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About Me

Hey everybody, I'm 20, and my name is Nicole. I have a beautiful baby girl, her name is Brooke Marie Ryder and she is so f*ing cute. I am short and chubby. but i am happy the way i am. shawn i miss you!!!! i am at job corps getting my painting training and i like it there. i have made a lot of friends and some not so nice people. but i will miss everyone. R.I.P Shawn i really miss you. but you are looking at me. my life is getting really hard because i lost Brooke but it was for the best i could not take care of her but she is safe and now i am too. i love having friends who will do anything for me and i am finnally alowed to have guy friends. i have never been happier.i feel like a three year old with the man i am with! i am not in the abuse anymore and i am away from will so i am a lot happier. i am with a awsome man and he is nice and sweet... he loves me for who i am... i really love him and i cant wait to be in his arms agian...i just want a good man that can care about me and love me for who i am and not the way i look.
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i wAnt to meet the one man i will spend my whole life with and i think i missed that oppertuntiy, i know i messed it up he has moved on and is getting married i love my little girl and she means the world to me and she is all i could ever ask for. i am so pissed being here alone.

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i give up

ok people i give up i cant handle it anymore. i am alone and heart broken. it is a constant sence of wanting to give up. i just want a good man and that must be too much to ask. i did have one and i m...
Posted by on Sun, 19 Apr 2009 12:11:00 GMT

last night

i am sick of all of this how is it that a mother cant find a good man? last night i slept with someone and his crazy ex climed in thro the window and came in and was freaking out. i dont know what to ...
Posted by on Sun, 05 Apr 2009 08:52:00 GMT

why do i bother???

no one really cares about me and the people that call them my friends aint. everything is crumbbling.  i cant stop it i am going to loose my babay and that is all the more reason. i dont have friends ...
Posted by on Fri, 20 Mar 2009 18:09:00 GMT

going to hell

OMG i am really getting sick of life... i woke up happy. i went to put on my sweatshirt and there was bleach on it... my 60$ hoodie.. then i havent talked to my daughter in a week. i just dont know wh...
Posted by on Fri, 13 Mar 2009 21:09:00 GMT

thinking

i am sitting here thinking about the way my life is... she never respected me i just wish i could get one of them to be proud of me.. i think that is why i went down the wrong path. i want a real frie...
Posted by on Thu, 12 Mar 2009 22:34:00 GMT

i am still in love...

i am still in love with the first love of my life. he means a lot to me and i feel so bad for what i did to him and i just wish he could see where he was and what he feels.. i want to know every thoug...
Posted by on Wed, 25 Feb 2009 14:59:00 GMT

im home

i am home but i am not too happy about it i havent been doing anything... i kinda wish i was back at school where i had friends to hang out with.... all i do is go to drs and sit on my ass.. its too i...
Posted by on Wed, 11 Feb 2009 16:40:00 GMT

i miss HIM

when i look at his picture i think about the way it used to be. when i talk to him my heart breaks cus i am not with him. it kills me i am in love with him and he dosent relise it
Posted by on Mon, 31 Mar 2008 17:45:00 GMT