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Who Am I? I am life, a being, a manifestion of the Universe, made of energy, conscious and immortal.

About Me



I have been told that I am .........intelligent, a bit of a loner, recluse, loyal, faithful, sensitive, intense, striking in appearance, sometimes funny, good sense of humor (even if it is a little warped). I am EXCLUSIVE, SELECTIVE and curious. I don't like head games or dishonesty...I believe in one man at a time. I am very much a spiritual person, not connected to any organized religion (They have caused more trouble than almost anything on earth.) I do meditate twice daily and try to practice unconditional love, which is a lot easier said than done. I read everything from labels to Socrates and have a huge library that reflects these interests. I simply have had to quit buying hard copies of books because I have completely run out of space to store them. With the purchase of Amazon.com's Kindle gadget, I can now download books and read them from anywhere a cell phone would work. Plus, you are not wasting paper, postage, etc.

Education: I have a BA in English Lit. and a BA in Philosophy (amost a minor in Psychology.)

I love animals, don't eat anything I can pet. I currently do not have a pet. I just lost my last pet, a beautiful white cat. He was 18 years old when I had to put him down...it was a very sad occasion.

My husband of 45 years died two years ago of lung cancer. He was my soulmate and the adjustment to go on without him has been the hardest thing I have ever done. If you smoke, stop now. You do not want to die of lung cancer. It is not an easy way to go.

I think any relationship with the opposite sex should be based on more important things than age, things like good personality, trust, etc. I have been told that I do not look my age. I could have lied about my age but I think that honesty is more important than vanity.

Another thing is that I am very tall for a woman, 6' tall. I would rather be with someone who is pretty close to 6' or taller, otherwise we would look a little silly, don't you think? I am NOT looking for marriage and never intend to every marry again (you may ask me as to why), love and romance would be excellent.

I would like to meet some good friends and if the right man comes along, who knows what will happen. I truly like and have always enjoyed men's company.

Life is good! I am so very happy to be alive in this age of exploration of the human mind, the universe and life. Currently, I am taking a break from working and regrouping my options for the remainder of this adventure, life. Some options, include; going back to school for my MA and PHD, traveling, exploring the world, getting a horse (I miss not having one.), selling my house and buy land in the country for raising horses and other such stuff......... This is my time for reflection........




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My Interests

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I am intersted in everything really and a bit of a geek. Even as a child I enjoyed taking things apart and seeing what makes it work, no clock or watch was safe. Of course, I love computers, enjoy good literature, gadgets, Star Trek, photography, art, animals, horses, learning new things, a lap full of purring cat on a cold windy night, spiritual study/subjects, unconditional love (It is the only love that counts.), listening to the wind blow or the surf or good music.

I enjoy reading about outer space and all the marvelous things that are out there just waiting for us to explore. God's creation is much, much more/larger that most of us are aware of, I only wish that I could live longer to be able to enjoy learning all its secrets.

Also, I took some computer programing classes when I was in college in the 80s and enjoy designing web pages. I currently have 10 active web sites, self help stuff and some businesses. Lately I have not kept them updated and redesigned to bring them up to date. I plan to remedy this in the near future and get them earning again. The money that they bring in is donated to the Womenforwomen.org, which I am a supporter. I currently support one woman in Africa and another one in Afghanistan. They both write to me from time to time and their letters are most rewarding to me. Ladies, it is a good way to give back and help out some deserving women. Check it out.

A little advice to anyone who could use it, as you go through life, once someone showes you who they are. Believe them!

If you have read down to here, you have probably figured out that I like words. Words are very powerful. Poetry has even been proven to help sick people recover faster in a recent study. I know that it will change a mood and can be uplifting.

I'd like to meet:

I would like to meet men who LIKE women. I think that men who truly enjoy being with and around women are far more important than men who just NEED women for all the obvious things...I like men who are willing to share their ambitions, thoughts and ideas. (Of course, being sexy is not overlooked here.....lol)Hopefully, I shall meet men who range from wanting to be computer buddies all the way to someone who might be open to a real relationship.


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Some of My Favoite Quotes



"Right Where It Belongs"

See the animal in his cage that you built
Are you sure what side you're on?
Better not look him too closely in the eye
Are you sure what side of the glass you are on?
See the safety of the life you have built
Everything where it belongs
Feel the hollowness inside of your heart
And it's all
Right where it belongs

[Chorus:]
What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you think you know
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks?
Would you find yourself
Find yourself afraid to see?

