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I have the greatest boyfriend; I Love You Justin

..It's in the way he looks at me; like i'm the only one around. It's in the way he says I Love You without making a sound. It's in the feelings i get when he touches me that makes me want to fly. It's in the memories we've made & the ones still to come our way. It's in my prayers that we will stay together for as long as be both shall live. It's in the way we love each other that I know it will happen.
We're together now and will be Forever & I've never been happier.

*Wut can I say bout this girl; hmm.
Well...This is my bitch...Fuck wit her..
& well, I'll Kick Ur Fuckin' Ass!
I Love My Linerz..

<[b>Chillin wit my baby Justin
I Love all types of music, Guitars, Pianos, Drums, sex[justin all types of liquor

[just not vodka or gin],
I put the partying on hold.
& I've completely sobered up for our child's health.

movies, skatboarding, Cars, beaches, bowls; bongs; joints; Grape Dutchies, Rankin on My brother, Night, thunderstorms, photography, bon fires; & other random azz shyt.



dedicated to my mother
Tina M. Benton
b: june 19, 1967
d: september 3, 2005
(2.15 am)

"mirror image"
I woke up this morning
and watched the tears fall from my eyes.
As a reflection of you
made me realize
I don't want to be like you
Everything that i have ever done
Every mistake I ever made
Proves how much I became like you
It's driving me insane
chorus
Suffocated
Aggrivated
I'm just a mirror image of you
Late at night
I sit and cry
I dont want to be like you
and take my life away
I tried so hard to be the best that I could
The things you said kept running through my head
I wasnt wasnt pretty enough
wasnt skinny enough for you
chorus
suffocated
aggrivated
im just a mirror image of you
late at night
i sit and cry
i dont want to be like you
and take my life away
I cant stand to see you here
Sometimes I think that I can't go on
But when I think of all the things you've done
I have to keep moving on
chorus
suffocated
aggrivated
im just a mirror image of you
late at night
i sit and cry
i dont want to be like you
and take my life away

"Drug"
Broken
Torn into pieces like a page from a story
This fire is rising
I'm burning
I'm dying
Until there's nothing left
I'm fragile
to your touch
This pain mistaken for love
chorus
causing me pain
is your personal high
I'm like a drug
You just keep wanting more
Begging for mercy
I scream out your name
Then I sit back
and watch you
OD on my pain
My temperature rising
inside I feel cold
I'm numb to your touch
It's all your fault
Broken and Shaken
I'm so afraid
So lost and confused
I can't escape from the pain
of you
chorus
causing me pain
is your personal high
I'm like a drug
You just keep wanting more
Begging for mercy
I scream out your name
Then I sit back
and watch you
OD on my pain
How could I
Choose to live like this
Chained to your bed
I just give in
Please let me go
Set me free
I won't forget
The things you did to me.
chorus
causing me pain
is your personal high
I'm like a drug
You just keep wanting more
Begging for mercy
I scream out your name
Then I sit back
and watch you
OD on my pain
I'm your drug
Your personal high

"Plague"
You left me lifeless and dead
You watched my heart decay
Actions speak louder than words
I don't care what you have to say
shut your mouth and listen close
I gave you me and now I'm broke
You made me believe all your lies
But I see your mask and you can't hide
chorus
All your guilty pleasures
intoxicating me
Open up your eyes
look at what you've done
You're a plague to me
I turned around three times
Everything is gone
Just another dead end
To keep fuckin with my head
chorus
all your guilty pleasures
intoxicating me
You're the anti-christ
You're my biggest mistake
You're part of the past
Still haunting me
The more I think of you
The more I grow weak
You're making all that is right
Feel so wrong
You're my biggest mistake
Just another mark on my heart
chorus
all your guilty pleasures
intoxicating me
Open your eyes
Look at what you've done
You're a plague to me

"My Rebirth"
When will this nightmare end
The life that I once knew is dead
Your soul is stalking me
My nightmare becomes reality
I know I've made my mistakes
But I dont deserve this life
When will you help me
to be reborn again
chorus
drowning my sorrows
in your name
All that I want
To be reborn again
You can't save me
From hurting everyone
All I'm asking of you
To be reborn again
My life would be meaningless
With pain and misery
I'd feel so alone
If you werent with me
Helpless and out of control
I could lose myself
Calling you
All I ask of you
Is for my rebirth
chorus
drowning my sorrows
in your name
All that I want
To be reborn again
You can't save me
From hurting everyone
All I'm asking of you
To be reborn again
Before I lose my head

