adelaide

profile update: why the fuck do everytime i look at what i wrote on my profile, i feel its shallow as fuck. its who i was when i wrote it but then later when i re-read it, its not at all who i am. how can someone change so fast while staying EXACTLY the same person at the most fundamental level?? self-description today april 2, 2007: i am... frustrated... with the ppl who populate the world and with myself for being a part of it all and not being able to get out. I am a fun and happy person who enjoys life...but...i look deeper into what exists than the pretty shiny surface level they give to us to digest--and so i get sad--and frustrated with ppl who dont, cant or dont want to see things for what they are. I am anti-US foreign policy, i work in guatemala showing ppl from the US the first hand-impacts of our selfish desire to eat cheap bananas and drink strong coffee, I am a vegan living in Argentina getting frustrated with ppl telling me that broccli has feelings too but loving my porteno friends who are actually reconsidering their views on animals as food, everything i use in life i have been carrying around on my back for the past 3 years and everything i am still too attached to (photos, CDs, cooking supplies momma got me, books...) are in a 5 by 5 little box in los angeles, i walk over 30 blocks a day to get where i need to go, i talk with ppl on the bus, i spend 4 days cooking huge pots of beans to share with friends because you cant find them here in buenos aires, and its never enough. i have a cold and am using a ton of soft toilet paper to blow my nose. i love my veggie dogs that come all neatly wrapped in plastic. i tried to only use Dr brauners in the shower but after several months all my individual hair strands became one so now i using some horrible probably proctor and gamble shampoo (i just checked and sure enough it fucking is!). so yeah--today i find myself in a life fix. trying to do it right but not knowing how. my momma says dont be hard on myself. im not being hard on myself, im loving me and you and everything and im not doing a good enough job. i dont know how to love the world right. nobody taught us and i cant find the magic book that tells us how or the special space in which we are really free to do it. maybe one day... in fact, i am sure one day, in some space. just not sure it will be within the next gazillion years or on this spacial surface. ojala! old, easier-to-read, more myspace-friendly post: This is kinda hard to do since i feel like i am no longer who i have been for like, ever. i used to the be wild as fuck--off the rocker (all my friends can vouch). but now i'm a lot more calm (still a bit loca, though). I used to get off on planning things to the very last detail and now i feel i am likely the most spontaneous person i know--and on a big level. the world is my home and i mean that in the most literal way. i country hop like i used to run across the street. i love to travel more than anything. living, learning, experiencing, giving, being, its what life is all about and right now i am doing that 100% with my life. I'm far from perfect and quite aware of my flaws and have figured out which ones i will keep working on and which ones i pretty much just accept as there to stay (when i'm hungry i am a BITCH!), but i'm a good person and i have little tolerance for ppl that are not. i'm extremely open-minded (extremely!) and really, really, really value the same in others. i don't have any real talents but i appreciate the talents of others. i like to have friends that have talents and passions. i'm not boring. not one bit. but can be a bit lazy. well, ok, i'm pretty damn lazy. but you know... and i LOVE a good time. so if you are down, bring it on!