WE ARE ALL CALLING OUT FOR MORE......and I as well. I have waited for it. I’ve waited centuries, across perilous odds, and ever flowing oceans darkened by my deepest fears, lit by red temptation to indulge in the hurt that bleeds from every soul I have come across, but I want to undo the damage that has been done, I want to be as good as the love that brought me to this earth. I want to breath and receive and have an overflow of positive energy vibrate from my veins out my lungs, reverberating in joyous melody and absolute harmony. I want to sooth the scrapes and bruises I’ve cut into my own soul, slather a healing ointment of forgiveness on my transgressors and my opposers. Smile in the faces of my enemy and kiss the cheeks of my non-believers. I want to untie the knots in my back that stagger my steps and anchor me to the ground in mediocrity. I want all the love in the world to be mine. I want happiness to make me cry. I want them to hear my voice and be healed. I want peace. I want to leave this world feeling complete. I want satisfaction. I want to let go of my burdens. I do want to forgive. I want to let go of my vices. I want more, and committing to the more and not the less, must always be in a sense stronger than just believing, but in doing, and in making it so. I’m trying to make it so.....When its late at night...and I can't sleep and thoughts clutter my mind, I rant in such this way and howl out songs. Its seems to be the only way to get it out. and this long winded declaration is sometimes upheld in its truest form, but I do inevitably flounder. Yet, this is the attempt I make and the way I want to live my life. My time in Austin, while short, has been very interesting. The city has claimed me as her own, but I do know that one day, hopefully sooner than I anticipate, the world will call and I'll be out playing music on a long stretch of never-ending road. I've learned alot in this town, and my journey has brought me across the paths of familiar strangers, and dragged me along numerous midnight car rides. This past year, my life seems has been up in the air, but for the moment, I'm just trying to stay absolved in the music. I hope you enjoy it and you'll keep an eye out for more to come....
*Kelli : DNobody Knows you when you're down and out (Bessie Smith Cover)
sunshine layouts.Four in the Morning
