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~Beautiful Disaster~ ....i am The Unatainable Too many guys think I'm a concept, or I complete them,

About Me

rules, labels and our generation's apathetic rationalizations in not taking responsibility for change basically makes me itch. Our society's general attitudes toward human connection and interaction are so flawed. Does anyone believe in love anymore? "all we need is love" - john lennon.

"You steam a lens stable eyes and glass
Not get pissed off through my burned lips as good news
Still we can find our love down from behind
Down far behind this fabulous, my turn rules
You'll hang the hearts black and dull as the night
We hanged your pass and start being as you in ecstasty
Still being cried and laughed at before
Should I be sewn in hugged I can by not saying
Still being cried and laughed at from light to blue
And should I be hugged and tugged down through this tiger's masque
And should I be sung and unbroken by not saying?
You mind not saying
He'll hang that heart's black and dull as the night
Still being cried and laughed at from behind me, from gains
We hanged your pass and star being as you in ecstasy
Still being cried and laughed at from behind me, from gains
Should I be sung and unbroken by not saying?"
[insert uneducated generalization here] ... or get to know me better.
People will forget what you say. People will forget what you do. But people will never forget how you make them feel. can we remember that in our every day interactions? i believe every day is a special occasion and idle time is waste; who knows what will happen tomorrow? i am interested in everything. i am a bookworm. i like concepts that make me think. i love to just talk to people, i like conversations that show me different perspectives - though i don't like to be told i'm wrong. i am passionate; some refer to me as "impulsive" but i prefer the term "vivacious". i love randomness and spontaneity. in fact, i have a general impatience with things that do not enthrall me. i have no time for the mediocre...life is too short, why bother bullshitting around? So i actually have the privilege to say that i am HAPPY; things are not going perfect persay, but i am in love with life, and with life you have to take both the good and the bad then learn and grow from it all. for me success is the ultimate rebellion. then again, my definitions of success do not emphasize money or fame, but rather personal goal fulfillment and straight up making a difference in our world for the better. i work fulltime, i go to school fulltime and adventure or party every spare moment inbetween. Cooking for friends is my other favourite pastime (i don't cook anything out of a box or a can :P) lets see, i beach it up almost every weekend. I LOVE ADVENTURING!!! i don tlike spelling. i like to debate sarcastically. i'm a nerd, i watch CSPAN & PBS, i listen to NPR, and i read BBC/CNN/NYT - i love to debate, but i usually won't discuss politics in detail b/c most people in our generation have not done enough research to back their opinions.
So, i'm only here to stay in touch with friends- basically, i am a myspace snob - if i dont know you IRL - please please please don't bug me. :)
Now, i know you believe you understand what you think i just said, but you may be failing to realize that what you heard was not exactly what i meant. basically, my opinions my change with added perspective, but not the fact that i am right ;)
Extroverted (E) 51.35% Introverted (I) 48.65%
Sensing (S) 54.29% Intuitive (N) 45.71%
Feeling (F) 55.26% Thinking (T) 44.74%
Perceiving (P) 54.55% Judging (J) 45.45%
Your type is: ESFP
ESFP radiates attractive warmth and optimism. Smooth, witty, charming, clever. Fun to be with. Very generous. 8.5% of the total population. Jung Personality Test
My most precious possession is my Cat.
Some friends along for the ride...

Disorder Rating
Paranoid : Low
Schizoid : Low
Schizotypal : Low
Antisocial : Low
Borderline : Low
Histrionic : Moderate
Narcissistic : Moderate
Avoidant : Low
Dependent : Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive : Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test --
-- Personality Disorder Information --
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion ||||||| 70%
Stability ||||||| 66%
Empathy |||||||| 83%
Interdependence ||||| 50%
Intellectual ||||||||| 90%
Mystical |||||| 56% Artistic |||||| 56%
Religious | 10%
Hedonism |||||||| 76%
Materialism |||||| 63%
Narcissism |||||| 63%
Adventurousness |||||||| 83%
Conflict seeking ||| 30%
Need to Dominate |||| 43%

