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Hi, I am Becky, and my son was still born in 2003. I am not a therapist. I am not a physician. I am not a spiritual leader. I am a mother who knows the pain of losing her child, and the dreams he brought to life. This page is here not to counsel, guide, or advise. But in life, as we all sadly learn, things can change in the flip of a light switch, the beat of a heart. And while I didn't do it intentionally, I am very proud of the survivor spirit that has been borne of my loss. I can't relate to your experience, but I can relate to losing a baby. I know the heartache, the devastation, the self blame, the never ending and unanswered question of WHY, I know the tears, and I know the anger. I also know the time it took me to heal, the path I took to do so, the possibility that you too can learn to be happy again, and that you can do so in a way that lets you tuck your angel safely into your heart and carry his or her memory forward with you. Doing that is not anything to feel guilty about. Our angels would be proud of us.I wish you didn't need to find me. I wish you didn't know the hurt. But I am here to help if I can. Its a passion that motivates me 24 hours a day to give you a place where its always okay to remember your child, celebrate your child, and celebrate your motherhood. And a place to meet others who can relate, connect, and befriend. God bless us all.
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I'd love to meet Jesus, and my son. I want to know what kind of fun they've been having without me all these years!

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My Story

My StoryOn January 25, 2003, I got the most shocking (and I mean shocking - is it possible to pee on a stick wrong? ) and wonderful news of my life ... I was pregnant!! My circumstances were unconvent...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Jan 2010 20:14:00 GMT

Angry At God .... Losing a Child .... and suddenly Im helping others??? Yup.

Yep, it's a long blog ... but it will tell you how I went from hating my life after losing my son, raging anger at God and everyone around me, to healing, starting this page, and knowing all of you. I...
Posted by on Tue, 14 Jul 2009 23:43:00 GMT

The Mother's Day Elephant

I read something the other day that struck me&.If a woman loses her husband she is a widow.If a man loses his wife he is a widower.If a child loses its parents he or she is an orphan.There is no name ...
Posted by on Thu, 14 May 2009 07:42:00 GMT

Its 100% True

"When our hearts have been shattered by loss, we have an opportunity to welcome a supernatural power into our lives. It doesn't come any other way. That power is the power to live again on this earth ...
Posted by on Sat, 30 Aug 2008 04:14:00 GMT

Another year comes and goes... Happy Birthday, Little Man

Well, here i sit. Five years ago tonight I was in the hospital, living my worst nightmare. About this time it was all going full tilt. The memory is a haze for the most part (thankfully), but that tug...
Posted by on Mon, 02 Jun 2008 20:11:00 GMT

Keeping a Grief Journal

An article that I strongly support ... this is a phenomenal outlet and help in healing.Journal Writing: A Tool for Grieving, Healing & Growth Courtesy of The Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome Foundati...
Posted by on Tue, 12 Feb 2008 14:13:00 GMT

I refuse to deny it....

People need to get over it...The other day I was at work, talking to my assistant, and someone near us sneezed. Naturally, I said "God bless you". I work at a state junior college, and have been there...
Posted by on Sat, 22 Dec 2007 07:37:00 GMT

An Open Letter To My Son, 4.5 Years Later

My dearest little man ....It's been over 4.5 years since you drifted out of my life, and tonight, I find myself missing you, but doing so with a smile.I think today of when I started this page, just n...
Posted by on Wed, 12 Dec 2007 21:38:00 GMT

Perspectives on Infant Loss

A dear friend of mine from Alaska posted this today on our group page (if you'd like to join, go to my page and click on "ian's rainbow" under my groups, and send me an add request - we'd welcome you ...
Posted by on Fri, 19 Oct 2007 16:36:00 GMT

Tis the Season...

Well, four years into Ian being an angel, it isnt often these times sneak up on me, but I find myself starting out the week with a bit of the blues. This coming weekend, on Sunday, I celebrate my birt...
Posted by on Wed, 19 Sep 2007 16:33:00 GMT