What if all the world's inside of your head
Just creations of your own?
Your devils and your gods
All the living and the dead
And you're really all alone?
You can live in this illusion
You can choose to believe
You keep looking but you can't find the woods
While you're hiding in the trees

[Chorus:]
What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you used to know
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks
Would you find yourself
Find yourself afraid to see?

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Realize deeply that the present moment is all you ever have. Eckhart Tolle

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DOVER BEACH

By Matthew Arnold

The sea is calm tonight,
The tide is full, the moon lies fair
Upon the straits; on the French coast the light
Gleams and is gone; the cliffs of England stand,
Glimmering and vast, out in the tranquil bay.
Come to the window, sweet is the night air!

Only, from the long line of spray
Where the sea meets the moon-blanched land,
Listen! you hear the grating roar
Of pebbles which the waves draw back, and fling,
At their return, up the high strand,
Begin, and cease, and then again begin,
With tremulous cadence slow, and bring
The eternal note of sadness in.
Sophocles long ago
Heard it on the Agean, and it brought
Into his mind the turbid ebb and flow
Of human misery; we
Find also in the sound a thought,
Hearing it by this distant northern sea.
The Sea of Faith
Was once, too, at the full, and round earth's shore
Lay like the folds of a bright girdle furled.
But now I only hear
Its melancholy, long, withdrawing roar,
Retreating, to the breath
Of the night wind, down the vast edges drear
And naked shingles of the world.
Ah, love, let us be true
To one another! for the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,
Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night.
1867



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"Then I will tell you a great secret, Captain. Perhaps the greatest of all time. The molecules of your body are the same molecules that make up this station and the nebula outside, that burn inside the stars themselves. We are starstuff, we are the universe made manifest, trying to figure itself out. As we have both learned, sometimes the universe requires a change of perspective."


Ambassador Delenn, A Distant Star from Babylon 5



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Still I Rise by Maya AngelouYou may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.






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"Don't look away, Captain. All life is transitory, a dream. We all come together in the same place, at the end of time. If I don't see you again here, I will see you, in a little while, in a place where no shadows fall."


Delenn, Confessions and Lamentations from Babylon 5



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acquainted with the night

I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have walked out in rain --and back in rain.
I have outwalked the furthest city light.

I have looked down the saddest city lane.
I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.
I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street,
But not to call me back or say good-bye;
And further still at an unearthly height
One luminary clock against the sky
Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night.


by Robert Frost



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"It was the end of the Earth year 2260, and the war had paused, suddenly and unexpectedly. All around us, it was as if the universe were holding its breath, waiting. All of life can be broken down into moments of transition or moments .. of revelation. This had the feeling of both."
"G'Quon wrote: There is a greater darkness than the one we fight. It is the darkness of the soul that has lost its way. The war we fight is not against powers and principalities, it is against chaos and despair. Greater than the death of flesh is the death of hope. The death of dreams. Against this peril we can never surrender. The future is all around us, waiting in moments of transition, to be born in moments of revelation. No one knows the shape of that future, or where it will take us. We know only that it is always paved in pain."

G'Kar, Season 3 ending in Z'ha'dum" from Babylon 5


Note: This sounds like our present now.

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There lies the port; the vessel puffs her sail;
There gloom the dark broad seas. My mariners,
Souls that have toil'd, and wrought, and thought with me-
That ever with a frolic welcome took
The thunder and the sunshine, and opposed
Free hearts, free foreheads - you and I are old;
Old age hath yet his honour and his toil.
Death closes all; but something ere the end,
Some work of noble note, may yet be done,
Not unbecoming men that strove with Gods.
The lights begin to twinkle from the rocks;
The long day wanes: the slow moon climbs; the deep
Moans round with many voices. Come, my friends,
'Tis not too late to seek a newer world.
Push off, and sitting well in order smite
The sounding furrows; for my purpose holds
To sail beyond the sunset, and the baths
Of all the western stars, until I die.
It may be that the gulfs will wash us down:
It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles,
And see the great Achilles, whom we knew.
Tho' much is taken, much abides; and tho'
We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven; that which we are, we are;
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.


The poem is the final stanza of Ulysses by Alfred Tennyson.



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Desert Places

Snow falling and night falling fast, oh, fast
In a field I looked into going past,
And the ground almost covered smooth in snow,
But a few weeds and stubble showing last.

The woods around it have it--it is theirs.
All animals are smothered in their lairs.
I am too absent-spirited to count;
The loneliness includes me unawares.

And lonely as it is that loneliness
Will be more lonely ere it will be less--
A blanker whiteness of benighted snow
With no expression, nothing to express.