"mirror image pt.2"
I thought it was time for a change
I couldn't keep living this way
Did everything in my power keep myself from going insane
Did my best to take back my rightful place
Didn't want to become everything i hate
lifeless and dead to the world
chorus
My life and sanity
Are all i'll ever need
I've come to realize
That I'm not who you were
I'm not a mirror image of my mother
I'll hold you in my memory
Nothing else you're dead to me
Don't ever want to feel the things I felt
when you were here with me
Now that the past is gone
And you've gone with it too
I feel a little releaved
and I'm happy now
chorus
I know that you can hear me
I'm not afraid anymore
You had to hear the truth sometime
Too bad it had to be this way
Should've told you to your face
You drove me fucking crazy
But I kept it all inside
and
cried
chorus repeated

"Broken Child"
She sits and cries
Screaming for salvation,
her eyes so cold and empty,
her head filled with lies,
a dismantled heart,
tearing her innocence apart
chorus:
take into me,
the truth shall be revealed,
such a broken child,
takes all of her energy,
just to breathe.
her workds so soft,
afraid to speak and be heard,
criticism making her feel worthless,
and dead to the world
take into me,
the truth shall be revealed,
such a broken child,
takes all of her energy,
just to breathe.
ridiculed and rejected,
angry and so sad,
hateful and undemanding to the world she left behind
let me relive this life
take into me,
the truth shall be revealed,
such a broken child,
takes all of her energy,
just to breathe.

"The End"
Blood spills from my veins once again,
sinking into darkness i feel no pain,
sacrificing my worthlessness,
just to be free from the lies and deciept...
chorus:
Dont let me fall,
I'll fall forever,
Dont let me sleep,
I might never wake up again,
this is the end...
Swept away by fear,
my spirit trying to break free,
the shadows closing in taking over every part of me,
making me weaker the longer I stay,
Thoughts of death making it all fade away
Dont let me fall,
I'll fall forever,
Dont let me sleep,
I might never wake up again,
this is the end...
Binding my sould,
I can do no harm,
Touched by the light,
Tortured for far too long
This is the end
dont let me fall,
I'll fall forever,
dont let me sleep,
I might never wake up again
this is the end...

"Chaotic"
All this time spent was wasted on false hopes and pain,
I never thought I would ever have to feel this way
agian,
Wanting to die I beg for more,
Show me no mercy,
Put me out of my misery
chorus:
This chaotic life is breaking me down,
And I cant take it anymore,
Wanting to escape from the pain,
I run away to another place
Dont bother looking for me,
If you do you'll find me slipping away in my dreams
You hear me screaming...
You see me begging you for help...
drowning my sorrows and my pain in your liquid heroine,
You sat by me and watched me start to fade
This chaotic life has broken me down,
And I wont take this anymore,
I run to another place,
To escape from it all
Don't try to hide,
There's no escape from the misery,
Don't close your eyes,
You have to face the pain there is no escape
This chaotic life is breaking me down,
And I cant take it anymore,
Wanting to escape from the pain,
I run away to another place
Don't bother looking for me,
If you do you'll find me slipping away in my dreams

"Haunted By Memory"
6 feet under,
beaten black and blue,
all I hold is the memory of you,
Impossible to feel like I am safe,
when i feel like I might break,
Haunted by pain followed by you,
a constant reminder of the same mistake made again...
chorus:
Taken by me this photograph of a frightful fantasy,
Driven through my mind,
Im haunted by memory
This fiberglass world I'be taken so long to create,
Has been twisted and shattered by the many vultures of fate,
Throug all of the pain,
There is nothing left for me,
but to be haunted by memory...
Taken by me this photograph of a frightful fantasy,
Driven through my mind,
I'm haunted by memory
Take me away from this place,
I've tried so hard but can't escape,
Trapped inside I want to break free,
So I will never have to be Haunted By Memory...
Taken by me this photograph of a frightful fantasy,
Driven through my mind,
I'm haunted by memory

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