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Maybe I’ve been a little bit off lately, but baby we’ve got all night to get it right.Maybe I’ve been a little bit off lately, but my hands are still shaking.Just hold on, hold on; let’s start so we can stop.I faced my sins, and paid for them. Breath Out! Breath In! But I can’t stop my hands from shaking.I tried to think of what to say upon return from my time away but all I know is that they say, “Where there’s smoke there’s fire, but I say, "where there's love there's liars" â€And baby I’m burnin’ up, I just can’t get enough.We’ll take our time and get it right, I’ll move slow to the place where you lay your head, tuck you in, and send you off to bed."(Oh, The Story)
The Names Laura Ashley baby. Everyone has a story, and heres mine. On June 30 1989 my two teenagers were on the way to the St. Joseph’s hospital, singing in a frantic way, “Oh my God were going to have a baby.†And though it shook their world up, they had a beautiful baby girl. That’s where I come from. It seems I’ve grown up way too fast in their eyes. I used to make a wish and blow out my candles each year on my birthday. But that wish had to change last year, because I finally got what I had been wishing for all these years. My wonderful boyfriend Jeremy Lee Jones. Not only is he my boyfriend, he’s my best friend and my protector. I love him with all my heart. I am a Dundalkian, born and raised. I love Dundalk, but hate it at the same time. But that’s just the way it goes. I’m a graduate of Patapsco, Class of 2007! To me nothing sounds better than the cheers of 07! I have gone to college, in Maine FST baby. But I decided that it wasn’t for me. I came home after only a month. I missed my life here too much. There are other reasons too, but that’s another story for sometime or never who knows?
I’m still unsure of what I want to do, or where I want to go in life. But no matter what or where I am, I’ve realized that God will always be there. He will always love me know matter what. Because his love is the only unconditional love you can know. God’s so indescribable and he knows our every move, and even when it’s not pleasing to him he still loves all his children. And just like the prodigal son he will take us back no matter what happens when we walk away from him. You just have to be willing to give yourself up for his glory. I may not be there right now. But I will never stop believing in god, because all that he has given me. He’s shown himself to me when I didn’t even want to see. Sometimes you just have to realize your not the person you thought you were in high school. I have changed so much in the past seven months, even more so since high school. I don’t even know who I am. And most of the time I don’t like who I am. But I am who I am, and only I can change that. Reflecting on my past, I see why I am the way that I am. The way I was raised and the way the role models in my life were. Again I am the only one that can change me. Of course I can point fingers and blame everyone, but that’s not going to do anything. I’ve been around the block, and sometimes I wish I never had started walking. I used to be the sweetest girl. But then I made my own choices and like my father used to say you’ve made your bed now you have to lie in it. I can’t take back what has happened in the past, I know it has happened for a reason and its made me who I am today. I miss things the way they used to be. But I’m glad I had made some changes in my life. No matter what, I know where I come from and who has always been there for me. I have an amazing family, a loving boyfriend, and the best friends anyone could ever ask for. I thank god that he has blessed me with them. Because just like him, I depend on them never to leave or forsake me.
This woman right here, is my mother and my hero. I'm so blessed to have her in my life. I don't know who or where I'd be without her. She always been a strong I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T woman! Working two jobs just to provide everything her kids needed. And this took its toll on her. Hardly getting any sleep, getting sick, but she kept going. My mother knows what is best for me. Even though I don't look to her for advice or help like I should. I know that she only sas and does things for the very best. When we were growing up, I'd always say "well their parents let them do this" and she would say " well their parents don't care and I do". As much as I wished she would let me do the things everyone else was doing I know now it was for the best. Because if she let me do what everyone else was, than I wouldn't be able to say the things I cane say now. About not always making the wrong decisions. And that is because of her. And everyone else thats was doing whatever they wanted are now wishing that their parents would have told them what they were doing was wrong. I look at where they are and the things they have done and I am so thankful that I had a mother who cared. She would stand for things that are right, even if everyone turns their back and she is left standing alone. I appreciate everything you have done and still are doing. Thank you so much. I love her with all my heart. Even when I don't say it. You Are My Sunshine, My Only Sunshine. You Make Me Happy When Skies Are Grey. You'll Never Know Dear How Much I Love You, Please Don't Take My Sunshine Away! I'll Love You Forever I'll Like You For Always. As Long As I'm Living My Mommy You'll Be! I Love (Heart) You. Your Sunshine Girl!
This is my father. Patrick Russell Kelley. Now no matter what has happened in the past., I know that my father loves me. I know that he never stopped loving me or my brothers he just wasn’t himself back then. He has brought himself back to where he needs to be. He has made me so proud to turn his life around. I Love my dad with all of my heart. What I love about him most is I can tell him anything and he will love me and not judge or condemn me. He will tell me what he thinks and feels about it. But I won’t feel bad about what mistakes I’ve made because that’s just the way he is. He will support me in everything even if he doesn’t agree. Because he is my father and loves me and just wants me to happy. He knows that I’ll make the mistakes but he will just hug me and tell me he loves me, no matter what it is. And just like my mother he only wants the best for me and my life. I know that when I was little he didn’t do things to be mean. He was just trying to show me how it would be in real life. That if you do something wrong there are consequences. When I wasn’t allowed watch or listen to certain things it was because he was trying to protect me. He wanted me to be apart from the things of this world. Me and my dad are getting close again, and I want it to stay that way. Because I know that him and my mother have my best in their hearts. I love you daddy. With all my heart, and even though im not a baby anymore, I’ll always be your baby girl.
