The purpose of this visit to the therapist was to talk and understand but she found herself instead steadily becoming more and more irritated with what the person was saying. After all, he was the accuser and she the accused.As she neared closer to the door about to knock she suddenly felt tense and unsteady as to which she was unsure whether to proceed or walk away, for after all, this was forbidden territory, a land untouched.She could feel her close connections drifting to the past. Unable to control her life her strongheld grasp began to slip and the ground losing its grip. Her world flashed and spirled around her in a 3-d blur of turbulence. Past hurts, love triangles and ladels full of liquified self esteem. She tried to convince herself that it wasn't her fault, she had done all she could but that thought passed like wind through the trees. All she could see were the hands of long lost friends slipping vastly into the depths of a memory. Guiltfully she burdened herself with the load of her family driving them apart till she no longer saw the light of day.So that's one of my interests, writing. I also like photography, painting, music, movies, psychology and psychiatry, people watching and some other hoohaw.
Myself when I was a kid. My parents before they had me.
Here's what's on my playlist. Icon of Coil. Aerosmith. Alanis Morrisette. Aphex Twin. Apoptygma Berzerk. Black Eyed Peas. Bright Eyes. Chicks on Speed. Computorgirl. Delerium. Dieselboy. E-Craft. Eminem. Felix da Housecat. Fischerspooner. Gary Jules. Gary Numan. Goldenboy. Kittie. Lords of Acid. M/A/R/R/S/. Sarah Mclachlin. Miss Kittin. The Hacker. NamNamBulu. Outkast. Pink Floyd. Royksopp. TLC. Tear Garden. Wolfsheim. Zeromancer.
Okay, in no particular order other than what I thought of first. A Beautiful Mind, Rose Red, Half Baked, Super Troopers, The Lord of the Rings, Taking Lives, Gia, Girl, Interrupted, Donnie Darko, Tombstone, Passions. There really are too many to name.
Family Guy, Simpons, South park, The dave chapelle show and other than that I don't watch TV, unless its the History channel or somethin.
The Ring by danielle steel, Princess (it's about the life of women in saudi arabia, very sad.) Tenderness By Robert Cormier, The Snow Garden by Christopher Rice and I'm in the process of reading Prime Evil which is a bunch of famous horror authors' stories.
I don't have any heroes, I even failed myself.