Evil Eric

Life is just so fast and so taken for granted… I used to have this page like 7 moths ago... So some may recognize me from then... It was canceled due to the fact the MySpace was not very healthy for most relationships... I fuckin hate myspace but i need it to keep in touch with the few friends i have... I have been in a few real serious relationships...I have left and been left...They all broke my heart in one way or another due to the fact that the love shared just did not meet the standards of having a best friend and mate in one...I have lived a full life and don’t have many regrets considering the cards I was dealt… I was a full contact fighter for many years and have even fought in professional ranks... but this last year...Some change really took a toll on me with injuries, losing 15 people (friends and family to death) and love with it's infinite roller coaster of mocking roadblocks... The past seems blurry to me... I try to forget so much.. This is why I have become so detached and easy... I just dont really care about that many small things anymore... Things eat at you and I am not one to be wasting my time on things that are not going to send my whole life into a downward spiral... People come and go ... I have come to terms with how reality plays us like a harp... I just dont care enough to get bent out of shape about it ever again...Now I guess I'll invite you in to my twisted little mind as if it was the door to the theme park of your choice... I cant wait............................. Come on in......................Im sure this message will repel the weak which is good for me... Are you following me so far???? Christ I'm intense... I'm a regular super charged broken barrel of winged fuckin monkeys. My parents didn't love me enough... I know the pain between men and women ...and how seldom it works out.... Especially when you throw timing and or love into the equation... I guess thats why I act like a little kid sometimes... Never really had the chance in the past ...Not that I want an ounce of sympathy from any direction what so ever... For I am a leader and a superior force to be reckoned with because of my black past ... I just dont want to take anything way to serious anymore... I found that when you surrender yourself or let something consume you ,mixed with putting forth an extensive amount of effort ... Most of the time that extensive effort continues to grow and speed up to where alternate parts of your life become compromised...Result is your own personal hell that youve created...My thinking now is that people are similar to puzzle pieces... However they were shaped and molded , they are that way for a reason ... They also either fit with you or they dont... As long as there's communication, there is no reason to burn bridges... So if you're too fuckin serious all the time, then I guess I'd love to get under your skin.... and make you understand why mostly everything in this morally warped place we live is not that big of a problem... I've had my eyes opened a long time ago... For now I welcome all that can bring positivity and light... I just wanna be fuckin happy for a change...Life is short and speeds up rapidly...Do what you want with it ....Your on or last chance.....