They cannot scare me with their empty spaces
Between stars--on stars where no human race is.
I have it in me so much nearer home
To scare myself with my own desert places.

by: Robert Frost

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"Whoever speaks for the Alliance speaks with one voice for many. Consequently, this contains the first page of every holy book of every race that has joined the new Alliance. Whoever speaks for the Alliance does so with the understanding that it is the inalienable right of every sentient being to live free, to pursue their dreams, to address wrongs within their own society without fear of retribution, to believe as their conscience requires in matters of faith, but also to respect the rights of others to believe differently, or not at all. Do you, John J. Sheridan--"

G'Kar, No Compromises from Babylon 5



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"When the gods want to punish you, they give you what you ask for."


Unknown


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"Buddhism has the characteristics of what would be expected in a cosmic religion for the future: it transcends a personal God, avoids dogmas and theology; it covers both the natural & spiritual, and it is based on a religious sense aspiring from the experience of all things, natural and spiritual, as a meaningful unity"

A widely cited, but spurious quotation attributed to Albert Einstein



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"The universe speaks in many languages, but only one voice. The language is not narn or human or centauri or gaim or minbari. It speaks in the language of hope."
"It speaks in the language of trust. It speaks in the language of strength and the language of compassion. It is the language of the heart and the language of the soul. But always it is the same voice. It is the voice of our ancestors speaking through us and the voice of our inheritors waiting to be born. The small, still voice that says: 'We are one. No matter the blood, no matter the skin, no matter the world, no matter the star. .. We are one. No matter the pain, no matter the darkness, no matter the loss, no matter the fear. .. We are one.' Here, gathered together in common cause, we begin to realize this singular truth and this singular rule that we must be kind to one another. Because each voice enriches us and ennobles us and each voice lost diminishes us. We are the voice of the universe, the soul of creation, the fire that will light our way to a better future. We are one."
"We are one."

Sheridan/G'Kar, the Alliance Preamble to the Declaration of Principles, The Paragon of Animals from Babylon 5



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“Buddhism is more than a religion. It is a science of the mind.”


Dalai Lama



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"In the past we had little to do with other races. Evolution teaches us that we must fight that which is different in order to secure land, food, and mates for ourselves, but we must reach a point when the nobility of intellect asserts itself and says: No. We need not be afraid of those who are different, we can embrace that difference and learn from it."

G'Kar, The Ragged Edge from Babylon 5



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"For as long as space endures, and for as long as living beings remain, until then may I, too, abide to dispel the misery of the world."


Dalai Lama



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"What does the candle represent?"
"Life."
"Whose life?"
"All life, every life. We're all born as molecules in the hearts of a billion stars, molecules that do not understand politics, policies and differences. In a billion years we, foolish molecules forget who we are and where we came from. Desperate acts of ego. We give ourselves names, fight over lines on maps. And pretend our light is better than everyone else's. The flame reminds us of the piece of those stars that live inside us. A spark that tells us: you should know better. The flame also reminds us that life is precious, as each flame is unique. When it goes out, it's gone forever. And there will never be another quite like it. So many candles will go out tonight. I wonder some days if we can see anything at all."

Sheridan and Delenn, And All My Dreams, Torn Asunder from Babylon 5



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"The greatest achievement is selflessness.
The greatest worth is self-mastery.
The greatest quality is seeking to serve others.
The greatest precept is continual awareness.
The greatest medicine is the emptiness of everything.
The greatest action is not conforming with the worlds ways.
The greatest magic is transmuting the passions.
The greatest generosity is non-attachment.
The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind.
The greatest patience is humility.
The greatest effort is not concerned with results.
The greatest meditation is a mind that lets go.
The greatest wisdom is seeing through appearances."

Atisha (982-1054 AD)



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"Good deeds do not count unless no one knows you did them."

Me



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"Unconditional love is the only love that really matters."

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Quotes

Music:



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Movies:

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My Favorite Movies
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A Streetcar Named Desire

All About Eve

Born Free

Broken Arrow

Casablanca

Doctor Zhivago

Gandhi

Gone With the Wind

High Plains Drifter

Holocaust

Lonesome Dove

Natural Born Killers

On the Waterfront

Out of Africa

Play Misty for Me

Red Shoe Diaries

Scarface

Sophie's Choice

The Big Chill

The Clan of the Cavebear

The Color Purple

The Exectioner's Song

The Godfather

The Grapes of Wrath

The Great Santini

The Iceman

The Lion in Winter

The Old Man and the Sea

The Silence of the Lambs

To Kill A Mockingbird

Twelve Angry Men

Walk The Line

Wild Orchid

Zorba the Greek




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Television:


Sixty Minutes Oprah
History Channel Natinal Georgraphic
Dog Whisperer Larry King
PBS Waiting for God
HGTV QVC
HSN American Idol

Books:


Holy Blood, Holy Grail
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The Stone Diaries. ..


