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a wave of overwhelming doubt turns me to stone

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About Me

My name is Zack. I want to meet people, but I don't like people who are: materialist, money-loving, always horny, or ignorant (especially those who wear it proudly, like a badge). Now, I may not like these things in people, but I am pretty open-minded, so if you are too, then talking on here shouldn't be a problem. But make no mistake, I HATE FAKE people- any of the other things I can tolerate, given time and honesty... But if you're all about showing people this person that's not even you, don't expect me to give you anything but disdain. And then there are people those who are arrogant enough to think that, in this universe of infinite possibilities, they KNOW what's impossible- just from living on this little speck of dirt called Earth. I'm the kind of person who hates to be just like everyone else, and really don't like it when people assume things about me. If you really want to get to know me at all, read my many answers to personality surveys or my blogs- I'm very proud of my blogs. I love to: bike, climb, run (in the rain, snow, sleet), sled, swim, etc... I love having the adrenaline high just about any way I can get it- physical exercise, eating, movies, music, music videos, standing up too quick, etc... Even alcohol! (once in a while) And I do LOVE to EAT... I hold part-time jobs to get by and stay in my own social hole- rarely making more than acquaintances with others. I don't really have many friends- I want to, but I'm too shy and too afraid. I do suffer/enjoy from mental illness- I've had severe depression, and I have Asberger's Syndrome... I have many Obsessive-Compulsive tendencies, Social Anxiety Disorder and mood liability... But don't let any of that scare you away, I act much more normal to other people than I feel inside. I say WE ARE ALL CRAZY, it's just that some of us hide it much better than others... The truth is I really don't know what I want to do for a living. But I do know that I really want to meet the right girl, and just be in a relationship.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I'm basically open to meeting anybody- I would like to make more friends and have more people to talk to. I can tell you right now, if you're a spammer or just another horny girl with profile identical to 100 others, don't even bother messaging me. I'm just as accepting as the next guy, but I HATE people who sell off their personality just to get what they want... or pretend to be someone their not, just so that people will like them. I want to meet real people with their actual information, not some carbon copy from 10 other pages. Honestly, I would really like to just meet people who are not about all those different kinds bullshit, y'know? I just really want to- meet different people, y'know meet a person, try to be as honest with them as I can or as appropriate, and have them be honest with me as they can, and see where it goes...I do also really want is to meet girls my age. (But, honestly, NO PRESSURE) Hopefully, one within ~30 miles of especially Lawrenceville/Trenton and possibly open to a long-term relationship. But don't worry, this is not all I'm looking for. The girl I'm typically attracted to is interested into outdoor activities like; biking, running, swimming, etc. She likes to play when there's snow or even rain and can handle herself physically. Disclaimer, I should probably take that last part out, but I don't want to- It's just that I would really want to get to know you before trying to meet in person.
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Zack
Birthday: 4/21/82
Birthplace: Trenton
Current Location: Trenton
Eye Color: brown/green
Hair Color: brown
Height: 6'1''
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: Italian, native-american, bunch of other euro. heritages
The Shoes You Wore Today: sneakers- always & forever
Your Weakness: rash impulsiveness
Your Fears: that nothing will ever change for me
Your Perfect Pizza: meatballs, ham and bacon
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: oh I don't know, actually meet A girl
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: "l really don't know"
Thoughts First Waking Up: must... wake... up!!
Your Best Physical Feature: inability to retain fat
Your Bedtime: noone really knows
Your Most Missed Memory: having friends
Pepsi or Coke: NEITHER!! tehe- don't usually like popular brands- Coincidence??
MacDonalds or Burger King: BOTH- love'em each
Single or Group Dates: Huh? can't remember last time I did
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: YUCK!
Chocolate or Vanilla: both- ice cream, candy, cake, ice cream cake!!
Cappuccino or Coffee: BLEECH!
Do you Smoke: did once- never liked it but I figured try anything once...
Do you Swear: only around people I'm comfortable with
Do you Sing: NEVER!- well I did actually sing once- unrestrained and everything- for a girl
Do you Shower Daily: yes- well 90% of the time
Have you Been in Love: can't really say- my mind is too doubtful, and they've never known
Do you want to go to College: been, left, probably won't go back
Do you want to get Married: yes
Do you belive in yourself: not really- I believe in adrenaline...
Do you get Motion Sickness: never- I love too much motion
Do you think you are Attractive: never- I don't like to think that
Are you a Health Freak: hardly
Do you get along with your Parents: yeah
Do you like Thunderstorms: YES- I go running in them
Do you play an Instrument: no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no, but I am prone to it
In the past month have you Smoked: never
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: surprisingly, yeah
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: oh yeah, sometimes in one night
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no, yuck
In the past month have you been on Stage: NEVER ever, ever
In the past month have you been Dumped: no, can't be dumped if you don't take a chance
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: yes
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: yes
Ever been called a Tease: NEVER I will be
Ever been Beaten up: yeah
Ever Shoplifted: when I was ten
How do you want to Die: In another time, in another place (century, country)
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: really don't know
What country would you most like to Visit: deserted island
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: wish I knew
Favourite Hair Color: red
Short or Long Hair: short
Height: 5'5''-6'1''
Weight: don't know 120-160?
Best Clothing Style: thrown together, I think of fashion as one of the things that matter least in this world
Number of Drugs I have taken: 1
Number of CDs I own: ~300
Number of Piercings: none
Number of Tattoos: none
Number of things in my Past I Regret: many more than I'd like

