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see this broken side of me

make me really happy. please, tell me how having my heart on god damn plate

About Me

alright, its all new from here on. everything has changed, jess broke up with me, i am not angry. just broken hearted, but i've been hurt before i will be fine. but i have decided that instead of thinking and being cautious as i have become, will rather do the things that first come to mind, no matter how idealistic or naive.i am tired of not having what i deserve from life, so i am going to do my best retrieve it. so, on this new found glory that has been burning through out my veins the past week, i have decided that if no one likes what i do in my life, they can kiss my ass, if they've got a problem they need to tell me and they'd better be able to stand their ground,cuz i'm tired of takin the bullshit that people feel the need to feed me.i have also decided that i am going to stay single for a while if i can, so that i have the time to sort out my thoughts and decisions and figure out what it is exactly i want in a girl and hopefully i already know her, if not, i guess i'll just have to look.i would, last but not least, like to announce that i am a terrible musician. i have never hid this from anybody, i'm just really goosd at pretending i know soemthing about it. people not seeing through that illusion that i do not even intend to make is not my problem. but since i am a shitty musician, i would still like to stay in touch with music, and somehow make an impact on it, i think i may do this by becoming a luthier or another type of guitar builder, but that is for the future.finlly, this is a quote from soemone i respect alot, and whatsthe point in trying to get your point across when someone else has already said it, you cat top what they've done, theres no reason in trying, all you can do is steal it and make it heard again,"Insanity - a perfectly rational adjustment to an insane world" - R.D. Laing"so remember, yer a wreck;an accident, forget the 'freak', yer jsut nature, so keep the gun oiled and the temple clean, shit, snort and blasphwwm, but the heads cool and the engine runs, cause int he end everything we do, is just everything we've done.' - Corey taylor (Slipknot, Stone Sour)"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than be loved for pretending I'm someone I'm not" - Kurt Cobain (Nirvana)"It's better to burn out than fade away" - Kurt again

My Interests

i dont have alot of interests,i just want to say that i have alot of friends in washington iowa and minnesota and they know who they are and if anyone ever fucks with 'em i want them to know they can tell me and one way or another i'll make them stop.....

I'd like to meet:

no one i already know everybody i need or want to but send me a request and i'll probably say yes...

Music:

ATREYU, HIM, IT DIES TODAY, AFI, DARKEST HOUR, CHILDREN OF BODOM, THE USED, Drop Dead, Gorgeous, System of a Down, TheSexPistols, Kincaide, Blink, Aiden, Hopesfall, Slipknot, BillyTalent, MCR, The Clash, Hideki, Van Halen, Cheap Sex, Taking Back Sunday, Rancid, The Misfits, The Academy Is, Three Days Grace, Queens of the Stoneage, Virus, High On Fire, Dropkick Murphy's, Killswitch Engage, Porpoise, Hopesfall, The Gorgeous, Social Distortion, Arch Enemy, Alkaline Trio, The Distillers, The Casualties, Beloved, The Black Halos, As Cities Burn, Vince Neil, Bleeding Through, Avenged Sevenfold, The Doors, Glassjaw, Poison the Well, Depeche Mode, Transplants, Senses Fail, Glasseater, The Pixies, Silver Chair, Sum 41, Lifestory : Monologue, Dead Poetic, Three Inches of Blood, Norma Jean, The Dissociatives In Flames, Thrice, Satellite Conneticut, Letterkills, Gilmour Girls(Arr), Muse, Coheed & Cambria, Alexisonfire, Dallas Green, Ghost of Calico, Finch, AC/DC, Comeback Kid, Nirvana, Broken Promises, The Bled, As Night Falls, Every Time I Die, Jimmy Eat World, Funeral for a Friend, Angels in Ashes, Rufio, Black Maria, Johnny Cash, Box Car Racer, This is Reinessance, Tears for Fears, Hollywood Undead, Rage Against the Machine, Unwritten Law, Relient K, Deftones, The Gorillaz, Entwine, NIN, Bloodlined Calligraphy, The Cure, Bullet for My Valentine, All That Remains, Underoath, Iron Maiden, Rise Against, Skylight Drama, Prince, Death From Above 1979, A Perfect Circle, Foo Fighters, Bleed the Dream, Angels in Airwaves, Ozzy, Black Flag, Soilwork, Trivium, From Autumn to Ashes, Lamb of God, Shadows Fall, Bleeding Through, Vex Red , Unearth, Pantera, Boy Sets Fire, Billy Idol, Seether, As I lay Dying, Mudvayne, Elvis, Static X, Goldfinger, Vaux, The Police, Black Sabbath, Spine Shake, Alien Ant Farm, Papa Roach, Uncle Kracker, The Meatpuppets, The Vaselines, Johnny Cash, Stevie Ray Vaughn. i hate rap/hip hop and the only metal band i dont like is Cradle of Filth Danny Filth sounds like a fucking hamster.I will never bother you I will never promise to I will never follow you I will never bother youNever speak a word again I will crawl away for goodI will move away from here You won't be afraid of fear The thought was put into this And I always knew it'd come to this Things have never been so swell I have never failed to fail Pain Pain PainYou know you're right You know you're right You know you're rightIt's so warm and calm inside I no longer have to hide Let's talk about someone else Steaming soup against her mouth Nothing really bothers her She just wants to love herselfI will move away from here You won't be afraid of fear The thought was put into this I always knew it'd come to this Things have never been so swell I have never failed to failPain Pain Pain Pain PainYou know you're right (x14) You know your rights (x3) Pain...

Movies:

The Boondock SaintsThe Big LebowskiNapolean DynamiteHalfbaked

Television:

M*A*S*HCheersBeckerAmericas Funniest HomevideosThe Jerry Springer Show

Books:

schindlers listanne rice shitidk what else...

Heroes:

Kurt CobainEddy Van HalenLayne StaleyKrist NovelisicGod [only person besides me that ruins everyones lives]

My Blog

haydens random thoughts of inconsistent theory

if you knew someone   who just wanted to be   like everyone else   since the never got escape from individuality   what if they asked you what its like to admire someone with so mu...
Posted by see this broken side of me on Mon, 26 Mar 2007 08:41:00 PST

new song... lot of potential... lot of feeling..

SWEET ELIZABETH Verse 1 I know you meant no harm But you could've found a btter way To destroy what was left of my unblessed heart Instead you wanted to beat me down again You contradicted my every w...
Posted by see this broken side of me on Thu, 01 Mar 2007 02:36:00 PST