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About Me

My name recently changed to Rachel Howe. I married the love of my life september 22 2007. I am so happy I dont know how to describe it. I met him on myspace. I know it sounds crazy, but I honestly dont give a damn. He was halfway across the country from me in kansas. We taked on the phone and online for a bout three months before I picked him up from the Asheville Greyhound station. The moment he stepped off of that bus and our eyes met, in person, for the first time, I knew. I knew that my life was standing before me. We fell into one another and havent really let go since....he saved my life. I was on the brink of death and I had given up when he and I had our first conversation. He introduced me to myself...someone I hadnt known in a long time. I love John Dennis Howe....He is my life, my heart, my soul mate, my best friend... My HUSBAND.....everything to me. object type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowScriptAccess="never" allowNetworking="all" height="222" width="366" align="middle" data="http://lads.myspace.com/photoshow/slideshow.swf"
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My Interests

All that really matters to me now is building my life with jd...im looking forward to every day to come now...thats a nice change.Im so in love!!!My dream is to be recognized for my poetry eventually. I was going into bartending, but since being married, I dont really see that as something I should be doing now...so i really dont know what I am going to do with my life yet...... Also, though it doesnt really fit the rest of my personality, I dont care, Im a diehard Carolina Tar Heels fan. Duke fans need not respond!!!!lol (no, seriously.)

I'd like to meet:

the only person I really spent my whole life wanting to meet was the man who would take my breath away....and I already did that when JD arrived, so theres really no one left.... EXCEPT Joel, Desiree, and Kayla....my step children I have yet to meet....They are so beautiful.

Music:

Tool, Sabbath, The Doors, Pink Floyd, Korn, Slipknot, IronMaiden, Cannibal Corpse, Manson, Sublime, Led Zep,Lamb of God, Killswitch Engage, Deftones, Perfect Circle, Hed PE,NIN, Rage, OLD Metallica, Incubus, PANTERA..... I could go on forever

Movies:

My favorite movie of all time is Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. Next would have to be Natural Born Killers. Grandmas Boy, Wedding crashers, masters of horror, blow, the devils rejects,.... there are too many. All that crazy shit out there

Television:

I don't watch much tv unless it's just like Family Guy or something like that.

Books:

I like mythology and some thrillers. It really just depends on what type of week I'm having to determine what book I go to sleep to.

Heroes:

I have to say mike is one of my heroes so he'll quit bitching about it...(though i dont see how someone can be your hero when you can BEAT THEIR ASS!!!)My sister is the most amazing, beautiful, captivating woman in every way. She is the most important factor in my existence, and she always will be. She would be anybody's hero who took ten minutes to be around her.

My Blog

just a little part of how it all started w/ my husband...look at us now!!

who the fuck is the petshop boys? lol I like you ,hope you have a good day n night @ work. ----------------- Original Message -----------------From: RachelDate: Jun 8, 2007 12:21 PMno, havent seen it ...
Posted by Rachel Howe on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 10:42:00 PST

i love my husband

Its the way I have changed... the way I have found true grace... Theres no way to explain... No words to convey the utter awe of being lost in the melody across someone elses face...Swept away "...
Posted by Rachel Howe on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 09:44:00 PST

These Days

For JD- These days I'm more okay than Ive ever been able to say.... and I can honestly smile from the bottom of my soul.... I have finally been made beautiful in my own eyes, satisfied, and completely...
Posted by Rachel Howe on Thu, 23 Aug 2007 04:46:00 PST

you fucking disappoint me

What the hell was i supposed to do? There was nothing of you left in you....nothing there to fight for And what the fuck was I supposed to think? There was no lower level to sink to...after wher...
Posted by Rachel Howe on Sat, 21 Jul 2007 04:05:00 PST

where did the "friends" go?

I guess this is the first time ive written a blog that wasnt poetry, or about a chicken.lol I just need to vent for a bit....im about to break. Lately i have changed alot of how i live. Al...
Posted by Rachel Howe on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 06:47:00 PST

a chicken poetry

the rooster cackles at night..... I gotta fucking chicken!!! WWOOWOWOO!1! Motherfuckers, the chicken is sucking all you hookers off... And im happy to say that i gotta chicken WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
Posted by Rachel Howe on Wed, 18 Jul 2007 11:28:00 PST

ode to you

Shattered whispers, a tear stained soul, tuneless melodies playing out of control/ Broken harmony, one tears journey, down the face of a spirit yearning My love, my life, my suicide.......Silenc...
Posted by Rachel Howe on Wed, 18 Jul 2007 08:27:00 PST

depths of my hell

Dont speak to me again, I dont need anymore/ From the time you tried and failed to redeem yourself... To the time I learned how to cry; pride, sweet fucking pride- Yes, god damn the piteous tries...A ...
Posted by Rachel Howe on Mon, 16 Jul 2007 11:51:00 PST

justifiable homicide

Here he goes again, releasing his demons/ Shes terrified to breathe, terrified to see them/ Her blood drips and her tears disappear into the stains/ And shes unsure of survival today "You piece of shi...
Posted by Rachel Howe on Wed, 11 Jul 2007 03:49:00 PST

I still see you here sometimes

I held you in my lap...I heard your last breath... I saw in your eyes that you werent ready for this....There was nothing I could do.....Nothing could save you This demon had finally devoured you; I w...
Posted by Rachel Howe on Wed, 11 Jul 2007 03:36:00 PST