Romantic ||||||||| 90%
Anti-authority ||||||||| 90%
Dependency ||||| 50%
Change Aversion |||| 36%
Cautiousness |||| 36%
Individuality ||||| 50%
Sexuality ||||||||| 90%
Physical Fitness ||||||| 70% Food indulgent |||| 36%
Histrionic |||| 43%
Paranoia ||| 30%
Vanity |||||||| 83%
Hypersensitivity |||||| 56%
Female cliche ||||||| 70% Advanced Global Personality Test
I live to love, but there are some things i HATE:

1) being tied down to a norm.
2) societal expectations that 'you must do this at this stage in life'
3) liars, cheats, moochers and those with unrightfully entitled attitudes.
4) the stigma of defining success by $$ or fame alone.
5) how the stars fade in the city sky.
6) the evils of organized religion.
7) the summer tourists IT'S MY BEACH GO BACK TO THE VALLEY!
8) half of society - probably more, especially in rush hour traffic.
9) shitty tippers. i'm not in "the business", but seriously, get your percentages right!
10) being without my loved ones who have passed.
11) losing touch with special friends & rare kindred spirits that i thought would be around forever...
Your Political Profile:
Overall: I refuse to affiliate with a party because the system is a joke. I am for the middle class, for our environment and wary of big business greed. i am a conspiaracy theorist. i am pro RU-486, pro gay civil union and against the death penalty.
Outside of these issues, ask me... i have alot of opinions.
Social Issues:
50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
Personal Responsibility:
50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
Fiscal Issues:
75% Conservative, 25% Liberal
Ethics:
25% Conservative, 75% Liberal
Defense and Crime:
75% Conservative, 25% Liberal
How Liberal Or Conservative Are You?Imaginative, erotic, passionate
You are a mix of Love & Kink. You prefer to have one partner and to try everything with them. You have an enormous sexual appetite, and you often create sexy scenarios with your significant other.

My Interests


My Island
deep thoughts
Psychology
Neuroscience
Psychopharmacology
Sexuality
& Cooking


i am interested in everything.
i want to learn. i want to travel.
i want to make people smile. i want to help people, even if i can only do it one person at a time.

i love star-lit night skies in the middle of the wild-erness, kisses, napping in the country, sunsets, mud-soccer, tag in the dark, the feel of rain on my skin, FRENCH FRIES, sushi, climbing trees, hide-&-seek, cats, snuggling, reading, overpriced stilettos, kink, coffee icecream, MUSIC, DANCING, black & white photgraphy, nude photography, ancient cultures & architecture, intoxication, beauty, people watching, being naked, candle-lit baths, laughing until i cry, giving presents, conversations that last till the sun comes up, blood, sugar, sex, magic, beach Beach BEACH!!! i love anything that has to do with the ocean, night-swimming, body surfing, fishing, kayaking camping, rock climbing, hiking, wandering, anything in the mountains, generally most outdoor activities (without the creepy crawlies). i like sparkely objects- is that obvious yet? i'm interested in everything. everything from the mountains to the ocean and everything in it. =)

the Time to be happy is Now; the way to be happy is to make others so.
"the greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to Love, and be Loved in return..." Carrie --
[noun]:

An addictive aphrodisiac

'How will you be defined in the sexual dictionary?'

How to make a Carrie
Ingredients:
3 parts intelligence
3 parts ambition
3 parts joy
Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add Love to taste! Addictive- do not overindulge!

Absolutely Fabulous!


ah yes, my rolemodel Patsy!

I'd like to meet:

hmm lost friends :) Anyone making a difference in people's lives for the better. Anyone with the self-motivation for success; success to be defined not only by material assets. anyone in music or music production!!! anyone inspiring! ..............and since i wont find much of that on myspace, i'll spout off typical actors, writers comedians etc. Robin Williams. samuel clemens, bill cosby. claire daines, Patch Adams. Milla Jovavitch, Johnny Depp, Daniel Carter. Lavar Burton, patrick stewart, steve martin. richard pryor. the Google founders. Richard Engel. former president clinton. and numerous other famous people.

