK TO ME..OR ONE OF HER SISTERS OR BROTHER..WE ARE ALL ANXIOUSLY WAITING FOR THAT CALL. AND YES, WE ALSO KNOW..THAT THE DAY SHE CALLS WOULD BE A MIRACLE...BECAUSE..SHE MAY NEVER MAKE THAT CALL. SO HONEY IF YOU ARE OUT THERE...WEVE BEEN LOOKING,PRAYING, HOPEING, WISHING,CRYING AND ....PLEASE CALL.YOUR FAMILY LOVES YOU SO MUCH.YOUR MOTHER LOVES YOU VERY MUCH. LOVING YOU EVERY MINUTE, SHELLY., AMBER,JASON,EMILY,AND JENNY.

Music:

love NOFX,Decendents,Fugazi,bad religion,there to many to name!

Movies:

love Quinton Terantino films,fight club rocks!! there are so many great movies!! Pulp Fiction, Goodfellas,Casino,so many more!!

Television:

theres not alot thats good..but hells kitchen makes me laugh... that guys mean as hell!! ha ha ha!

Books:

not sure.would this make me more interesting?? ha ha ha!!

Heroes:

Not sure. But I really look up to my best friend Desiree! Shes great! I've known her since I was 16..we'd been best friends ever since.I know i live 3 states away from her now..but hope we'll always stay great friends anyways. And one day I may buy a condo down there ..(I hate the winters up here) id love to be here for summer..there for winter..we'll see! Am currently lookin to buy a house and (then apartments to have someone else manage)..then the Cali condo..well...thats the plan..ha ha ha!