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April

I am here for Friends

About Me

i was raised a good little christian girl in a small town. that has certain ramifications. i never graduated high school. i was too busy playing with the boys at the beach. i graduated college with a chemistry degree. i started my own internet company in 96 and html was new and we created pages in notepad and didn't have frontpage or flash. as soon as things got a little more complex i sold out, worked at microsoft for 8 very intense, rewarding, and stressful years. i like buying houses. i started my own business a few years ago, and now i just teach others how to do what i do best. i'm a trusting soul. i'm loving and loyal. lovers call me bold, assertive, a woman who knows how to stand up for herself, take risks. haters call me bossy, aggressive and controlling. even haters call me generous. i try and always recognize my intentions. i'm not always able to control my behavior, even with this ability to recognize what it is i'm doing. i'm adventurous, i rip on a board , i've pretended to model , i can't wait for the next new thing. i teach aerobics, i have great family and friends that i like to spend my time with, and i'm not into wasting time where i don't have interest or things i feel i can or want to learn. so if i don't email you back, please don't take it personal. it COULD be that i don't find anything interesting about you, but it's probably just that i'm really busy.

My Interests

i write about what i'm interested in, in a blog entry from a while back. you should read it if you're interested.

I'd like to meet:

marilyn monroe because she's so sad and sweet. walter mitty because he was just so frigging funny. i used to want to meet woody allen until the whole daughter thing. matt damon, but perhaps for the wrong reasons. marianne williamson because she's my spiritual mentor. depak chopra, tho i'm sure i'd just smile and say thank you. quentin tarantino but not if he were in a bad mood. lyle lovett so i can do the same thing julia did and fall in love with him for the right reasons because he's brilliant and brilliant is sexy. melissa etheridge because i was her biggest fan back in 87 and know most of her songs by heart. and i didn't even know she was gay. dear, sweet westley because he is the perfect man and would do anything, even come back from the dead, to save his true love. mother theresa because she's i'm sure as close to an angel as you could ever come. jesus, and budha, because i bet they were a lot alike. my grandparents that are gone. i'd like to meet them one day again.

Music:

hip-hop. old and new school. atmosphere, swollen members, jurassic 5, wu-tang, eminem, dre, snoop, run dmc, too short. house & beats. J-Sun and E Torres and stuff i got from J-Sun when he got back from the electronic music conf in so cal last year. jazz. ella, etta, billy, sarah. gershwin tunes are a favorite. remixes. saint germain des pres, verve remix, 80's remixes like the cure and depeche mode. rock & folk. prince, sade, lyle lovette, indigo girls, melissa etheridge (early), sheryl crow, alanis, BRMC, Tool. late 80's and early 90's grunge. pearl jam, gnr, inxs, mudhoney, alice in chains, nivana, etc.

Movies:

princess bride. kill bill. little shop of horrors. amadaous. gone with the wind. the secret life of walter mitty. charlies angels. the money pit (that was one damn funny show). titanic. True Romance (anything with patricia - i love her so much!). shawshank. napolean dynamite. anything by burton, tarantino, lynch, scorsesi, woody allen, al brooks, marshal. anything with matt damon, christian slayter, bill murray, johny depp, harrison ford (young harrison ford). i love old style kung foo. (fat, lee, chan, li). i think everyone should see What The *Bleep* Do We Know. it's playing now at the uptown. go see it.

Television:

i don't watch tv unless robin makes me. she made me watch "swan" the other night, instead of doing yoga. when i said no, she promised we could do both at the same time. do you know how hard it is to watch tv doing backbends on a bed? swan was pretty cool, but the prettier girl won, the uglier girl was nicer and deserved it more, and the producer thought it would be a good idea to tell the audience that the reason the uglier girl didn't win was because she had severely deep seeded emotional issues and just hadn't done the work to become beautiful on the inside. that really, really pissed me off.

Books:

the princess bride (abridged version, yes there really is a long, borring one you can't get thru), the reader (learn to love what you hate), my antonia (the most beautiful book i've ever read), lord of the flies (do i need to explain this one?), a return to love (made me softer), soulmate (i earmarked every page, sometimes at the bottom even), like water for chocolate (yum), the unbearable lightness of being (czec poets are the best). anything by chopra (the master), williamson (the mastess), ruiz (clarity). i'm a book whore, i'm totally unfaithful. i rarely can make it all the way through one book before starting another. i don't always finish what i start.

Heroes:

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My Blog

no different

well now, this isn't very different not much different than before except my head isn't blazing, body isn't shaking no escaping, exploding, making things much, much worse   now, i'm ju...
Posted by April on Sun, 04 Jun 2006 09:26:00 PST

15

im taking myself down the other fork back in time, 15, decisions made different ones now wearing piggy tails bringing innocence back to my life wishing I had the time back time lost on lost sou...
Posted by April on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

artificial sweetener

is coursing through your veins at a mad pace.  this new diet/exercise plan your best friend put you on may feel great at noon, but mornings suck.  up at dawn (well 8:30 anyway), 45...
Posted by April on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

it doesn't matter

i guess it never really did its more about me, and less about you and even less i guess, than of as bad as we were together when we werent good   theres something inside me i cant pretend isn...
Posted by April on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

i'm alone

i think of you when i'm aloneand here waiting for something to happenthe thing that made me feel young and alivethat Ive been capable of since i maturedand haven't forgotten sinceif it would be fore...
Posted by April on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

save me

so, you can now pick what time your blog was posted.  look everyone!  i was up at 4 am on a saturday night...i'm the artsy, quiet, cerebral, sensitive type.  never mind the party shots ...
Posted by April on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

for now

now what i do is struggle to create the thing i don't have scramble to build the mansions that weren't handed to me strain to give the gifts that weren't ever given freely hopefull i let the rest...
Posted by April on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

i love you

porgie, don't let him take medon't let him handle me, with his hot handsif you can keep me, i want to stay herewith you foreveri've got my man. - as sung by billy
Posted by April on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

tiger's breath

so you say it matters to you. you have some awareness that it does, but you're not quite sure how? immediate effects, so irresistable. you know though, that the truth preoccupies you every day... ...
Posted by April on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

to this one

i am base. the mother. the safe place. the one that won't judge. doesn't expect. doesn't need. the one to run to, hold on tight to, in whose bosom to sleep. to this one, i am the child. to b...
Posted by April on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST