I AM;
Determined. Forceful. Emotional. Intuitive. Powerful. Passionate. Exciting. Magnetic. Intense. Sexual. Mysterious. Obstinate. Dignified. Reserved. Courteous. Deep. Fierce. Outspoken. Energetic. Strong-willed. Enigmatic. Ruthless enemy. Loyal friend. Expressive. Wary. Suspicious. Disciplined. Tenacious. Spiritual. Intellectual. Bookworm. Sensitive. Authentic. Contrary. Humble. Demanding. Unforgettable. Flawed and undeniably REAL.
i'm the last of a dying breed.. independent, grown & sexy lady with no kids, no ring on this finger. i'm comfortable in my own skin and i never try to be anything i am not. i'd only be playing myself by doing that. my theory is, you can love me as i am, or leave me the hell alone. i tend to overanalyze. i try to love others as Christ loves me... without conditions. most of my thoughts come from left field, i'm very random indeed. i love to lust, but i lust for love. i'm particular when it comes to grammar & spelling. i like to sing very loudly in the car, but i'm a TERRIBLE singer. [i just thought you should know] i like to be complimented on things other than my appearance . afterall, i am certain that i have so much more to give. i ♥ brown skin. [yeah, i said it]
i have no poker face, i'm an open book. i generally distrust men who keep secrets. i generally distrust women, period. i've loved and lost, loved again. diets are against my religion, i love to eat. i'm brutally honest, but sickingly sarcastic so don't always take what i say too serious. my dog tank is my heart in physical form. all men are not dogs... dogs are so much more LOYAL than men! ;] i'm a wife without a husband. i'm a mother without a child. i'm flawed, yes. but i'm so damn real that you probably can't even fathom me.
i'm old fashioned in the way that i hope that there is just one man set aside for me, to love me for all of my days. but love seems so elusive, sometimes i feel as though i'm chasing an illusion. a bit of a pessimist i suppose - but an optimistic dreamer at heart. quite the walking contradiction eh? I believe in fate... i believe in love. just as i believe in God. afterall, the two go hand-in-hand. don't they?
i like to lose myself in romance novels and chic flicks. i suppose i am living my life vicariously through the characters in my favorite books or movies. but i'm not the kind of girl who doesn't know how to be alone. the majority of my adult life has been spent single, to which i give credit for my independent nature. while it would be nice to have someone by my side, it's never necessary.
i'm deeply spiritual. i believe that everything in life has a reason. even the worst or most painful experiences.. i've tried to find the good in everything. i've been to parts of my life that i'd never care to revisit, yet these are the reasons why i am who i am today, and who i am becoming. so for that, i'm grateful.
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