I'm extremely conscious of what I do. I change a lot. I'm analytical. I'll find something wrong with me or my things and try to fix them constantly. Over the years, a few things have been constant. I'm naturally loyal, I care about stuff, I dream. I'm very hard working and intelligent sometimes. I have nothing against religions, genetics, or opinionated people. I do have problems with ideas like Marxism. I think freedom is healthy.
I love work and hate being lazy, but it took me years of sleeping in and doing nothing to realize how much this is true. There are only two things that make me act exceptional, instead of lazy; and both are people. One is a very close friend whoms I respect, and the other is a boss I respect. Generally I respect people who don't harm others and still succeed. This is good because there's a lot to learn from them. Most commonly, I lose respect for people when I see them being lazy - mentally or physically, or being destructive. I don't consider video games being lazy. I think being physically active is necessary for the mind to be healthy. I don't like to condemn people.
I remember having friends since before preschool; but since I acted like the adults, I didn't have to 'fit in,' but I still wanted to. I was just different, and it wasn't perfect. Eventually, I wouldn't fit in much at all, near 6th grade. It was crazy how some people got so popular all of a sudden, and weren't nervous about things. I avoided all performance and had some well-buried anxiety. Ironically, I learned the most useful stuff from the kids who copied off of me in class than from the teachers, but not until after I graduated. That mostly applies to high school.
I love sports, running, lifting weights, making machines work, computers, video games - especially the ones where you can tool around in cars or ships. I try to avoid illegal things, but nobody can avoid them all.
I was an exceptional student until 7th grade. After that I only did well when I had someone to focus all my energy on. It kept me from getting too distracted by parties and video games. Now I'm learning to help myself in that way, but it really sucks to live life alone. I'm not sure it can be done, now that I've had a taste of 'companionship'.
I've spent time with politics. Not involved in it but as a hobby. I'm still fascinated by it, but it has its place and isn't welcome with most people, so it's almost useless. I love freedom and honesty and controlling political power. I know what system has proven itself more than any other, and am familiar with what threatens it. Often, freedom is blamed for the problems of Marxism and corporatism. The lack of institution scares people, but institutionalizing humanity generally kills it anyway. And that fear causes a blinding bias and panic that takes us back to dictatorships.
