melissajayy,

I'd like to meet:

Music:

St. Catharines Psychiatric Helpline, this is Nancy,

I'm sure this is all gonna sound really ridiculous and uh... I don't exactly expect anyone to believe all this. Uh... for the last little while I've been kinda keeping correspondance with my sanity, and uhh.. I really get the feeling that I’m starting to lose interest in the letter writing process. The pieces of the letters, they just get progressively shorter and shorter until it’s not even a reply. I uhh... the whole thing makes me really nervous. I just wish I could show you what a huge problem this is.

As life hangs beside me I gather all that I can You were never one for confrontation But now it lies all in your hands Your hands...

I kind of have this... Really terrible habit of asking myself all these stupid questions, right? Like what if uhh… what if there's a spot on my body that I can touch to keep my heart from beating? or like what if, what if theres this uhh... stray bullet out there that’s gonna come through my window and take me out? like what if uhh... what if theres this huge unstoppable comet that’s just gonna like, destroy the earth and all of us? Like what... what if that’s happening right now? How can I avoid all these questions if I don't have that? Like, who is gonna be here? Why... who is gonna be there... in the hospital? Who is gonna tell me that all this is bullshit... its a dream? Just a dream.This is not a joke. And uhh... i'll never sleep.

Who will be there to tell Me how stupid I am?

Who will keep me from lashing out? (lashing out) Anxiety chokes me like razor wire (razor wire) Who will keep me from lashing out? (lashing out) Anxiety chokes me like razor wire (razor wire)Now it's all in your hands, in your hands (Anxiety chokes me like razor wire)Anxiety chokes me like razor wire, razor wire...

Heroes:

My Girls [:
MUSHROOM'ED.
Lauren.
Megan.
Bexual.
SARAHTOPIA.
Jayyd.
Jess.
Amber Elizabeth.
Lora Dora.
Faye.
Pebbles.
Beth.
Bethan.
Caroline Jones.
Teasing Tanya.
Debraaa!
Tashhh.
Anna.
Rachael.
Kelly.
SarahSTRANGE.
Jenni.
Lollie.
Bekkii.
Jasmine.
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Me Lads [:
Lewwww.
MisterBenRiley!
Matt.
Adam (suitcase legends!)
Cameron.
Nick.
TJ.
Tomato Brown Sauce.
Milky Tom.
Emo Tom.
Austin.
"Pac Man" Tom.
Ryan Nicholson.
Jake.
Connor.
If I've missed you from either list, tell me [:
What do you think about me?
Rachel Courcha : melissa. well where to start with you. every single bit about you is good. your proper amazing, i never want to lose you because if i did i'd be completely fucked. you've helped me through everything that put me down and i know that i can always come to you if there is something wrong and know i wouldnt be judged. i trust you with my whole life. it sounds cheesy but your my rock :) and if it had a landslide it wouldnt be the same amazing you. you put yourself down too much and you really shouldnt. you are stunning i am proper jealous of your eyes. i dont know what else to write but yeah i love you to fucking bits. never change. love rachel xxxxxxxxx
Lauren Hardman : Mel, she's one amazing girl. We have had some fucking funny times together but we've helped each other through quite a lot of shit too. In a year we've grown up so much, we're still childish lol but yeah. I always know I can trust Mel and she's one of those girls that you can just change a bad mood to a good mood. Mel's just awesome!
Ben Riley: mel is one of those people who when you see you go "fuck me its mel" =D, shes ace and if you disagree then well your a twat! i well love mel shes my oral girl, mel is as ace cake actually no ace as vodka (Y) love the one and only ben
Bex Carlin: melly is uber awesome and i miss school times when we used to sing and make up funny dances and just be plain rude and random. She makes me laugh by the random shit she comes out with and i love melly shes ace. I MISS MELLYMOOO! :D
Lora dora: mell mell mell, where the fuk do i start wiv u, well when rachel told me bwt u i was lik. hmm okay. and when i first met u i fort u that u didndt like me, cus u were dead quite, and i was like wtf. but when i strted 2 get to know u better, i really like you. ur really funny, and pritty and fuking crazy, and a very sexy dancer, lmao, im glad that i met u agen cus now ur reli sound wiv me and im lik ... and im like yerr boii. so fanxxx
Debraa!: Your a really kind person and your always smileing => you make me laught x>. Your really pretty and your an awesome mate =] xx
Bekkii: your a really good friend. your beautiful and nice and unique in a good way ;) i love you x
Tomato Brown Sauce!: Mel... You may be a gay, and a slagbag, but i still seem to like you (as a buisiness partner), but nothing else. We have some fun times, (truths) haha. safe as fuk fam. You have a good taste in music eg. billy connolly, but your far from a comedian. you have a sexy bellybutton, and a tempting earlobe, but you'll always be my mellchops. forever and always, Tom (The oddball) Brown. x
Annie: she is so nice and has helped me through loads of break ups, family problems and everything...ilysm Melly Moo xxx
Thankyou everyone ^____^.
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