RANDOM THOUGHT:
JANUARY 2009: It's a new year and it will be a good year. Change is here, accept it, embrace it, and let it run its course. Don't try to fight it or deny it, you will only be prolonging the inevitable. Always look at the positive side and don't dwell on the negative. Always forgive but never forget and take away from it the lesson and learn from it. There are no accidents in life only blessings and never deny yourself the opportunity for happiness, no matter how short lived it may be. Your heart may have been broken and your soul shattered but nourish the seed that was left behind that will allow that new love to grow. Fear of the unknown is inevitable, but I would rather walk away knowing the outcome than spend the rest of my life wondering, "what if".
DECEMBER 2008: When you wake up in the morning and you know you have to change something in your life, why do we spend what feels like an eternity trying to rationalize why we can't follow threw with what we know in hearts must be done in hopes to salvage what small bit of sanity we have left? Why is change such a difficult milestone for our nature as human beings to accept? Until you accept change, commit, and follow threw with what needs to be done we will never really be free and we will never allow ourselves to kindle the small ember of hope that remains. The ones that are able to truly accept change, embrace it, and commit to it are the ones that fuel their spirits with the burning glow of love once lost. All I wanted for Christmas will never happen until I accept and commit to the changes that torment me and threaten my sanity everyday. For one to be truly happy you must be able to completely let go.
NOVEMBER 2008: You ask the question, "Why do girls go out with guys that treat them bad when they could have a guy that would treat them like a queen?" I can't speak for everyone but I can speak for myself. It's easier to be with someone that you know how they will treat you. Because they do it from day one. There is no guessing and you can adjust your shield accordingly to keep yourself from getting hurt . The ones that do all the right things and say all the right things and make you feel like your the most important thing in the world... These are the guys that make you fall head over heals in love with them. These are the ones that manage to tear down your barriers and leave you vulnerable to the world's cruelty. So when they hurt you (and yes they will) you have already been stripped of any defense mechanism you might have had and the infliction is received ten fold because you have nothing to shield you from it. We are all creatures of habit. We fear the unknown and prefer the expected.
MUSIC: I like most types of music : Chrstian, hip-hop, rap, r&b, old school, oldies, classic rock, arena rock, hard rock, alternative, heavy metal, latin, norteno, tejano, corridos, and country. What I listen to is a direct result of how I feel and what environment I am in at the time. My favorite artist is Jewel... One of my favorite songs is "Good Bye Alice in Wonderland"
MOVIES: I am a movie-a-holic. I love movies in general. Like my preference in music so is my preference in movies. It's all about how you feel and where you are. My favorite actress is Meryl Streep and my favorite actor is Brad Pitt. Not just because of how he looks but after watching his performance in 12 Monkeys I was sold. We will always have our legends like Samuel L Jackson, Mr. Training Day himself - Denzel Washington, Morgan Freeman, Al Pacino, and so many others. My favorite movies are Gladiator, 300, The Matrix , Transformers, The Dark Knight, Steel Magnolias, Beaches, Stepmom, PULP FICTION.... KILL BILL'S... . & anything Terentino makes.
TV: I try not to watch too much TV but I do record .. . Heroes... damn Peter is fine... House... he's such an asshole, Entourage, Dexter, CSI Las Vegas .. . with Gresham, Smallvile, Southpark, The Simpsons, Weeds, Two & A Half Men (how many of you guys are Nesters?) & Family Guy & That 70's Show ...
BOOKS: Something twisted and long . I read fast and I get irritated when I run out of material quickly. I love big novels with sequels. My favorite author is Anne Rice and I have read just about everything she has written .
SPORTS: BOXING BOXING BOXING!! Then some UFC.. I like basketball, football, and I will watch baseball on occasion. I enjoy a good football game where they are beating the crap out of each other every chance they get and the flags are flying left and right.
INTERESTS: Mmmm what interests me... I like to scrapbook. I like to travel. I like photography.
DREAMS: I dream that one day I will be with the man that God has chosen for me to spend the rest of my life with. I will have traveled the world and my future is financially secure.
BEST FEATURES: My best features are my personality and my eyes and my smile.
ABOUT ME: I was born in Colorado, raised in Oklahoma, went to college in New Mexico and settled down in Phoenix. I am a technical writer for an aviation overhaul and repair status. I write up the work instructions on how to repair airplane parts according to the customer's specifications. I am blessed to be in a relationship with an amazing person. I spend most of time with my babii boi doing whatever or just chillaxin. We never run out of things to do. We go to the gym, we go to church, we play video games... we go crazy....lol We like to take off for the weekend often and just get the heck out of dodge every once in awhile. I am here to keep in contact with friends and family. =)
SOME DISLIKES: seafood, red meat, fast food, liars, cheaters, drama queens, whiners, lack of self-confidence, instigators, and bitter people who try to make your life hell to make themselves feel better. JUST GET OVER IT ALREADY!!!!!
P.S.: I am left handed Aquarius. The personality characteristics of both traits are dead on what I am really like.
