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About Me

An optimist is someone who says, "These bad times can't last forever." A pessimist is someone who says, "These good times won't last forever." A realist is someone who understands nothing lasts forever.
-me
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I am the ground beneath your feet when your nose is cast to the sky. I am the answers you don't want to hear to the questions you're afraid to ask. You may look in my direction, but you won't see me; your ears may be open, but you won't hear me. I stand just far enough outside the boundaries of your peripheral vision that you probably won't ever know i was here. And that suits me just fine.
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Short and ornery, with a quick wit and a sharp tongue. Nocturnal. Too smart for my own good. Highly cynical, wrote the book on sarcasm(not the book you read; i wrote the good one). Call myself "jaded" because "bitter" sounds old and infirm. Honest to a fault. Loyal to friends. Work hard for the things i have, and am very possessive of them. Stubborn. Won't ask for help even if i need it, but that's okay, because i don't need it. Extremely self critical. Something of an introvert, unless you can get me talking(a few whiskeys will usually do the trick), at which point shutting me up may necessitate the use of heavy, blunt instruments. I have a strong sense of humor, albeit often vulgar, and sometimes don't know when to shut up(actually, that's not true; more often than not, i know *exactly* when i *should* shut up, but simply choose not to). I suppose there's more.
"Don't pretend that you know me, cause i don't even know myself."
-Pete Townsend

"Some people wear their smile like a disguise.
Those people who smile a lot--watch the eyes..."
-Ani Difranco

If you really want to know more about me, ask; there aren't many questions i won't answer. Or just browse my blog section and read one of the numerous stories that i swore i'd never tell anybody; now, they're open to everybody. I'd advise against it, though. They're long winded and convoluted and probably a huge waste of your time.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

People who are intelligent. If you are ignorant and/or stupid, don't waste my time. Sound like an elitist prick? I'm just getting started...
People who form their own opinions rather than absorbing those of their peers. People who aren't afraid to question what they're told, or even what they see. People who can make me laugh(this is rare). People who enjoy a good joke, and can laugh at a bad one. People who can appreciate sarcasm and cynicism, and on whom subtleties are not wasted. These are the weapons i've forged for myself in the crucible of my life, and i wield them with ardor every day.
Also: People who read. People who enjoy music(real music, not the canned variety manufactured by MTV). People who have a passion for what they do. People with artistic ability, but just as importantly, artistic inspiration. People who realize there can be as much value in staying in as in going out, as much value in solitude as in the company of others. And people who keep their cabinets stocked with good whiskey. I've even been known to share my good whiskey from time to time, if i'm in a good mood(and good company).
I tend to ignore friend requests. Want me to add you? Try talking to me.

My Blog

the perfect fit

if i were an element, i would certainly be the earth, but oh, how i would long to be the wind...
Posted by on Sun, 21 Jun 2009 21:03:00 GMT

nothing much

(committed to the pages of the ever elusive journal, 7:30 a.m., which is, by my perspective, quite late indeed)...Thurs, 26 March 2009, 7:29a.Long time.  Pen has all but dried up, not from use but fro...
Posted by on Thu, 26 Mar 2009 04:42:00 GMT

half the man i used to be

2008 is just about over now, and i lost much this year.  I won't be missing it terribly, though, as a good majority of what i've lost comes to the tune of 21% of my entire body weight(which would tech...
Posted by on Sat, 20 Dec 2008 00:26:00 GMT

Where were you?

I got the news when i woke up.  It was already past noon, but that wasn't uncommon for me, as i worked nights.  I had just, a few days prior, purchased a brand new computer, and with it came...
Posted by on Thu, 11 Sep 2008 03:31:00 GMT

Anyone else in the area happen to notice...

...that the cross up at the top of (the ruins of) Holy Land doesn't seem to be lit up at night anymore?  I first noticed it right after Easter, and thought maybe it was some sort of celebratory g...
Posted by on Thu, 08 May 2008 02:52:00 GMT

It's true (though not something i'm particularly proud of)

Been awhile since i've put anything here.Someone sent me a package of flavored condoms once.  Whether its purpose was that of a gag gift or a (not so) subtle hint, i don't remember; to be ho...
Posted by on Fri, 06 Jul 2007 02:50:00 GMT

i can't see the cat's cradle

Kurt Vonnegut, dead at 84You were my favorite.  Are my favorite.  I never read a page you'd written that i didn't love.  I never knew what to make of it that i could draw so many easy p...
Posted by on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 21:47:00 GMT

searching for a warm place

Haven't said much lately because, well, i haven't had much to say.  No inspiration, be it the compulsion to pick up a pen and see what springs forth when i put it to the paper, or the desire to r...
Posted by on Mon, 26 Mar 2007 23:09:00 GMT

(blagged blog) And on that day, Ken vowed he'd have his revenge

Saw a rather interesting thread on a message board on which i occasionally post the other day, and my personal experiences with such an unusual subject compelled me to contribute to it.  The topi...
Posted by on Sun, 04 Feb 2007 00:39:00 GMT

(cat)Back in Black

Brand new exhaust system for your Jeep Wrangler, including aftermarket muffler, tailpipe, catalytic converter, and clamps:  $600------------------Not having to worry about whether or not your eng...
Posted by on Wed, 20 Dec 2006 14:31:00 GMT