ALEX

MyGen Profile GeneratorThe Ocean's touched with feelings running high, It seems right, No need to hide, Breathe in fantasy, From reality, To the other side of life, Actually take me away, To a visit of my fantasy, I find with you, I prayed for thee, As I tripped on a dream, I prayed to you with hands held high, I find in you, I BELIEVE!I USED TO BE A REALLY COMPLEX PERSON. I HAVE GONE THROUGH SOME SHIT THAT FUCKED ME UP FOR A REALLY LONG TIME. THERE WERE YEARS WHERE I THOUGHT I WAS OKAY SPITE EVERYTHING(WHAT EVER DOESNT KILLS ME MAKE ME STRONGER (THAT MENTALLY HELPS BUT ITS A LOAD CRAP)), LUCKILY I DISCOVERED KABBALAH. ALL OF MY PAST RESENTMENTS AND STORED UP ANGER I'VE TURNED TO LIGHT AND POSITIVITY. I NOW JUST HIT MY 28TH BIRTHDAY AND I HAD TO REALIZE THAT I HAVE LOST SO MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE STUCK IN SOME LIMBO QUESTIONING MYSELF ABOUT WHERE IT WENT WRONG. SOUNDS DUMB HUH? SO I JUST NOT TOO LONG AGO STARTED TO TAKE CONTROL OF MYSELF. AND START LIVING MY LIFE THE WAY ITS MEANT TO ENJOYED. SURROUNDING MYSELF WITH LOVING AND SUPPORTIVE FRIENDS. I'M AVOIDDING CHAOS AND NEGATIVITY ALL COST. I JUST REAPPLIED TO GO BACK TO COLLEGE AND FINISH MY DEGREE. I STILL HAVE MAJOR HURDLES TO OVERCOME AND FIGHT. BUT IM GETTING STRONGER EVERYDAY.LATELY I HAVE BEEN JUST A JEANS AND T-SHIRT KINDA GUY. IM OVER FASHION. SUPER LAID BACK AND TOTALLY ALTERED... LOL. I JUST GOT BACK FROM SEATTLE, WASHINGTON AND I ALREADY HAVE THE FOUR TRIPS IM TAKING THIS YEAR, NEW YORK IN MAY 20TH, SAN FRANSISCO IN LATE JULY, NEW ORLEANS LABOR DAY WEEKEND FOR "THE SOUTHERN DECADENCE (GAY MARDI GRAS)" AND COSTA RICA FOR XMAS AND NEW YEARS.AS YOU CAN SEE I KEEP MY SELF VERY BUSY, LOL.I love to fantasize, when I was a child I used get run into the woods barefooted, for hours and hours, sometimes my feet would get sore and red and raw and my skin started to crack and get bloody. I was in so much pain I remember crying. I would cry so loud but no one could hear me, I was too far in to the woods. One day I reached what seemed like a curtain make of pussywillow leaves, I was careful when I opened them, uncertain of what I would find, I would be scared but brave, so I ran ran through those willows to reveal the most beautiful, vivacious waterfalls that would all converge into big drop. There were unicorns and fairies and everything shown so bright and so blinding. The unicorns were all ponies and they would play with the rainbows, bending it and wrapping them around their lil baby hooves. I remember saying that this is where I belonged. Where the water shines and glimmers like a diamond exploded causing everything to shimmer. Its almost to bright to bare. do you see it? This is where the healing waters flow where the water is fresh and untouched...untainted. where the majestic dolphins launch themselves out of the water creating their own ray of light behind them while they flip backwards up into and though the air. I place my my poor aching, now dirty, bloody lil feet in the water to wash them. The unicorn ponies approach me with a distressed look upon there once cheerful faces. One observing my pain, begins to cry, I rubbed the tears from his face and stroke his horn then preceded to go back to cleaning my feet, magically my feet were healed. Is it not miraculous, where magic grows rampantly everywhere that it is contained by the all the mythical creatures found in this place? After leaving this place, I'd go home and think about how much it was worth it, to put myself through all the pain to reach this fairy tale city. The pain is what made it so worth the while. As you can see I live in my own fantasy bubble. I love to dress up and put myself different scenarios to recreate where my imagination has taken me many times before and feel it all, first hand.Is it wrong to stroll down here, where things are cold and dirty and looked down upon all of the ugliness and find all the beauty that once laid there........and still does?Saying farewells were never easy for me. holding on to what really matters to me, is what I do. I will hold on to the end.