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You scored as Batman, the Dark Knight, As the Dark Knight of Gotham, Batman is a vigilante who deals out his own brand of justice to the criminals and corrupt of the city. He follows his own code and is often misunderstood. He has few friends or allies, but finds comfort in his cause.

Batman, the Dark Knight


96%

The Amazing Spider-Man


79%

Lara Croft


75%

Indiana Jones


71%

Maximus


63%

The Terminator


63%

William Wallace


58%

Captain Jack Sparrow


58%

James Bond, Agent 007


46%

El Zorro


42%

Neo, the "One"


38%
Which Action Hero Would You Be? v. 2.0
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You are Mr. Freeze Mr. Freeze 81% Venom 78% Apocalypse 73% Magneto 69% The Joker 68% Dark Phoenix 60% Green Goblin 51% Two-Face 47% Juggernaut 47% Dr. Doom 46% Mystique 43% Riddler 42% Catwoman 33% Poison Ivy 30% Lex Luthor 28% Kingpin 27% You are cold and you think everyone else should be also, literally.
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What Classic Movie Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.comYou Are 88% New Jersey!

Wow, you're totally Jersey. There's no doubt about it. Congratulations, and always be proud to be Jersey--it's a great thing to be!

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You Are 92% Strange!

You are totally strange! In fact there isn't much normal about you at all. You march to the beat of your own drummer and are quite a unique individual. You stand out in the crowd and play by your own rules. Other people may find you bizarre and weird, but that's okay, who wants to be normal anyway?! Congratulations on your high score!

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You scored as True Alternative, You are a True Alternative! Labels do not suit you well, particularly as you tend to strike your own path and to grow purely via experience. No armchair quarterbacking for you! Originality and creation are your specialities, and sometimes you can even articulate what the hell just happened. Someday you may find yourself drawing the maps for other people... lots of other people.

True Alternative


80%

Mystic


75%

White Lighter


70%

Magician


70%

Aimless Eclectic


70%

Otherkin


60%

Spiritualist


55%

Discordian


50%
What Subversive Alternative Paradigm Are You?
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What dragon species are you? (Stunning pics)

Fire Dragon Rage, passion, you burn with the essence of a powerful flame. You are powerful and majestic and dont let anyone stand in your way without a fight.

Fantasy-Mythology Quizzes
You scored as Dragon, You love to be free, flying above the clouds without a care in the world. But be careful, some people see you as hostile and evil.

Dragon


92%

Elf


58%

Unicorn


58%

Easter Bunny


50%

Mermaid


50%

Fairy


33%
What Mystical Creature Are You?
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What Animal Are You?

MY RESULT: Chimpanzee


Dude, you got it made. Everyone loves a chimp. They're smart, cool and fun to watch, and no one can resist their charm.

