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JaMie

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About Me

I CAN'T SIT OR STAND STILL FOR MORE THAN A MINUTE.I CAN BE EXTREMELY PARANOID.IRRITABLE,FEEL INVISIBLE,DEPRESSED,DON'T ENJOY LEADERSHIP,REVEAL LITTLE ABOUT MYSELF,DISLIKE LARGE PARTIES, FEEL UNDESIRABLE,DON'T LIKE TO STAND OUT,EMOTIONALLY SENSITIVE,LIKE SILENCE,FRAGILE, SECOND-GUESS MYSELF,NEGATIVE, FEARFUL,WEIRD,PARANOID, DEPENDENT,CAUTIOUS, NEUROTIC.SOMETIMES IT SEEM AS THOUGH I HAVE MY OWN WORLD.IM PRACTICAL BUT MOST OF THE TIMES IM 'DREAMY'.I CAN BE SO LOUD THEN BE SILENT IN A SECOND.AS LONG AS I HAVE MY GUITAR AND MY SMOKE WITH ME,IM ALL SET FOR A DREAMY.EITHER YOU LOVE ME OR YOU HATE MY ATTITUDE,I'M A DIRECT PERSON, I STATE WHAT I HAVE IN MIND WITHOUT HESITATION.I MAY APPEAR TO BE BRUTALLY HONEST,BUT I EXPECT LIKEWISE.I LOVE SIMPLE THINGS IN LIFE,AND I'M EXTREMELY THANKFUL FOR WHAT's UPON AND WHAT I'M GIVEN.I CAN BE YOUR BEST FRIENDS or YOUR WORST ADVERSARY.TO MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY, IM SOMEONE THEY CAN COUNT ON.I DONT TREAT EVERYONE EQUALLY,OR DONT GIVE EVERYBODY THE SAME LEVEL OF RESPECT. tHEY WOULD HAVE TO EARN THEM.IF MADE OUR TAIL SO LUCID,THEN WE WOULDN'T HAVE ROOM TO GROW,NO PLACE FOR REALIZATIONAND NO POINT OF LIVING LIFE. OBSTACLES ARE UPON TO ENLIGHTEN OUR THOUGHTS,AND TO BE KEPT AS A FUTURE REFERENCE. I CAN BE A LISTENER AND A GOODCADVISOR YOU CHOSE. I'M PATIENT, BUT DON'T PUXH ME TO THE LIMIT,UNDERSTANDING BUT DONT PUSH MY BUTTONS.I STAND BY MY WORDS AS WELL AS I STAND BY MY GROUND,THOUGH IM A LITTLE INDECISIVE; A BIT HESITANT BECAUSE I TRY TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT.But I know when I'm wrong and I admit it.Im a random, sarcastic and cocky person,but I can be serious when I need to be. I rarely drink,demanding, easily distracted,lenient, stubborn, unruly and etc.Others may find me a bit complicated, but yet Im very simple. "wHat ThEY SeE AnD sAy AbOUt Me DoEs NoT DeFiNe WhO i am iN ReALiTy.WhAT's PeRcEiVeD iS A MeRe SuRface,WhAt'S SaiD iS MeRe OpiNiOn;FoR WhAt'S iNeViTabLe iS hIDdEN WitHiN The dedEPtHs oF mY sOuL.OnLY i CaN teLL mY oWn %D?UtHeNtiCItY...im so tired of life. i feel like giving up and letting myself rot away. i wish whatever it is that makes me feel this way would crawl out and die. ive lost touch with everything. i have no appetite, even when im hungry. i have no motivation. my emotions are out of control. the smallest things make me break down. nobody cares. my family doesnt even take the situation seriously. it doesnt bother me much tho, becuz i lack feeling for anyone. i dont want to be a burden. im just tired of pushing people away, but i cant help it. i hate myself. and at the same time i like who i am. i want to let them know, but then i feel like an attention whore. everything about me is a contradiction. Dont you just hate it when people say they could help when they really couldn't???... its like saying.."COME I CAN HELP YOU!... I KNOW FRIGGIN PROBLEMS AND I UNDERSTAND!"... i felt like screaming such rude words to them...but they are my friend... and I'd worse if they wasnt... so instead,, I told them to GO AWAY and FLY WITH THE BIRDS...COZ THEY'd NEVER UNDERSTAND ME! Gosh I feel like im going downward spiral where everything swell as emotions go down by... who would've thought that I...myself, could have him... people wont just mind their DamNn businesses...so Im sorry that im not racist enuff to be part of the stupid thing... gah!!! people these daysss!!! Yess so me and my FrIeNdS have plans to make a society of people that hates people...LOLZ!!! yeahhhh that'd be soOooOo coOL!... antagonist freaks and oxymorons in the friggin club! .... ahahahaha gosh I have my ways to get what I want... My life itself is just made up of Forced smiles...and quiet tears... there really is no way for Love to save you! If you think that way then your enigmatic stupidity has taken over you!!! and I must say your brain is pretty infected and dementically obstruct...so mind me for saying that!... I dont want to be a chalk..beliving in such things could just blow me away into dust... Im already drowning Asphyxiated... and Im trying to break that thing... the thing that he has started coz it hurts deeply! To be honest... nothing of us is original in our own ways, we're just simply combined effort of everybody and the experiences that we've gone thru and known...so if your thinking