Oh and basically, I am a myspace snob - if I dont know you IRL - please please please dont bug me. I know plenty of people and I dont believe in 'meeting people online'... and really, its flattering that you think i'm beautiful, hot, gorgeous, whatever But no, i do not want to have a threesome with you and your significant other. and no, i am not interested in meeting new and exciting local men. so please stop asking. i am here to stay in touch with friends thanks =)
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Music:

Music is very important to me and i could spend hours on this list because i cant be confined to narrowing this down by genre-
if i like the way it sounds i like it and that's that.
i love, love, LOVE to sing (when i'm not under pressure to do so... i have a good voice but i'm still self conscious about it). let's jam!
i dig the following and many more:
the Cure, the Cocteau Twins, DEFTONES, System, NIN, A Perfect Circle, LED ZEPPELIN, Metalica, tool, Nirvana, Foo Fighters, Jurassic 5, Depeche Mode, the Smiths, Portishead, Massive Attack, lamb, Coldplay, Smashing Pumpkins, Finch, muse, Sundays, Garbage, Staring at Strange... I LOVE BLUES & OLD JAZZ! Louis Armstrong, Ray Charles, Sinatra, Dean Martin, BILLIE HOLIDAY, Ella, Judy Garland! the Beatles, the Beach Boys, The Mamas and the Papas, the Carpenters, Janis, Dylan, Joan Baez, Stevie Wonder, Marvin Gaye, Seal, Fiona Apple, Tori Amos, Madonna, Bonnie Raitt, Lauren Hill, Norah Jones, tracey chapman, enya.... Essential Mix, Zephyr Nova, Cafe Del Mar, Concord Dawn, Diesel Boy, Dirty Elegance, djh ambient alliance, AndyC, enduser, basically some varying electronica (but i'm picky) (((D&B!!! ~just roll))), Ambient, trip-hop, experimental. The Doors, Hendrix, Wolfmother, or any 70's revival, Bowie, Lagwagon, the Unseen, Pearl Jam, Alan Jackson, Johnny Cash, i think slide guitar is hot. Mindless Self Indulgence, Pantera, Rage, Aerosmith, White Stripes, Garbage, the Clash, Project 86, Sublime, Chilie Peppers, Bob Marley, RJD2, Ataris, Radiohead, the Postal Service,311, the Offspring, Fenix TX, Tears for Fears, the Distilers, the Shins, etc...
ANYTHING THAT I CAN DANCE TO! "let go, jump in, well what're you waiting for?"

Movies:

HORROR favourites: Halloween, Night of the Living Dead (original), Stigmata, The Shining, Carrie, Interview with the Vampire, Sixth Sense, the Others, Psycho, American Psycho I & II, poltergeist, exorcism of emily rose, cabin fever, From Hell, Jaws, The Skeleton Key, resident evil, disturbing behavior, IT, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, shaun of the dead, Ravenous, Death Becomes Her, Mothman Prophecies, dawn of the dead, day of the dead, land of the dead, Hellraiser, 28 days later, Population 436, The Gift...
DARK COMEDIES: Igby Goes Down, The Royal Tennabaums (sp?), Clerks, Heathers, princess bride, Monty Python, Dead Man on Campus, Little Miss Sunshine, etc...
LOVE STORIES: The Notebook, Gone With The Wind, Romeo & Juliet, Braveheart, The Piano, What Dreams May Come, Swept, Away, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind...
MAINSTREAM FILMS: Thelma & Louise, Evita,Pulp Fiction, the River Wild, Pirates of the Caribbean, Outbreak, matrix1, Devil's Advocate, Jurassic Park, American Beauty, okay i'm a LOTR nerd (the book was better), Star Wars, the net, Secret of Roan Inish, the Sound of Music, Now and Then, Go, Hackers, American History X, Cruel Intentions, Hook, breakfast at tiffany's, My Girl, Fried Green Tomatoes "the secret's in the sauce" haha! Batman Returns, I am Sam, Forrest Gump, American Pie, cheesy porn? hmm i like anything Hugh Grant b/c he is the sexist beast alive and i've been in love with him since i was about ten. i like most burton films and anything depp, daines, or Robin Williams.
ANIMATION: Sleeping Beauty, Secret of Nimh, The Rescuers, little mermaid, anastasia, robin hood, Alice in Wonderland, finding nemo, chipmunks big adventure, the land before time, peter pan, mulan, the sword in the stone, bed knobs & broomsticks

Television:

I refuse to get cable because TV kills creativity and imagination.

