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Jesus Christ, God, Chris Volz (Lead singer of Flaw and 5 Bolt Main), Ray Lewis, Bob Marley (RIP), Ryan Miller.......... Numb
By Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
-Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone-
Every step I take is another mistake to you
-Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone-
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
-Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone-
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
-Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone-
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
..
Flaw, 5 Bolt Main, Guns-N-Roses, Korn, Ill Nino, Slipknot, Linkin Park, Ultraspank, Godsmack, Disturbed, I.R.A.T.E, Motograter, Breaking Benjamin, Demon Hunter, Static-X, Rage Against the Machines, Dry Kill Logic, Deftones, Grade 8, Mushroomhead, Machine Head, Killswitch Engage, Adema, American Headcharge, Mudvanye, Metallica, A Perfect Cirle, Sevendust, Cold, Nirvana, Audioslave, Shinedown, All the classic rock from the 60's 70's 80's, and of course Bob Marley and the Wailers. I'm down with pretty much all music, except for that death metal BS. It depends on my mood, if I'm lifting I'll go with rock, but otherwise it's Bob Marley, Pink Floyd, or Guns-N-Roses or something of that nature.
Like Toy Soldiers
By Eminem
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down...
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
I am never supposed to show it, my crew ain't supposed to know it
Even if it means goin' toe to toe with a Benzino it don't matter
I'd never drag them in battles that I can handle unless I absolutely have to
I'm supposed to set an example
I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide 'em
If some shit ever does pop off, I'm supposed to be beside 'em
That Ja shit I tried to squash it, it was too late to stop it
There's a certain line you just don't cross and he crossed it
I heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost it
It was crazy, this shit went way beyond some Jay-z and Nas shit
And even though the battle was won, I feel like we lost it
I spent too much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted
And I'm so caught in it I almost feel I'm the one who caused it
This ain't what I'm in hip-hop for, it's not why I got in it
That was never my object for someone to get killed
Why would I wanna destroy something I help build
It wasn't my intentions, my intentions was good
I went through my whole career without ever mentionin' Suge
And that was just out of respect for not runnin' my mouth
And talkin' about something that I knew nothing about
Plus Dre told me stay out, this just wasn't my beef
So I did, I just fell back, watched and gritted my teeth
While he's all over t.v. down talkin' a man who literally saved my life
Like fuck it i understand this is business
And this shit just isn't none of my business
But still knowin' this shit could pop off at any minute cuz
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
There used to be a time when you could just say a rhyme
And wouldn't have to worry about one of your people dyin'
But now it's elevated cuz once you put someone's kids in it
The shit gets escalated, it ain't just words no more is it?
It's a different ball game, callin' names and you ain't just rappin'
We actually tried to stop the 50 and Ja beef from happenin'
Me and Dre had sat with him, kicked it and had a chat with him
And asked him not to start it he wasn't gonna go after him
Until Ja started yappin' in magazines how we stabbed him
Fuck it 50 smash 'em, mash 'em and let him have it
Meanwhile my attention is pullin' in other directions
Some receptionist at The Source who answers phones at his desk
Has an erection for me and thinks that I'll be his ressurection
Tries to blow the dust off his mic and make a new record
But now he's fucked the game up cuz one of the ways I came up
Was through that publication the same one that made me famous
Now the owner of it has got a grudge against me for nothin'
Well fuck it, that motherfucker can get it too, fuck him then
But I'm so busy being pissed off I don't stop to think
That we just inherited 50's beef with Murder Inc.
And he's inherited mine which is fine ain't like either of us mind
We still have soldiers that's on the front line
That's willing to die for us as soon as we give the orders
Never to extort us, strictly to show they support us
We'll maybe shout 'em out in a rap or up in a chorus
To show them we love 'em back and let 'em know how important it is
To have Runyan Avenue, soldiers up in our corners
Their loyalty to us is worth more than any award is
But I ain't tryna have none of my people hurt and murdered
It ain't worth it, I can't think of a perfecter way to word it
Then to just say that I love ya'll too much to see the verdict
I'll walk away from it all before I let it go any further
But don't get it twisted, it's not a plea that I'm coppin'
I'm just willin' to be the bigger man
If ya'll can quit poppin' off at the jaws, well then I can
Cuz frankly I'm sick of talkin'
I'm not gonna let someone elses coffin rest on my conscience cuz
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
..
