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.. MySpace Comments Graphics .. Hi my name is Meredith and I live in NYC. I like to take everying to the maxium. It's all or nothing for me. That often gets me in trouble but FUCK IT! I don't mingle well with most people because they don't "understand" me that well. I'm not like the rest so if you want to get to know me then just keep in mind I'm kind of crazy but in a good way. At least I think so. As you can see I don't fit the mold... FUCK THAT SHIT! Here are a few of my favorite quotes: "This isn't meant to last. This is meant for right now!" "In my nothing, you were everything, to me." "Take me with you without you everything just falls apart it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces." "Friendship is a single soul dwelling in two bodies." "I need you. You're my love your my life itself." "You and me We're in this together now. None of them can stop us now. We will make it through somehow." "When the world is darker than I can understand When nothing turns out the way I planned When the sky turns gray and there's no end in sight I turn to you 'Cos you're the only one Who can turn me around when I'm upside down." “We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.” “He who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words.” "It's surprising how much of a memory is built around things unnoticed at the time." "They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel." “What is my life if I am no longer useful to others.” "If it makes you happy than why the hell are you so sad." “One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star.” "Could you take my picture cause I won't remember." "Cause I can’t face myself in a mirror I’m left alone with all my pain And I disgrace myself in the mirror I’m left alone with my shame." “Illusion is the first of all pleasures.” "I do not want to be afraid I do not want to die inside just to breathe in I'm tired of feeling so numb Relief exists I find it when I am cut." "Scars are stories, history written on the body." "I hurt myself today To see if I still feel. I focus on the pain The only thing that's real." "My scars remind me that the past is real." "When you are close to me it feels like I could melt away and in your eyes I see the world in such a different way." "You tasted all my purity." "I am alone Locked in my memories." “Each relationship nurtures a strength or weakness within you.” "You bring me to life." "Maybe it's a part of me you took to a place I hoped it would never go And maybe that fucked me up so much more than you'll ever know." "Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars." "Sometimes, I have everything- Yet I wish I felt something." "Too fucked up to care anymore." "I'm so affraid of living in oblivion." "I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake, you know?" "I scar myself you see. I wish I wasn't me." "When I look into you eyes I can love you till forever." "You've been the only thing thats right in all that I've done." "If I lay here would you lie with me and just forget the world?" "I need someone to hold on to." "There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed." "I know a girl who sold her soul." "Anyone who limits her vision to memories of yesterday is already dead." "She doesn't see her beauty." “You won't ever be happier...until you find that special place where you belong.” "While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate." "The final countdown." "I never thought I'd, need you there when I cried." "Fuck it! I see you in me." "Whenever I'm alone with you, You make me feel like I am clean again." "That you make me smile Please stay for a while now." "He makes all the bad go away." "You take me the way I am." "I'm taking a chance, letting you inside." "How do you it, make me feel like I do." "You're a trace of what I used to be." "You are the perfect drug." “It's beauty that captures your attention; personality which captures your heart.” "Whenever I'm alone with you, You make me feel like I am whole again." "I'm loosing my way I need someone to find me and do me right and keep me safe from harm." "Some people think it's holding on that makes one strong- sometimes it's letting go." "Do you want to remember? Did it last forever? Was it what you imagined? Or did it feel like magic?" "People love others not for who they are but for how they make them feel." "I can love you till forever when I look into your eyes." "The entire sum of existence is the magic of being needed by just one other person." "I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head." "This is how you remind me of what I really am." "I feel your breath in my ear." "The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present." "You won't see me cry." "Your need for me has been replaced." "I see you baby shaking that ass." "Use me when you want to come. I've bled just to have your touch." "It took you to make me realize." "Will anyone get close to me? I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know." "I see my reflection, I don't like what I see." "No object is so beautiful that, under certain conditions, it will not look ugly." "I gave you my Purity. My Purity you stole." "I have spent all of my life waiting for tonight." "Bow down before the one you serve, You're going to get what you deserve." "I loved an illusion." "Keep the faith faith, keep the faith faith, keep the faith." "Sucking your dick is what I want to do, licking your balls until they turn blue." "Even the best fall down some times." "I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone." "I sit here locked inside my head remembering everything you've said." "Sitting all alone inside your head How do you feel?" "The pain of the mind is worse than the pain of the body." "A little out of touch, a little insane It's just easier than dealing with the pain." "I love you not because of who you are, but because who I am when I'm with you." "We owe respect to the living- To the dead we owe only truth." "I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing." "And I begin to fade Into our secret place." "The life of the dead is placed in the memory of the living." "Time heals griefs and quarrels, for we change and are no longer the same persons." "Part of me is afraid to get close to people because I'm afraid that they're going to leave." “For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.” “No memory is ever alone; it's at the end of a trail of memories, a dozen trails that each have their own associations.” "We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere." "I want to take you to place where we can fly away." "IT TOOK YOU TO MAKE ME SEE THE LIGHT."
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Your Birthdate: June 4
You have an extraordinary character - moral, responsible, and disciplined.
Your sincerely and honesty shine through in almost every situation.
Driven and focused, you rarely let your emotions get the better of you.
You're level headed and rational. People count on your to look at things objectively.
Your strength: Your unwavering loyalty and ethics
Your weakness: Your rock solid stubbornness
Your power color: Navy blue
Your power symbol: Shield
Your power month: April What Does Your Birth Date Mean?
How You Life Your Life
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
Your friends tend to be a as quirky as you are - which is saying a lot!
You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it. How Do You Live Your Life? > Pimp My Profile p align="center .. ..

