MADEA NEVER DID I IMAGINE LIFE WITHOUT YOU. SINCE YOU LEFT, YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH. THIS YEAR WENT BY SO FAST. BUT I KNEW GOOD THINGS NEVER LAST. YOU ALWAYS TOLD US HOW GOD GAVE US HIS SON. WE KNEW WE HAD TO GIVE BACK BUT NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE THE CHOSEN ONE. I MISS YOU DEA. I MISS YOU BAD. AND EVERYTIME I THINK ABOUT MISSING YOU, I GET MAD. MAYBE I DIDN'T DO EVERYTHING YOU WANTED ME TO. OR MAYBE I DIDN'T COME AROUND ENOUGH FOR YOU. I REMEMBER YOU SAYING LORD I'M IN YOUR CARE. I REMEMBER THAT DAY CUZ I WAS RIGHT THERE. I MISS YOU DOWN HERE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I NEVER PREPARED MYSELF TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU. PLEASE BE AT MY SIDE DAY AND NIGHT. I LOVED TO HEAR YOU SAY THAT IT'LL BE ALRIGHT. I TOLD YOU THERE WAS NO CASKET BIG ENOUGH FOR YOU AND ME. YOU LAUGHED AND SAID IT'S HOWEVER GOD WANT IT TO BE. YOU USED TO SAY DON'T CRY FOR YOU BECAUSE YOU WILL BE ALRIGHT. AND NO MATTER WHAT IT'S ALWAYS GOD'S FIGHT. I'M NOT CRYING FOR YOU BECAUSE I KNOW YOU ARE SAFE AT HOME. I CRY BECAUSE IT'S HARD TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU ARE GONE. THANK YOU DEA FOR EVERYTHING YOU GAVE TO ME. NOW I'M GONNA SHOW YOU HOW STRONG I CAN BE. I TOLD YOU ONE DAY I WILL BE AHEAD. PUT YOUR MIND TO IT AND YOU CAN DO IT IS ALL YOU EVER SAID. SO, I'LL GO FOR NOW AND LET YOU REST. REMEMBER, I LOVE YOU DEA, BUT GOD LOVES YOU BEST