Seinfeld, Reno 911, Family Guy, Dirty Jobs, Robot Chicken, NBC's "How to Catch a Predator", Man vs. Wild, The Office
The Bible.
Name: Joel
Birthdate: McAllister
Birthplace: Canadaigua NY
Current Location: A-TOWN
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Brown
Height: A tall 5'10-short 5'1''
Weight: idk, I don'tweigh myself
Piercings: none
Tatoos: none
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: hasn't happened yet...bad luck I guess
Overused Phraze: "Oh Snap!"
FAVORITES
Food: Chicken
Candy: frozen junior mints
Number: 50
Color: Blue or green
Animal: Anything but Spiders
Drink: milk
Alcohol Drink: nope
Bagel: blueberry?
Letter: 4
Body Part on Opposite sex: depends
This or That
Pepsi or Coke: water
McDonalds or BurgerKing: neither...KFC
Strawberry or Watermelon: strawberry
Hot tea or Ice tea: Green tea
Chocolate or Vanilla oreo style
Hot Chocolate or Coffee: coffee
Kiss or Hug: from a girl: either... from a guy:none
Dog or Cat: my 4 cats
Rap or Punk: rap
Summer or Winter: summer
Scary Movies or Funny Movies: both
Love or Money: hmmm...hopefully someday love
YOUR...
Bedtime: depends on how I'm feeling
Most Missed Memory: I guess I took all the people I met in high school for granted...
Best phyiscal feature: you decide
First Thought Waking Up: "damn...I gotta go to school today"
Goal for this year: be happy, without regrets (already failed there)
Best Friends: all my friends are best friends
Weakness: I'm my own weakness
Fears: too many to list
Heritage: Irish is all that matters...yet I don't drink
Longest relationship: apporximaently 0 seconds
HAVE YOU...
Ever Drank: only a little bit at New Years Eve, I don't like the stuff
Ever Smoked: allergic
Pot: ditto
Ever been Drunk: nada
Ever been beaten up: If you know me, you'll realized this is a dumb question
Ever beaten someone up: people are smart, they know not to push me that far
Ever Shoplifted: Thou shall not steal
Ever Skinny Dipped: does shower count?
Been Dumped Lately: Nope still batting 1.000
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color: any as long as they aren't blind...but that might not be a bad thing
Favorite Hair Color: blonde...but it really doesn't matter
Short or Long: depends on what looks better on them
Height: don't matter
Style: just not a bitch
Looks or Personality: tight race, too close to call
Hot or Cute either
Drugs and Alcohol: hopefully not
Muscular or Really Skinny: "Man Hands"?
RANDOMS
Number of Regrets in the Past: too many to count
What country do you want to Visit: maybe Australia or New Zealand
How do you want to Die: happy...with God
Been to the Mall Lately: nope
Do you like Thunderstorms: as long as they aren't too loud
Get along with your Parents: yup
Health Freak: yup
Do you think your Attractive: not really
Believe in Yourself: IDK yet
Want to go to College: already am
Do you Smoke: didn't I already answer this?
Do you Drink: ditto
Shower Daily: yup
Been in Love: nope
Do you Sing: ....
- or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS! Remember
By Disturbed
Sensation washes over me
I can't describe it
Pain I felt so long ago
I don't remember
Tear a hole so I can see
My devastation
Feelings from so long ago
I don't remember
Holding on, to let them know
What's given to me
To hide behind
The mask this time
And try to believe
Blind your eyes to what you see
You can't embrace it
Leave it well enough alone
And don't remember
Cut your pride and watch it bleed
You can't deny it
Pain you know you can't ignor
I don't remember
Holding on, to let them know
What's given to me
To hide behind
The mask this time
And try to believe
Blind your eyes to what you see
You can't embrace it
Leave it well enough alone
And don't remember
Cut your pride and watch it bleed
You can't deny it
Pain you know you can't ignore
I don't remember
If I can
Remember
To know this will
Conquer me
If I can
Just walk alone
And try to escape
Into me
..
Jesus, God, and all the soldiers of the United States who risks their lives everyday for us.--------------------------------------------------------- ----------------------------------------------