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My name is Agnieszka, just Aga and my nickname is endzi, there should be "." over "z" and it's a Polish letter. You say my nickname like "angie". Talking about myself reminds me a job interview, which I think is a totall nightmare, especially in my country. Why? 'cause interviewers make us act like IDIOTS (!!!). Shortly: high school, university and then work. Everything seemd to be in the right order but me and my family forgot that LIFE IS LIFE and one can not predict everything. Yes, I was an idiot and very naive. I thought that if I go to university, all employers will be waiting with open arms...jus for me...Stupid girl! Now, when I am much older I have a totally different vision of my life: - you want to do something, DO IT! (simple) - if you're afraid of doing sth, think twice or more, do it and than talk with your conscience. Remember - this is only your problem and you are guilty. - if you don't do smth that you want, you may regret it later. - Carpe diem!!! "What would you do if there was no tomorrow?". You can console yourself what other religions say by spreading an optimistic vision after our death. But is it for sure? Did your canary-bird return in a different body???? Have you seen it? Touched it???? - nothing is everlasting - today you say you like me so much, tomorrow you don't even reply on my sms... - if I don't behave right and do things wrong, please tell me about it and don't say that "everythin's OK". Simple! - If I ask "why", just answer me. Simple! - we all need love, acceptance and time for reflection. --------------------------------------------------------- so.........Carpe Diem!I want to feel that I really live my life in order to not ever regret that I missed smth. Sometimes I am a monster;) I curse too much. I am nervous/neurotic, spitfire, very emotional, spontaneous, very witty, cynic, egocentric, tough. Yes, I'm almost a master of black humour. Life is a fucking mistake. Everyday fighting and fighting, running and running and all goes around sex. I know it's not nice of me but I think that most people that surround me everyday are bastards (but please, don't get these words into your heart, 'cause I mean "outsiders",if you still don't understand...I can explain it to you). People generate too many problems which I don't understand. I think life is cruel and we, people, create this. Sometimes I have insane thoughts that if I had a chance, I could build "special areas" to put there many "error-men" (beginning from murderers, psychopaths, those who hurt animals, thieves, homeles by their drinking, even women during their menopause and many, many more). Damn! I know I won't change this world. Isn't it lovely? ;) Yes, I feel like a lost child. I'm still searching for SOMETHING. Where is it? Who is it? What is it? Where is He because I need him so much. I need his love. Where is he?!!!! - I am shouting.
I don't like/hate: neglected people whatever it means - dirty nails, neglected teeth, bad breath, callous feet etc, queues and crowds, bumptious situations, "playing", obligation, compulsion, affectation, when sb yawns with open-wide mouth in a public place, being dependent, job interviews, comings back home after leaving sb at the airport/station, estimation, sick opinions, getting up too early, when sth is to finish, waiting, hypocrisy, insincerity, intolerance, conceit, insects (flies, chelae, mosquito, wasps), Christmas panic, paranoia, saying "yes" when it means "no", going to extremes, dodgers, thieves, envy, ambiguity, constant contriving, double-dealing, pensioners, dirt, sometimes "being a woman", conventionality, not giving a chance...to me, folly, thinking "I don't like her though I don't even know her", to quake,flatulence, discomfort - whatever it means (lack of water and hygiene), long travelling, to categorize, knowing nothing, loneliness, helplessness, my dirty hands, waking up not in my bed, pain, doctors and hospitals, diseases, dirty toilets, waiting for an answer, strong wind, clerks, too much rules, bad perception of tatoos/rings (any problem in every-day life, getting job etc.), business interests, smeared make-up, to deal sth with departments (mainly fiscal),having hope 'cause it's usually fails, saying "I understand BUT...", politics, wars, rows, making fuss of not important things, uncertainty, doubt, this American "How are you - I'm fine", too much to choose, fanaticism...
I like/love: a consciousness of the resting/longer sleeping the next day, calm, doing what I want, freaks, original ideas, cuteness, fancy, a good sense of humour, thinking loudly, to pull to pieces, thunderstorm, fresh air while/after raining, sun, Sunsets, dawning, singing birds in the morning, Spring, animals, men with big noses, belief, trust in me, memory about me, "healthy" moaning, thanking (it's so simple), the consciousness that sb thinks about me/relies on me, adores me but I don't like too much compliments, wise advices, concrete situations, giving and getting gifts, candles, ghosts and mistery things, fragrance, my bathroom, taking baths, doing make-up, breakfast/meal in a calm, support, cats rubbing my leg, happy dogs when their Master is coming back home, walking on the beach, kisses, full moon, smoking cigarettes, drinking alcohol, caresses, massage, lighthouses, watching and listen to sea-waves, fireplaces, lack of sick obligation , inflow of fresh air, know what to do, how to behave, a planned day and a typical order made by a Capricorn (you know what I mean).....................Why did I name more things I dislike? hmmmmmmm....'cause it's easier to present? Yes, I'm a stranger. So be careful.
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