Half of TV is propaganda... however some TV on DVD i can rationalize for b/c of the lack of commercials. Arrested Development (genius), Sex & the City, Ab-Fab. i used to enjoy my round about perspective intake dose of CSPAN & CNN. i heart PBS & some of the History Channel. i love standup....Reno 911! ANYTHING ON SEALIFE. i watch CSI or Law & Order once in awhile. 3am X-files re-runs when i have insomnia. i would watch cooking shows since i loooove cooking... and i would totally watch Star Trek Next Generation - but its not on anymore :P

Books:

ANYTHING I CAN GET MY HANDS ON! Anything well written is equivelent to a fine piece of music. I want to be enchanted by print flowing off book pages.

*i especially love adventure books, historical fiction and classic dry british lit* Watership Down is my ultimate fave along with Rebecca (by DuMaurier). Two Against The Ice, Hatchet. Dracula. The Witching Hour. 20000 leagues under the sea. LOTR. Dune (not finished with the whole series yet). the Frank McCourt Memoirs. Gone with the Wind. Secret of Nimh. Elements of Style. The Virgin Suicides. White Oleander. In Her Shoes/Good in Bed. James & The Giant Peach, Interview with the Vampire, Sphere, Gwenna, Carrie, The Shinning, The Green Mile, Jurassic Park, Lost World...really anything Michael Crichton or Anne Rice. I'll even still read a Nancy Drew or Hardy Boy mystery on a drowsy summer afternoon. currently reading the damn harry potter books since Angie bought them for me for xmas

Heroes:

my father. - he is such an inspiration in defying his blindness to pursue his educational aspirations.
my stepfather Scott - he refused to be defined by his Bipolar, and refused to be confined by his limitations. he was more alive than anyone i've ever met. traveler, outdoorsman, volunteer, artist, friend and family. i miss you and will never forget you.
and Jesse - he was my shining star and kindred spirit until he hurt me immeasurably and betrayed me in every way possible. despite the dysfunctional dynamics- he brought out the best in me and made me feel like i could do anything i ever wanted to accomplish.
Toni Blake - She is the closest example I've seen of true altruism. She is the first person I have ever truly considered a "role-model"
Personal Evolution though my Favourite Quotes:
"an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind" - gahndi
"One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes"
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away" - unkown
"The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed."
"To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides"
"Love is born with the pleasure of looking at each other, it is fed with the necessity of seeing eachother, it is concluded with the impossibility of separation."
"either love me or leave me alone..." - biggie smalls
"I love you. Because we're alike. Bad lots the both of us. Selfish and shrewd, but able to look things in the eye and call them by their right name. Life is Pain, anyone who says differently is selling something" - Rhett Butler
¨°¤.¸¸.»Care's«.¸¸.¤°¨Details
Status: Heart Breaker
Here for: Friends & Music
Orientation: Bi-sexual
Hometown: SLO/SB, CA
Body Type: 5'5" - slender & curvy
Ethnicity:Irish, English, Scottish, German, French, Danish, African, Hawaiian and Cherokee =)
Religion: Implicit Atheist
i take my weekly Communion at the church i like to call "my local bar" ;)
Sign: *73% Virgo* 27% Leo
Smoke / Drink: N/A / Yes Please
Children: there's more to life than reproduction, but maybe if i have time someday...???
MSN IM: [email protected]
Education: In College
Occupation:Fulltime Medical Auth Admin / Fulltime Student
Income: $100,000,000,000x10^23
Your Birthdate: September 5
You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others. You are quick witted and fast thinking, which often leaves you susceptible to restlessness. Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy.
Your strength: You are progressive and original
Your weakness: Your susceptibility to your sexual appetite
Your power color: Tangerine
Your power month: May What Does Your Birth Date Mean?
¨°¤.¸¸.»Care's«.¸¸.¤°¨ Schools
San Diego UCSD
La Jolla, CALIFORNIA
Graduated: N/A
Major: Neuroscience- Psychopharmachology
Minor: Abnormal Psychology
2007 to Present
San Diego Mesa College
San Diego, CALIFORNIA
Graduated: 2007
Major: Abnormal Psychology
Minor: GEN-ED then UC transfer (asap)
2005 to Present
" San Luis Obispo High School
San Luis Obispo, CA
Graduated: 2002 "
Student status: Alumni
Degree: High School Diploma
Clubs: Drama Clubs, GSA
1998 to 2002

