Was I fooling you?

Well as you might know my name is Robert. I'm usually the guy that smiles and says Hi to everyone, thats never down. But what some people don't know about me is that there is another side to me. The side of me that hates everything, that feels that everything is worthless and pointless. What all you don't know is that most of the time I totally hate everything about me and I'm not that happy guy you always see. I usually spend my nights crying wondering why the hell I feel this way. I'm not writing this out of pitty for myself, but more for people to really understand who I am inside. To get a better understanding of who I am. Did you think I wasn't like this? Did I fool you...