And this is the love of my life. Jeremy Lee Jones. A year may seem like a short time to some, but when your in true love for the first time in your life and it matters you realize how significant it is. Yes every relationship has it’s share of issues, believe we’ve had ours. Just because your in love doesn’t mean you won’t fight. Doesn’t mean that there aren’t going to be problems. But true love is when you take the problems and work through them. True love is knowing that nothing is perfect but seeing the perfection in it anyway. True love has a place in your heart that no one else can come close to. True love is different than that of your parents love. Your parents know you, they love you because you are their child. This person loves you not because they have to but because they want to. I remember the first day Jeremy and I met. March 29,2008. It was awkward I was worried that since I wasn’t talking to him I wasn’t going to be with him. My best friend talked more to him more than I did. We met at the mall and went to Fort Howard. And then to go get my tattoo, but I had to leave before I could. He was going to Hawaii the next morning, I was going to Maine during the week. When we got back we went to fells point with my friends who were all couples. We were awkward. When they were holding hands and kissing we weren’t even close to each other. But we have gotten so close. Over the time we have been in a relationship. We are so open with each other. We tell each other everything, even if it should be personal. It‘s like that when your in love. You aren‘t just yourself anymore. Me is now a we. I love Jeremy more than I thought that I could love someone. And he‘s an amazing boyfriend when he tries. He knows how to make me calm down when im just screaming at him. He knows me and sometimes he knows me better than I know myself. that’s the way it is when your in love. You have that connection with the one your in love with. I cant wait to spend the rest of my life falling asleep next to him. And waking up to him. I cant wait to have stupid little fights and it just end because I talk about the stock market. I want to just drive with him to anywhere. I want him to take me out of the car and dance with me at any random time, just because he wants me in his arms. I love you baby. Always and forever. There are so many more memories to make.
This is my best friend Stephanie Nicole. I'm not to sure where I would be without her in my life. Probably broken down 6 feet away from a gas pump, or in Sheppard Pratt. I am so thankful that God has allowed to grow as the best of friends over this past year. This summer we made so many memories. From practically moving in my house to going to the pond and sitting on Justin's pier til the stars were blazing. I found out what it really means to stick with some one through thick and thin. She may not know from experience everything that I go through, but she will listen to me and even walk out of my house slamming the door not talking to me for the rest of the day. Just to give me a wake up call. So I won't end up in Sheppard Prat, or in an even worse place. We get wedding cake and hold hands skipping down the street. Even though I can't say that I've known her all my life and all that we've been friends since grade school snazzy stuff, I know that we have a life time more to make up for it. We have a bond that won't ever be broken, and some can't even say that they have a friendship like we do and they have their whole lives put into it! So Stephanie Nicole Sealover, thanks for always being my bestie, and I love you so much!
And this is my best guy friend Justin Ryan. I remember the frist day that I met him, I feel bad now knowing he is reading this, but we wanted to go to Pizza Hut! I thought he was another guy before he came over to get us. And turns out to be he is an amazing best friend. I kinda put him on the spot, questioning him and giving him points. But it was chill and now I know that he is always going to be there and bring a smile to my face. I swear he is the best. He can make anyone laugh. And people may say white boy can't jump, white boy cant rhyme and even white boy cant dance. But Justin will prove you wrong. he is by far the best white guy dancer I have ever seen! I am blessed to have a best friend like you Justin. Thank you for always giving me a lift. Literally, I owe you so many more drives. I know that we will always be friends. I mena honestly who is going to be able to stop the three amigos? No one! Your my bestie, no matter what others say. My best friends boy friend and my brothers brother!
Very Nice! They Will Never Get This Justin Ryan Olszewski!
so this is Hannah banana. I remember when I first had an encounter with her. I couldn’t stand her, or her friends. I was a waitress, and her and her friends were loud and very annoying. When school started back up she was at my breakfast table. We talked and she brought up how I didn’t like her. And from there we were friends. When ended up having English together. We got closer then. We have the same birthday. We love to butcher random songs at any given time and we both work at Mars. We love to just drive around and look for trouble. Most of the time you can find us with our heads over the moon. I trust Hannah with everything just like she trusts me. I know that even though we didn’t start off as friends and may have drifted apart too, were closer now than ever. And still have many more times to go over the moon and cause some serious chaos. Even if its walking around at mars singing our rendition of ay bay bay “ay nay nay†or blaring eminem in east point acting like gangsters and thugs. Ill always be here for you my birthday twin.
boomer boo, your amazing. I remember when I first met you, I cried. I found out you were engaged to one of my friends whom isn‘t in either one of our lives really anymore. But you and I are best friends and just can goof off with everything. We know how each of us will be. I tell you everything and I know that I can count on you to help me out always. Even if its just to let me cry on your shoulder. Or telling me that me and Jeremy are meant to be together. You’re the best and I know that we will have a bunch more years of being ron stoppable thanks for always helping me out and taking me home. I got your back. Whatever you need just tell me and I got you. I love you boomer boo... cuz im a cat im a kitty cat and i dance dance dance da da da da dance. i know and believe in you. i have faith you will find what youve always been looking for. just be patient. it will come. and you know what, it will be more than you ever thought it would be. dont stress on finding it yourself. let it come to you. in the right time. have faith in yourself and your future. i do.
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I just need to get things straight again.
"Well here I am again, in over my head. I had the best intentions, but they just lead to all this tension. I didn’t mean for you to ever feel this way. But the damage has been done and I can never find the right words to say!"
So sorry if I seem distant.
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