that you're original...then screw you!!!... we're just different no originality at all! you do well to remember that! sometimes im serious... sumtYms Im CraZY!! im real, what u see is what u get.. I love sports! umm.. Im verY APproaChabLe:) I hate baCk stabbErs sO if U got problem with me..teLL me right On mY faCe dude! haaa i juz don't like it when people talk behind my back.. i dont want to sound rude but im just speaking my mind.. ya see im not a bad girl im just a good girl wHo does bad things.. get it? hekz... hmm.. im different in sooo many ways.. im a complete weirdo..i have the strangest ideas, i do what i want to do..this is my life..nobody can tell me what to do..Nobody has the right to judge me!! blah! i have my own mind, i can make decisions by myself..... fcorz i know, not everything that i want would be good for me.. i made a lot of mistakes already...but common! im human..im not perfect! nobody is.. (hmm.. what a lame excuse! haha) nwei..as i was saying..ive been through a lot already.. i learned a lot from my experiences..became matured in many aspects physically & emotionally... It pisses me off when people pass judgement and assume that I'm a certain way, simply because I'm not the one to initiate a conversation. If you really want to talk to me then come up to me. Don't ASSUME anything about me, especially if you think I'm stuck up, bitchy, conceited (etc) before you even have the chance to get to know me because I am one of the RADDEST girls you will ever meet. If I am wronged, I am a firm believer in second chances, but do it again and you are seriously pushing it. It isn't fair for good people to be taken advantage of.I hold those people I care about very close to my heart. I get my heart broken regularly. I'm overly emotional. things i value: equal rights for all people (regardless of gender, color, race, origin, religion or lack thereof, creed, sexual orientation, health status, age, disability, etc.), freedom of speech, the right of marriage for everyone, separation of church and state, a woman's right to make any and all decisions about her own body, freedom to protest things you do not find acceptable without being persecuted by the government or law enforcement, freedom to practice any religion or to have no religion, people who defend those who cannot defend themselves, altruism, random acts of kindness and senseless acts of beauty, peace, tolerance, love, the hunger for knowlege, inclusion, friendliness, acceptance, learning about other cultures and belief systems, supporting the arts (music, dance, art, drama) in schools and communities, those who can laugh at themselves and their ideas, those who make others feel welcome, valued and appreciated, teaching, helping others.... things i hate: racism, sexism, homophobia, bigotry, discrimination, prejudice, ignorance, intolerance, selfishness, exclusion, dishonesty, those who value money over human beings, those who attempt to impose their morals/values/beliefs on others, those who sit in judgment on others, those who feel superior to others or have entitlement issues, narcissism, those who use religion to justify the mistreatment of others, those who accuse others of disloyalty or treason to gain political advantage, those who abuse power to gain money, leaders who lie, cheat and steal, hypocrites.... Im only true to those who are true to me I don’t take shit from anyone And I don’t care if you have a problem with me Even if I hate you, Im not mean to you I laugh at my own jokes.. if I am in a relationship with a guy, i am very serious; I give it a lot and want a lot out of it but w/o telling him.. i am really emotional and in touch with my feelings... %D%ALOVE IS TOO PAINFULL...AND I TRIED IT SO MANY TIMES...BUT AS ALL ELSE FAIL I BEGAN TO FIND MYSELF IN THOSE PEOPLE...I BECAME WEAK...FELT BETRAYED...FELT THE LOST OF SOMETHING IMPORTANT...AND FOUND MY HEART BROKEN...BUT I ACCEPTED THE THINGS THAT GOES THROUGH MY LIFE...AS THOUGH THINGS BECAME HAED TO UNDERSTAND I FOUND FRIENDS WHO WOULD%D%AHELP...THOSE REAL FRIENDS WHOM I TREASURE THE MOST AND THOSE WHO UNDERSTAND WHAT IM HERE FOR...EVEN IF I CRY THOSE FLOODING TEARS AND AS I DROP BECAUSE OF ALCOHOL I STILL KNOW SOMEONE WOULD PICK ME UP AND TELL ME HE/SHE IS THERE FOR ME...JUST THAT SIMPLE WORD WOULD SLAP ME BACK TO REALITY TO TRY TO UNDERSTAND THAT THATS WHAT LIFE IS SUPPOSED TO BE.IM TRYING TO BE STRONG BUT I STILL KNOW THAT IM WEAK. %D%A%D%A ....