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Trent Reznor, Angelina Jolie

My Blog

I have a date for my next surgery

I tend to hold important facts in for a while that regard me and my health. Perhaps it's because I don't allow myself to fully accept them as true. I don't know. I now have a date for my next surgery,...
Posted by on Sun, 28 Jun 2009 15:12:00 GMT

I'm starting to like this guy

I'm really starting to like this guy that works near me in Manhattan which is both kind of cool but also really annoying cause I really don't want to like someone "in that way" right now. But I find m...
Posted by on Fri, 26 Jun 2009 17:20:00 GMT

Peepers 2/7/01-6/23/09

My dog, Peepers died today while I was at work. It's entirely my fault because I should've NEVER gone to work today and instead taken her to the vet. I am fucking horrible person. I never thought loos...
Posted by on Tue, 23 Jun 2009 12:51:00 GMT

Stuff in my head

I'm sorry the blog below is marked private but it is cause it's to deep. I'm terrified something is really wrong with one of my dogs and I still haven't slept cause the thing on the right side of my f...
Posted by on Tue, 23 Jun 2009 03:43:00 GMT

Terrified

I have another medical "obstical" to over come. Dude I'm so fucking tired of over coming medical obsticals in my life. It feels like that's my only glory. Now I have this lump on the right side of my ...
Posted by on Mon, 22 Jun 2009 23:29:00 GMT

I'm sorry

I'm sorry. Sorry I'm not good enough. Sorry I'm a defect. Sorry all my only glory will be is me having over thirty surgeries and I don't come up for air for blowjobs. Sorry I'm just not good enough to...
Posted by on Mon, 22 Jun 2009 19:35:00 GMT

My feelings

Some times you hurt so much because of something it comepletely destroys you on the inside. I'm extemely strong when it comes to surgeries cause I had to be. That felt like my role in life for a long ...
Posted by on Sun, 21 Jun 2009 23:20:00 GMT

My Sex drive

It's weird how sex is the last thing that I want now. I'm usually always wanting sex but not so much now. Maybe it's because my self esteme in that area has completely gone away. I use to know I was g...
Posted by on Sun, 21 Jun 2009 23:09:00 GMT

My day

This day has been really hard for me. First I had to be with someone who had to put their dog who was almost thirteen to sleep cause it couldn't breathe or walk anymore. Then I saw someone from my pas...
Posted by on Fri, 19 Jun 2009 20:11:00 GMT

One thing

Some times the one thing a person wants is the one thing they can't obtain. I'm not talking about love or sex or that stuff cause those things don't mater to me now. I just want one thing and one thin...
Posted by on Wed, 17 Jun 2009 15:04:00 GMT