My Blog

28-Sep ¤~Quote of the Day~¤ ...(edited weekly)

28-9-07 there is a story about three gods  they were bored and so they invented human beingsbut they were still bored, and so they invented lovethen they weren't bored any longerso, they decided ...
Posted by ¨°º¤.¸¸.»VixenCare«.¸¸.¤º°¨ on Thu, 24 Aug 2006 05:27:00 PST

My multiple encounters w/ the cops recently =)

UPDATE 7/6/07: apparently i've managed to stay out of trouble for six whole months!.  i've learned to tone down my disdain for authority and keep my mouth shut (well okay i'll still patronize a c...
Posted by ¨°º¤.¸¸.»VixenCare«.¸¸.¤º°¨ on Fri, 09 Jun 2006 11:40:00 PST

God sometimes you just don't come through....

"The rain falls hard on a humdrum townThis town has dragged you downOh, the rain falls hard on a humdrum townThis town has dragged you downOh, no, and everybody's got to live their lifeAnd God knows I...
Posted by ¨°º¤.¸¸.»VixenCare«.¸¸.¤º°¨ on Thu, 08 Jun 2006 05:23:00 PST

Nigger this, Nigger that.: STFU.

i'm not even half black and the word "nigger" is still offensive to me; irregardless of the modern concept promoting the "taking back"of the insulting verbiage alluding to negro heritage. It's like th...
Posted by ¨°º¤.¸¸.»VixenCare«.¸¸.¤º°¨ on Fri, 06 Apr 2007 08:13:00 PST

Dream Journal

So basically i have insane dreams.  They are either extremely vivid with colour, happiness and intrigue - i'm always on some sort of adventure.  Or they are extremely twisted nightmares that...
Posted by ¨°º¤.¸¸.»VixenCare«.¸¸.¤º°¨ on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 11:45:00 PST

Cheesy Sleezy

So I need a new car right?  Last night i go to Pacific Honda Used Car Dealership. There was a seemingly great car for a great deal, but I wanted to come back and have Jess test-drive at the end o...
Posted by ¨°º¤.¸¸.»VixenCare«.¸¸.¤º°¨ on Wed, 18 Oct 2006 01:06:00 PST

Myspace is going to implode! / mini-bitch

[UPDATE 8/9:]  Myspace has hit more than 100,000,000 users. that is insane.  i think it might be nceccessaru for me to up the implosion date to somewhere in the next six months...what do you...
Posted by ¨°º¤.¸¸.»VixenCare«.¸¸.¤º°¨ on Tue, 25 Jul 2006 03:31:00 PST

concerts rock!

11/11/06  Deftones @ Somabest concert i've ever been to.  that could be b/c they are my favourite active band.  but it was an amazing concert all the same.i went with Jesse, Jen and Jas...
Posted by ¨°º¤.¸¸.»VixenCare«.¸¸.¤º°¨ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Classic Carrie in lush-mode ;)

hmmm. summer is fun and i'm stoked i only have class two nights a week after work.  8/7/061. beach/sunset/sparks by myself lead to bar adventures with Tim and HP 2. went over a pothole on my bike...
Posted by ¨°º¤.¸¸.»VixenCare«.¸¸.¤º°¨ on Tue, 25 Jul 2006 04:16:00 PST

on life & sex etc...

"Current Nosy Survey" 8/13/20061. Who's bed did you sleep in last night? Mine 2. Who were you with? Fiona 3. What was the first thing you did this morning? reset my alarm 4. What song is playing no...
Posted by ¨°º¤.¸¸.»VixenCare«.¸¸.¤º°¨ on Fri, 05 May 2006 04:38:00 PST