My Interests

KiCkiNg SoMeOnEs AsS, peOpLe gooD in pLaYiNg GuiTar, SoUndTriP, BeAcH, SuNsEt, SkAtErS, PiZzA, TeA, CoFfEe, FriEs, iL LoVe wALkiNg iN ThE cOz noBodY kNowS iM cRyiNg, LiVe BaNdS, TaTtOo, BuBbLeSm, RaiN, sMoKe,

I'd like to meet:

who calls me back when i hang up on him, who stays awake just to watch me sleep,who kiss me in the forehead, who respects what i believe in, who loves and respects everyone i cared for, who wants to show me off to the world even at my ugliest, who holds my hands in front of his friends...who coconstantly reminding me of how much he cares about me, and how much lucky he is to have mE...TURNS TO HIS FRIENDS AND SAYS, "PARE, SHE'S MY LIFE..who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation.who is SENSITIVE enough to understand what I go through as a woman but strong enough to keep me grounded,someone who I can respect...someone that can be fun,nice,sweet,caring,smart,great sense of humor,someone that can respect me for me,has the same interests as i do,I love guys with tats n piercings,blue,green or brown eyes.punks,skaters,artists,dorks,band boys,guitarists,bike messengers.Someone that can handle me bein a kid at heart,loves the rain,dancin in the rain n thunderstorm.Someone who could accept me for who i am! importante yon! a very funny person para hindi ako ma bore and who will love me more than anything else! hahahahaha I 3 getting messages, don't hesitate giving me one :) And btw, please do not give me those "ADD ME" messages because it annoys me.. you can go ahead and add me because I've been getting a lot of these lately. I aplogize to those I haven't messaged back, esp. if I don't know u. Those URSOHOT messages, I don't really have anything to reply to that. do not message me with sexual comments... do not leave me comments with sexual remarks... i dont go for EB'S/SEB's. Im not interested in that!!! I can't promise everybody a respone, but I'll try to get back to u as much as I can :D People that realize their shit stinks and are fine with it Anyone who can keep a conversation going after I've killed it. I have an annoying habit of doing that. Oh, and someone who has the ability to put up with my bizarre mood swings.... I WANNA MEET PEOPLE: who are true to their selves. who are not pretending to be somebodyelse. who do their own things naturally in their own ways who gives respect to their fellaszzz... who appreciates me for what and who i really am inside and out. who finds out that beaches are very caressing places. who wants to love and accept me as ME.... i aint gonna please any of you out there... i want you to accept the real me..

Music:

Rock--(punk, glam, goth, straight, alternative...all of it as long as it "rocks"). Old songs(1920's - 1960's songs). Rap. R&B. chill-out music..."depends on my mood" all songs of alanis morissette, albun titled"jagged little pill and avril lavigne, her album titled "under my skin"

Movies:

the notebook. / i love movies that can make me think and analyze after i've seen it... i also love movies that make me cry or laugh... but rather go for the funny movies

Television:

reality shows like, wild and out...get punkd...wild boys...maury povick...jerry springer...pimp my ride...boiling point...5th wheel...elimidate...fear factor...ripley's...david blain...wild boyz...

Books:

I don't have much time for reading nowadays

Heroes:

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