The DaVinci Code
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A Confederacy of Dunces. ..


The Deep End of the Ocean
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Song of Solomon ..


Gal
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Drowning Ruth. ..


House of Sand and Fog by Andre Dubus III.
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She's Come Undone ..


Stones from the River by Ursula Hegi
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The Rapture of Canaan ..


The Heart of a Woman by Maya Angelou.
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Songs in Ordinary Time ..


A Lesson Before Dying by Ernest J. Gaines.
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Ellen Foster and A Virtuous Woman ..


The Meanest Thing to Say by Bill Cosby

Paradise ..


Here on Earth by Alice Hoffman.
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Black and Blue ..


Breath, Eyes, Memory by Edwidge Danticat.
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I Know this Much Is True ..


What Looks Like Crazy on an Ordinary Day, by Pearl Cleage.
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Midwives, ..


Where the Heart Is, by Billie Letts.
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Jewel, ..


The Reader, by Bernhard Schlink.
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The Pilot's Wife, ..


White Oleander, by Janet Fitch.
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Tara Road, ..


Mother of Pearl, by Melinda Haynes.
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River, Cross My Heart, by Breena Clarke. ..


Vinegar Hill, by A. Manette Ansay.
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A Map of the World, by Jane Hamilton. ..


Gap Creek, by Robert Morgan.
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Daughter of Fortune, by Isabel Allende. ..


Back Roads, by Tawni O'Dell.
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The Bluest Eye, by Toni Morrison. ..


While I was Gone, by Sue Miller.
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The Poisonwood Bible, by Barbara Kingsolver. ..


Open House, by Elizabeth Berg.
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Drowning Ruth, by Christina Schwarz. ..


We Were the Mulvaneys, by Joyce Carol Oates.

Icy Sparks, by Gwyn Hyman Rubio. ..


Stolen Lives: Twenty Years in a Desert Jail, by Malika Oufkir.
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Cane River, by Lalita Tademy. ..


The Corrections, by Jonathan Franzen.

A Fine Balance, by Rohinton Mistry. ..


Fall on Your Knees, by Ann-Marie MacDonald. ..

Sula, by Toni Morrison. ..


Heroes:

Albert Einstein, Ghandi, Nelson Mandella, Maya Angelou, My Late Husband, My Son and Grandchildren, My Paternal Grandfather, Martin Luther King, Dalai Lama, more to come











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What I Wrote and Read At My Late Husbands Memorial Service

First of all I want to thank everyone for coming to the service. He would have been so happy to see everyone. Our family is still grieving over the loss of his dear sister, Patty, in addition to thi...
Posted by V. on Fri, 12 Sep 2008 09:08:00 PST

The Agony of It All

(I wrote this in the months after the death of my husband in July of 2006) Today is a good day to die. Everyday I sit and look out of these eyes and ponder, is it really worth it.......living in all ...
Posted by V. on Fri, 12 Sep 2008 08:43:00 PST

How I Like To Treat My Man

I like to treat my man like this; - Always kiss goodnight - Never go to sleep mad with him - Greet him at the door with a hug and kiss and the beverage of his choice. - Listen to what is on his mind ...
Posted by V. on Thu, 31 Jul 2008 07:45:00 PST

What I Like About Men

What I Like About Men I Like -  to have him open doors for me. -  to feel his hand on the small of my back in a crowd or entering a door.  It's like saying, this is MY woman...
Posted by V. on Thu, 31 Jul 2008 09:32:00 PST

Leonard Cohen’s Song, I’m Your Man

Below are the lyrics to a song by Leonard Cohen.  I must say that should a man sing these words to me like Cohen does, I would follow him anywhere.............check him and this song out.  I...
Posted by V. on Thu, 24 Jul 2008 11:58:00 PST

Online Cams Are NOT Unseen By Others

  ____________________________________________________ Public Notice: I pass this information to all because I think you should know. I don't know if you are hearing about the divorce of Christy ...
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What I Dont Like About Men

-  when  they are not honest and only out to use you. -  when they say they will call and they don't. -  when they lose all interest in a woman after sex, makes women feel used.&nb...
Posted by V. on Sun, 22 Jun 2008 06:35:00 PST