While you might not be the hottest-looking babe in the animal kingdom, you make up for it in personality. Seriously, when was the last time you met a boring chimpanzee? Just watch that negative attitude (i.e., don't fling poo), and you'll do fine.

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You scored as Psycho-Pathic/Issued Heart, Your Heart is Pscho-pathic/Issued. Your probably crazier than any other person you know if you already dont go to a crazy house. Sometimes you may take a lil drug or two to take away some of the problems you have. Depression may be a strong one of your problems. Call your doctor and tell him/her you need help, QUICK.

Psycho-Pathic/Issued Heart


88%

Loving Heart


75%

Emo Heart


63%

Brutal Heart


50%
What Kinda Heart do You Have?
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MY RESULT: The Thinker


You're smart, and you know what? You totally know it.

You value brains above almost anything else, which is pretty good. (Better than valuing, say, booties). But you also tend to get cocky about your own intelligence.

Keep up with the intellectual pursuits, but don't be afraid to be wrong every once in a while. Seriously - stupidity can be cute!

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Freudian Inventory Results
Oral (36%) you appear to be stubbornly and irrationally against receiving help even when it might be the more intelligent option.
Anal (43%) you appear to have a good balance of self control and spontaneity, order and chaos, variety and selectivity.
Phallic (23%) you appear to have negative issues regarding sexuality and/or have an uncertain sexual identity.
Latency (76%) you appear to be afraid or averse to present or future real world responsibilities, this will only make your inevitable transition more difficult, so learn to deal with the real world.
Genital (46%) you appear to be somewhere between a progressive/openminded and regressive/closeminded outlook on life.
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Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion |||||||||| 36%
Stability |||||| 23%
Orderliness |||||||||||||||| 63%
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My Blog

To the friend I no longer have

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Posted by on Mon, 14 Jul 2008 22:34:00 GMT

With the Past Returns the Pain...

"But I know the rage that drives you. That impossible anger strangling the grief, until the memory of your loved one is just poison in your veins. And one day you catch yourself wishing the person y...
Posted by on Sat, 21 Jun 2008 20:42:00 GMT

Wallow in my despair...

"Faded... You know where I lie... Can he not go into that good night?" -FuelI'm so tired... tired after a long day... tired of being addicted to lack of sleep& tired of never talking to girls... t...
Posted by on Sat, 21 Jun 2008 12:10:00 GMT

Ah... If only I could JUMP...

It has been my second-most wished for desire since I can remember... The first is to have someone who could love me, the second is to be special- to have mutant powers... And this movie brings it to...
Posted by on Thu, 19 Jun 2008 02:54:00 GMT

I think its just the silliest thing...

What I just watched is somewhat parallel to what I want to say, but the truth is that I've wanted to say it for a long time, and watching this movie had very little impact on what I say... It's the s...
Posted by on Wed, 18 Jun 2008 00:37:00 GMT

Reasons to HATE America that most foreigners miss

You know what? I f***ing HATE America... A LOT- there are so many good reasons to... Sure, in other countries they got it real bad- famine, disease, war (we might have some of those, but only a little...
Posted by on Tue, 17 Jun 2008 19:45:00 GMT

The day I HATED Christianity...

I have resented religions as a whole for a long time... Namely, I have resented the religion of Christianity/Catholicism most, because that's the one I know the most about- need I list all the histor...
Posted by on Sun, 08 Jun 2008 20:49:00 GMT

MAN OR WOMAN?

I am man. Whether I have the maturity to prove it remains to be seen, but I am a male human. And in every basic sense of that fact I appear anatomically normal. I am only attracted to women, I pee ...
Posted by on Sun, 08 Jun 2008 19:04:00 GMT

Do you understand LOVE?

Love is an emotion you feel, but it is also quite simply just a word... "What matters is the connection the word implies" -Matrix Revolutions. What you are willing to give to hold on to that connect...
Posted by on Sun, 08 Jun 2008 14:43:00 GMT

What I dream for

I realize more than ever. I know now what I have been seeking... Ever since college, where my fractured mind finally thawed from it's frozen and stunted state... when I the dawn of realization shon...
Posted by on Fri, 06 Jun 2008 01:12:00 GMT