Life
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i like to cook, write poetry, sew, do craft stuff, paint, make new friends, hang out, dance like a freak, spend time alone sometimes, listen to other people talk about their lives.
i like all kinds of music. some of what i have is: oldies, classical, rap. mariah carey, cher, janet jackson, country, frank sinatra, disney, madonna, the doors, savage garden, barrry white, josh groban, i've got some soundtracks like ally mcbeal, coyote ugly, my best friend's wedding, patch adams, yello submarine, i have nsync, alanis morrisette, macy grey, jill scott, orgy, just to name a few. and i have a bunch of cds with music i've downloaded so i have a lot more singers and bands too. i like music because it is a good way of expressing myself sometimes. i've made cds for people to tell them how i feel, and it's something that person will always have to remind them how someone once felt about them.
i like all kinds of movies. romantic comedies are my favorite. i love julia roberts movies. my favorite all time movie is Little Shop Of Horrors, i love spaceballs, history of the world, there are just too many to mention. i use movies like i use music, to deal with stuff i'm feeling. if i'm depressed i watch sad movies so i can pretend others feel the same. or i watch movies because it is what i want in my life so i pretend i'm one of the characters and imagine what it would be like to have that happy ending.
there was a time when i had like at least two shows a night i had to watch. but now it is down to more like three a week i have to see and then if i see more then great. i have to watch stargate, charmed.
i like books. they are fun. but sometimes they take forever to read. i love anne rice books. i have read violin like 3 times and i have read vittorio 2 times. christopher rice (her son) is an awesome writer too, i've read two of his books. i like moby dick too. i haven't been able to finish the full version yet, it is freakin long as hell.
my grandpa was always my hero. he was the greatest man i had ever known. he taught me to believe in people, and that people are good if you give them a chance. he was so smart, he taught us (the grandchildren) to never stop learning, no matter what you are doing, never stop learning. about a year before he died he started a joke, whenever anythign would happen, usually something back like something breaking he would always say "Levi did it", and he especially did it when i wasn't even in the room. well the year he did i dropped out of high school because i was having a hard time there, i was feeling really bad about it because i knew that if he knew he would be upset with me for it. the following year i started a new high school. about a month after i start, just after my brithday i was walking home and i saw my grandpa sitting on a bench (i didn't exactly see his face but i knew it was him, he had on his usually clothes and you can never mistake his red suspenders) when i past him i could almost hear a voice in my head saying "Levi did it" it sounded like my grandpa and it didn't sound like he was joking, it felt like he was proud of me for going back to school. even typing this i'm getting a bit teary eyed because it was one of the best experiences of my life.is it possible to be your own hero? this past year has been very intense for me and i feel like i am handling it very well. i've dealt with a lot of my anxiety issues, become more social, opened a new part of my life, and i've even cared about someone (i'm still caring about that person actually). i have never felt like i've done much with my life, quite frankly i've always thought i was a loser, but now i dont' think there is anything baout me that could be described as a loser, maybe a dork or wierd or a freak, but not a loser anymore. so when i get upset i start looking to myself and seeing what all i've done and dealt with and that gives me strength to deal with anything.